Chapter 253

"Purple lemon, come to dinner." Lu's mother brought up the vegetables, helped me fill a bowl of soup, took another bowl and picked up the fish belly for me.

"Why don't you eat it?"

"It's OK. You eat first and eat more. You look thin and your arms are like bamboo sticks." Lu Mu scooped some meatballs for me. "This is fish balls. Man Xin suddenly said he wanted to eat them. I made some of them a few days ago."

"I don't like it." I really don't like fish balls. I always feel fishy.

"Yes, I forgot. You like spicy food. Oh, how could I forget that?" Mother Lu suddenly remembered that I grew up in Hunan, but she made a Chaoshan dish for me.

"It's OK. I've been in Guangzhou for almost ten years. I'm used to it." I drank a mouthful of soup, and the bowl next to it was full of vegetables, but Lu Mu still served me with vegetables and helped me pick out the fishbone.

"Gill is the best meat. Eat the purple lemon quickly."

Looking at the fish, I suddenly cried, which stunned Lu Mu. She thought it was not delicious and tasted a piece of fish.

But the fish doesn't smell strange

"I used to eat fish at home. I could only eat fish tail, and I could only move chopsticks when my younger brother finished eating."

Mother Lu was stunned by what I said. The chopsticks stopped in mid air, as if they were frozen.

I also don't speak, low head, put the dishes in the bowl into my mouth, until my mouth is full, this just stopped.

I swallowed it all in one gulp, and then I swallowed the soup next to me, and finally I took a mouthful of things to my stomach.

"Sorry, Feifei, it's all mom's fault."

"What's the point of saying that now."

"I know it doesn't make sense, but I still want to tell you, mom is really guilty."

"Guilty?" I raised my eyes and looked forward aimlessly. I didn't know how to understand the word "guilt" in Lu Mu's mouth.

To be exact, this kind of situation happened after I went to university. Before I went to university, I was really eager to see my mother. I always thought that she was driven away by my father instead of abandoning me. She must have her own difficulties. When she was stable there, she would pick me up. But when I went to university and left that so-called home, I suddenly figured out my life experience - right Ah, my mother just abandoned me. She didn't want me, so I don't have to worry about whether she abandoned me or left me here for the time being.

Only in this way can I find peace in my heart. Otherwise, I will fall into the anxiety of searching for answers every day and simply think that I am abandoned. This is the worst result. Nothing is worse than this.

"You said you were guilty. Have you ever come to me for so many years?"

"No No Yes

"If not, what's the use of your guilt here?" I turned my head and looked at Lu Mu. I thought she would at least say "yes", but she denied it. I was really abandoned by her.

"It's not that I don't want to look for you. I'm just afraid that if I get in touch with your father, he will get entangled with me again." Mother Lu choked, as if she had a fishbone stuck in her throat. She was uncomfortable in every way, but she couldn't get it out.

"So you don't think you've ever given birth to me. If you didn't suddenly find out that I'm still living in this world, you can't remember that you still have a daughter, can you?" I suddenly collapsed and roared at Lu Mu. I want to peel her heart. Why can I leave my daughter behind?!

"I'm sorry, Feifei. Mom left you when you were too young. I couldn't take care of you alone, so I put you in the Lu family. I thought my mother-in-law would take care of you. Unexpectedly, she died half a year after I left. I didn't expect that your father had better sell you. If I knew it was such a result, I would not leave you."

"What's the use of saying that now?" I cried bitterly, as if to vent all the emotions accumulated over the years, "when I was a child, I had a high fever one day, and my whole body was like a hot coal. My stepmother refused to take me to the hospital for fear of spending money. She asked me to cover my sweat with more quilts. I covered my sweat all night. When I woke up the next day, my fever subsided, and then my stepmother forced me to cover the quilts I covered last night I just had a high fever, so I squatted by the river and washed three quilts and one quilt. I really wanted to jump into the river and die. I don't know why my mother gave birth to me and didn't want me. If she hated me so much, why did she give birth to me at the beginning! "

"Feifei, let mom make up for you now, OK?" Lu Mu touched my head, but I threw it away. "I said many times, don't call me Feifei."

"Well, I don't call, I don't call." Lu mother quickly changed her tongue. She pulled a paper towel and helped me dry my tears, but I refused to turn my face. Lu mother couldn't help but stood up and hugged my head and cried bitterly, "Mom, I'm sorry for you. You don't want to leave mom anymore. Mom really wants to give you all the love now. Mom won't let anyone hurt you any more."

I buried my face in Lu Mu's hand and cried to tears. I knew that my defense line was collapsing, but I just couldn't say those two words."Well, purple lemon doesn't cry any more. Eat the meal first. I'll watch you finish the meal before I feel at ease." Lu Mu Song opened her hand and pulled a new tissue to wipe my tears. This time, I didn't dodge her and asked her to dry my tears.

After wiping my tears, I turned my face to the table again. Mother Lu helped me to relish a bowl of soup. Watching me drink it, I added a bowl of rice and ate most of the remaining fish.

Lu's mother was finally relieved. When she wanted to ladle me another bowl of soup, I shook my head, "I'm full."

"Purple lemon, do you live alone now?"

"Well, yes."

"Why don't I go to your place every week to help you cook and clean."

"Not so good. You have to take care of Lu MANXIN." I refused Lu's mother, but she insisted on going to my home. "There will be an hour's work here in the afternoon, aunt. I used to be OK."

"Well All right

"Really? Thank you, purple lemon. Thank you for giving mom this chance. " Lu's mother was so excited that she didn't know what to do. She held my hand so excited that her voice changed.

Seeing that I had finished eating, Lu's mother took out the washed fruit from the kitchen. I said I had to go back. Lu's mother seemed disappointed, but soon she comforted herself and could see me again next weekend.

When I left, she put a bag of fruit into the bag and asked me to take it back. I didn't want it, but she forced it into my hand.

"Take the purple lemon. This box is fresh figs. This box is imported cherries. You can eat it quickly these days. I'll buy it for you at your house in a few days. If you have something to call your mother, don't worry about it."

I nodded and took the fruit from Lu's mother. Lu's mother laughed and sent me to the gate of the community.

When I got on the taxi, Lu's mother called Lu MANXIN and asked her to come back.