49 Can't hold back

I returned to my place to see my things scattered around. Robbie said he will be following me here, so I think I should keep my things in place. I have given up trying to push him away. He is very persistent and pushing him away is useless. I normally don't have much time to tidy up my place so it remains a bit messy. But Twen is surprisingly patient enough to clean his room and keep it neat. I wonder who he took after.

I looked at the things I brought for Twen. The running shoes are definitely going to make him happy. I placed them in his room along with the bag and clothes. I smiled at the thought of his suprised expression. I got refreshed and looked at the time. In two hours I have to pick up Twen from Samuel's place. Maybe I should prepare some snacks for him. Should I make chicken bun or maybe cheese corn sandwich?

I went to the kitchen contemplating. I picked up my apron and tied it around, when I heard the creaking of the door. I quickly looked back and saw Robbie casually entering my room and closing the door behind.

"When did you duplicate my room keys?" I asked, sighing. Knowing him, it is not surprising he got a duplicate key. He had never been one to listen or wait patiently.

"During my last visit" he said hesistatingly, "Are you mad at me?"

"Not exactly. I was expecting you would do that. Do you wanna have a sandwich?" I asked fixing my hair to tie it in a bun

Instead of an answer, Robbie hugged me from behind. One of his hand wrapping round my chest while the other round my waist. He planted a firm kiss on my shoulder, sending goosebumps down by back. I shivered slightly before turning my head towards him,

"What do you think your doing?"

"Kissing you and smelling you" he answered taking in a deep breath

"I still haven't forgiven you" I said feeling the line to sound pretty lame when I am not even pushing him away

"Marry me! Marry me then! I would repent for my mistake all my life by submitting my whole life to you"

My eyes widen. Did he just say marry? What was with this out of the blue proposal? "M-marry? You wanna marry me?"

"Yes" he said turning me towards him. I was looking numb with shock. I left fixing my hair letting it fall over my shoulder. Robbie chuckled at my reaction and said coming close to my ears, "Did you think I am still fooling around? I am very serious about you and Twen. When I said I want both of you to be my family, I meant it. I have already told mother about it. She can't wait to meet her grandson"

"This is too sudden. It been hardly a month since we met, that too after eight years. I still don't trust you. And-and.." I started blabbering looking at anywhere but him. Truthfully, my mind has totally stopped working

"I can't hold back anymore!" Robbie suddenly said cutting me mid sentence.

I blinked not understanding! At a time like this he can't be talking of bodily desires!

"I just can't. I am always scared that you will be taken away. I repeatedly have nightmares of the day I rejected you and you running away. I know am sounding childish and insecure, but I can't help. I fear that my mistake from past would come back to bite me" Robbie said, his voice cracking slightly.

I was at a loss for words. Seeing his vulnerable side like this is very new and in some aspect refreshing to me. It felt as if he is trusting me enough to reveal this side of his. I was still not sure as to what I think of Robbie. I would love to forget past and move on. This will also mean Twen getting a dad, he will never be bullied for being born from an Omega and getting a secure childhood. But, past is what has shaped THE ME today. I used my wounds as a catalyst to make myself what I am today. It was long and hard struggle but I succeeded. But the very person who had been the reason for that wound, now wanting to mend my life is a tough pill to swallow. Robbie kept staring at me while all this thoughts were running through my head. He held both sides of my face and said coming nose to nose with me,

"Can I kiss you?"

Without waiting for an answer, he started kissing me. His kiss was gentle. It was not wild, passionate, lust filled or aggressive. It was tender and mild. His lips were soft and moist. His hands went round my waist lodging itself near my hips. I felt as his hands moved behind me, and the knot of my apron loosening. Robbie put one of his hand inside me tee shirt moving straight up my spine. I slightly shivered at his cold fingers tracing my back. His other hand, quickly pulled my apron out. His kiss started getting passionate, as I stepped back. I knew there was nothing but the couch and falling over the couch would mean Robbie would fall over me.

To no one's surprise that's exactly what happened. I fell on the couch along with Robbie. Our kiss ended with it, leaving both of us huffing and staring at each other. There was mingled expression of shock, happiness, desire and sadness in his eyes. I feel like I somehow always end up in such situations whenever am with Robbie. I don't know if it was because he and I were bonded or because I have gone too long without being touched or because Omega's bodies are weak to pleasure, but I am too weak to his approaches. I hardly even touched myself, unless it's necessary, after the separation from Robbie. But his every touch sets me on fire, making my body burn with desire and cravings.

Robbie pecked my lips softly once again, going aside to kiss my cheek, my jaw and my ears. I felt his tongue and teeth on my ear as he nibbled on it. I am ticklish there and unintentionally, I laughed bending my neck. Robbie laughed along, kissing my neck before straightening up and pulling his coat off, followed by his shirt. The body that was revealed by Robbie infront of me was a sight to behold. I goggled at his well built structure, unknowingly. I saw his body in our high school too but at that time, his body was lean with no abs or cuts, a teen's body which hasn't known exercise. But now, his body looked like a hand carved statue with neither too much fat nor too less. His olive skin was glistening with slight sweat. His chest cuts, abs and biceps all looked too perfectly shaped to be true. Robbie seemed oblivious to my staring, as he took my hand in his and placed it on his chest. I felt his skin almost radiating heat and his chest moving up and down with his every breath. After a moment, I felt a 'thump thump thump' of Robbie's racing heart. I looked up at his eyes while he was already looking at mine.

"I promise you, I wouldn't let anyone else make my heart race this way other than you" Robbie murmured like the soft breeze blowing