Chapter 39 - Destiny

After almost 2 hours of briefing and explaining, minus the full explicitly of the erotic scenes, Abigail was finally up to date with the latest drama.

"Damn." Was all she could have said after hearing it all and honestly if this wasn't my story to tell I would have probably said the same thing.

"Damn." She said once more and I sighed feeling the effects of sharing my chaotic life's story.

I need a nap.

"So what do you think? In which situations am I wrong and which are right?" I asked desperate for someone to say that it was not all my fault to ease some of the weight of the guilt off my back.

"Honestly you're not all to blame. They both played a role in this drama so it's all on you three."

I let out a breath of relief as she revealed that because for the first time since it all happened all fingers aren't being pointed at me.

"From what you told me you did try to stay away but he always found ways to be around you so you ended falling for him was not your fault. I think that if they were all truthful from the start this would have been easily avoided. "

I shook my head agreeing with her then realized that she could not see me, " Yeah. But wait, I slept with him even after she told me what he did to her so I am to be blamed."

My sister sucked her teeth as a sign of not agreeing with what I had just said, "yeah but it was obviously a lie. By what you told me he doesn't want her but is trying to get you with every fiber that he has. If he was only looking for a one time thing why was he trying to explain. He did try to talk to you didn't he?"

She made a point but I was so used to beating up myself for everything that I still felt guilty, "at the end of the day I still slept with him even though she asked me not to then proceeded to fight with her so yeah I am a bad person."

She went silent obviously coming up with another way to comfort me which I had already made up my mind that whatever comforting words she has planned won't work, "how old is Shiwoo by the way?"

I paused thinking then realized that I didn't even know this man, " damn. I don't even know. Heck I just found out his real name last week?"

I rubbed my free hand across my face feeling stressed out by the situation and my sister whistled.

"Well. That's messed up," she said speaking my thoughts, " but on the bright side he will be easy to forget. He was there for a short time so just think of him as a lucid dream."

I sighed knowing damn well I would never be able to forget him no matter how hard I try, " i don't think I will be able to forget him any time soon though. He was my first and he actually had my heart pumping like it had never before. I hated him but I wanted him close. Just a glimpse of his face could ruin or make my day.  I hate the imprint that he had left on me. Maybe we could have been together but under different circumstances. Maybe in the next life."

My words and mood were sullen as I finally admitted to the full capacity that I really liked Shiwoo.

Lying to myself just won't do it anymore. 

Lying will cause more lies and look what lies did to my friend ship.

I need therapy. 

"Aww. That is actually quite cute. If it weren't for the circumstances you two would have been my favorite couple. You sound so love sick and it's so cute that it gives me icks."

I chuckled at her and fake gagged as if love was some distasteful food, "not gonna lie. I ship us. Wee would have made beautiful kids."

I laughed and so did Adriel when my tummy began to grumble.

Abigail gasped, "was that an earthquake?"

I rolled my eyes at her as I went to the kitchen to get something to eat, she was always so extra, " no hoe it's my stomach. I'm starving."

"Sounded like an earthquake to me. Hurry up and feed that monster."

I grabbed chips and soda before returning to the couch, "Okay where were we?"

I had been eating a lot recently so I had stocked up on the foods that I now crave.

I had gained a 2 pounds this week  but I didn't care.

I didn't have anybody to impress anyway. 

Besides, all of it goes to my ass so a win for me I guess.

"We were discussing politics when an earthquake occurred."

"Ha ha, very funny." I said as I placed a chip in my mouth.

She chucked softly, "We were talking about destiny and love at first sight sort of."

"Ah yes."

We were both quiet for a while before she spoke, "do you being in destiny.?"

I took a sip of my soda pondering about the question before I answered, "I'm not sure I do. Why?"

"Well think about it. It was your first party since you had been there and you fell for him as soon as you saw him."

I took another sip of soda taking my time to answer, "well yes but it wasn't over at first sight. I was just intrigued. "

"Exactly!" She exclaimed.

"Coincidence maybe." I said shrugging. 

"Or destiny. " She insisted. 

I sighed agreeing with her in an attempt to shut her up and she did, " fine destiny."

She hummed in approval at my acceptance and I just rolled my eyes shaking my head.

We had been on the phone for a while and with the time difference she should be in bed right now, "well big sis this is where it ends for me. I think I have heard enough drama for the night. Take care and be sure to call me as soon as anything happens."

"Mhmmm." I said into the phone mouth filled with chips and she hung up.

Once again I was left bored out of my mind so I decided to turn the TV on.

I never realized how boring my life was until I forced to actually be alone and do what I usually do.

I sometimes wish I had my sister's confidence and charisma because maybe then I would have had some excitement in my life.

I sighed as I cozied myself on the couch eyes fixed on the drama.

I don't know but Kdrama now seem so boring with all that had happened in my life.

I sighed laying on the couch praying for a drama free week.

I really hope that my prayers will be answered.