Chapter 44 - No Self Control

I was still fuming by the time I had come in contact with street vendor selling fish cakes.

The smell was so enticing that I practically floated towards his stall.

H was a small elderly man with a nice warm feeling kind of like my grandpa.

He smiled at me as I ordered two  fish cakes (Odeng)  and all the anger that I was harboring before dissipated.

"That'll be $5. Eat it well" he said has he wrapped my fish cakes in a paper bag handing it to me.

I dipped into my purse pulling out a $5 dollar bill and gave it to him saying, "Thank you sir. I will eat."

It is the simple words such as, "eat well", or "have you eaten yet?" from the older people that I love about this country.

Being a foreigner and away from home it makes me feel as if I am back with my family as a kid when they would take care of me but now I am an adult who will be taking care of a child soon.

A very hungry one if I may add.

I unwrapped one of the fish cakes raising it to my mouth taking a big bite of the deliciously warmed and stuffed dough huffing and blowing as I chew because of how hot it was.

I had scorched my tongue a few times while chewing but for how good this shit tasted, it was worth it.

I had finished two whole fish cakes by myself in the span of 10 minutes but I was still very hungry.

My nose had detected a Korean cheesy corn dog stand and my legs so obediently followed the glorious scent.

The vender was now an older which in turn now caused me to miss my grandma.

"What can I get for you dear?" she asked smiling as she got finished with serving the other costumers.

I quickly scanned the menu  reviewing all the delicious street food and decided on Tteokbokki and two cheesy corn dogs.

"Ill have a serving of Tteokbokki and two cheesy corn dogs please."

She nodded her head as she packaged my order and I did my little dancey dance as I was waiting on her.

"Would you like ketchup on your corn dogs?" she asked and I shook my head yes for who doesn't like ketchup, "okay, that will be $20. Eat it well okay."

"Yes I will. Thank you ma'am." I said as I handed her the money taking the bag from her and giving a polite bow.

I was so excited to eat them for it had been a while since I had it and baby was excited as well for I wasn't gagging. He or she was a  a true Korean. I should treat them to Kimchi one day.

Koreans really love and cant live without their Kimchi.

"I should probably come up with baby names because  cant keep calling the baby it,"  I thought as I found an empty bench in a shade.

I placed the bowl of Tteokbokki and my bag of medicine beside me as I leaned back on the chair, legs crossed as I took a bite of my corndog trying my best to fight the stretchy cheese.

"Mmmm" I softly moaned, closing my eyes to savor the flavor.

I took another bite of my corn dog then another after another until I was only left with a stick and a frown on lips from eating it all.

"Good thing I bought two" I giggle as I unwrapped the last corndog moaning once again in delight at cheesy sausagy goodness.

I had finished the second slower than the first seeing as I was getting full and wanted to enjoy it this time.

After finishing the corndog I got to dealing with the Tteokbokki being disappointed that It had started to get cold.

It was still warm and appetizing but I would have liked it more if it were hot but I was who to be blame so it was okay.

By the time I was done with my Tteokbokki I was so full and content but I still had room for dessert. 

I sat for few minutes before cleaning up my face and surrounding before dumping my garbage making my way towards a slushy stand to buy something to help me with this heat.

I had honestly set off with the intent of buying only a water and probably a fruit juice to balance it out but I ended up leaving with two scoops of ice-cream and a giant rainbow slushy.

This place was obviously set up for you to spend money for how could I say no to mickey mouse shaped ice-cream?

I was happy and so was my stomach so it was okay.

Upon walking towards the bus stop about to end a well spent day, a cute head band stand caught my eye and I couldn't stop my self.

Everything was so exciting and it felt as if it was my first time out of the house.

I bought my self a puppy head band making sure to snap a few selfies for memories of how much fun I had.

I would definitely come back here with baby Adrian or Adriel when they are born.

Hey, that's a really nice name. The 'A' would be from my name and maybe 'S' from his.

Maybe their Korean names can be Seojun or Seoyun since his is Seojin.

"I really like those names but what about the last name?" I whispered to myself.

Do I give them his name or mine?

Most importantly do I tell him or not?

This was so frustrating and now that I left Han River all the worries came crashing down.

I made my way to the bus stop feeling all the food that I ate wearing off as I sat at the bus stop swinging my legs as I waited on the next bus to arrive.

I had a lot to think about and a lot of decisions to make and I will do so when I get home, on the couch with a family size bag of chips and a tub of ice-cream.