Chapter 60 - Heartbeat

Another week had blown by and now we only had two weeks left before the big exams.

To be honest I was kind of nervous but I was glad I had Minjae beside me studying whenever we can.

It was another Saturday and today I was six weeks pregnant and had my first ultrasound today. 

I made sure to take pictures of my belly when I woke up before I showered and got ready to leave the house.

Harin has been absent for the longest time so she still didn't know that I was pregnant and even when she was around she didn't give me a second glance. 

My mom had been pressuring me about what the secret was because she was dying to know but I told her that she would have to be patient and wait till today.

I was both excited and nervous when I stood at the bus stop waiting for the next bus thinking of how I was going to break it tot them.

My mom is like a domino. I tell her something and the community will know by the time I could start a next sentence so all I had to do was tell her and the whole family will know but I didn't want them to know.

I would have to give her a stern warning and lecture when I tell her for this is my business and not the whole worlds'.

If the daddy doesn't know, why must the church?

Shiwoo was the other person on my, 'surprise I am having a baby' list but he was the one I feared the most to tell. 

The bus arrived and I boarded it taking my time to find a seat making myself comfortable.

A few minutes later I arrived at the doctor's office and took a seat in the waiting room waiting to be attended on.

I luckily didn't have to wait long for I had an appointment so the nurse just called my name and led me through the doors to the doctor's consultation room.

"Oh miss Carter!" said the doctor looking up from her clip board when I entered the room, "you're here and looking lovely as usual." 

I chuckled at her compliment taking a seat on the bed, " come on doc, you've only seen me twice."

"Yes and I have come to know how lovely you are already don't you think?" she asked as she smiled at me leaving her chair to stand at my side.

I smiled back at her as she gestured for me to take my shoes off and lay on the bed rolling up my shirt to expose my body.

"Lets see you're now six weeks right?" she asked as put her gloves on.

"Yes ma'am" I said as I tried to control my breathing.

"Oh Yeji is fine" she said politely as she placed the weird cold gel on my stomach, "okay lets get right into it shall we. I know you must be dying to get your first glance at your baby. I am too. Now just relax and be calm for their is no need to be nervous. They have been living inside you for quite some time now so I am sure that you two would have been quite acquainted by now so this interaction shouldn't be awkward at all."

"Yeah we are best buds" I laughed and she laughed with me, "oh and doc, will this be 3D or 4D?"

"Well whatever you want but I would recommend 4D because it will be clearer."

I shook my head yeah obviously going with with the 4D, "4D is fine."

"Great now lets begin?" she asked as she turned the machine on placing the scanner thing on the part of my belly where the gel was.

She moved it around a few times trying to the find the perfect spot and I watched her movements before she directed my gaze to the monitor screen.

All I could see were shades of black and white as she moved but then she paused on a spot freezing the image.

"Look look here!" she exclaimed pointing to a spot on the monitor and I squinted my eye trying to see what it was, "here is your baby."

I was still squinting and looking as she pointed so she brought up the screen bigger and then I saw a tiny little member at the side of the image.

I gasped in awes and tears welled in my eyes as I finally saw my baby for the first time.

It was so tiny and cute right there that I wanted to touch it but it wasn't even fully developed yet.

I wanted so bad to hold them and tell them of hoe much I love them.

This was it.

It wasn't a false alarm.

I really was going to have a baby.

"So how do you feel?" ask doctor Yeji as wiped my stomach clean of the gel before heading to print out the images.

"Well" I said rolling my shirt back down then positioned myself to sit on the bed, "I don't know I mean it was so nice to finally see them like it is real. They are real."

"Yeah. First time pregnancy can be like that." she said as she handed me the images.

I held them in my hands staring at the figure as I felt my love for him or her overflowing.

"I didn't want to ask this since I didn't want to offend you but is the father present? Have you two discussed this before?"

My smile fell as I looked at her.

"No" I said shortly, "I haven't had the chance to tell him."

"Awe well is there like  friend that you are close to or family that is near you." she asked another.

"No" I replied shortly like I did before, "its just me and the baby. We will be fine. I will make sure of it."

"Well you are one strong young lady," she complimented ash she placed both hands on my shoulders, "at your young age I wouldn't have thought you would be this strong and able to work things out but let me say this. You can do it and you will do it. Even if no one wants to help and even if you must be a single mother without any support system, do what us best for you and your child. You've got this girl." 

"Thank you"  I said as she removed her hands from my shoulders then removed her gloves disposing of them as she returned to her desk.

She took out her clipboard after sanitizing her hands and began to write a few things down, "Okay Miss Carter that is it for the day. You already have your schedule so I will see you in a few weeks and I expect that belly to be round and huge okay missy?"

I chuckled at her as I did a little jump from the bed then bent down to put my shoes back on.

"Take care for now and I will see you in a few to check the gender and health of the baby okay." she said  placing the clip board and pen down then sanitized her hands.

"Yes I will. You take care too and have a good day. Thanks again." I said about to leave but then she called out to me.

"Miss Carter wait! I almost forgot to tell you your due date."

I stopped in my tracks quickly retuning to her, "oh right! I totally forgot about it also.

She looked over her clipboard once kore before nodding and telling me the prediction, "so you are set to be due by 12 of April."

"The 12 of April?" I asked to make sure and she nodded showing me the paper, "that is the day of my parents' anniversary. They will be happy to hear that." 

"Wow how exciting!" clapped the doctor and I smiled loving her enthusiasm.

"Well get out of her, shoo shoo!" she waved at me and I chuckled shaking my head before finally leaving.

I looked at the picture in my hand then brought it up to my chest holding it up to my heart.

My baby's first photoshoot.

I was so excited and couldn't wait to tell my parents and sister about the news.

Maybe not my brothers but they would find out eventually.

I went to the bus stop and decided that I should treat myself to ice-cream for how well I have been doing and so I did.

I boarded the bus and went to my favorite café that I would go to after with Harin, my home away from home.

On my way I would so ever often steal glances of the picture smiling and giggling being a happy person.

Nothing could have ruined my day for me after this.

Or so I thought.

I arrived at the café hoping to have a good time but that all was ruined when I saw the last two people that I wanted to.

Harin and Shiwoo.