Chapter 78 - Master Plan

I woke up from a peaceful nap to find myself fresh and clean and my stitches re done.

I looked to my left towards the table and saw some weird looking, colorless food and I immediately gagged at the thought of eating it.

I haven't eaten even before since I got here, but I didn't too mind because my babies were my number one priority.

I don't know how long I had been out for this time so I quickly search the drawers of the bed side table and luckily enough it was there.

I quickly turned my phone on to se it flooding with texts and missed calls from my family and I just sighed knowing of how many questions will be asked when I finally call them back.

I looked at the date and time on my phone and saw that it was 11:59 pm on the 4th of March so I had only been sleeping for like a day or so.

I sighed as I laid my head back on the pillow feeling a slight head ache and a new wave fatigue.

A nurse soon after entered the room and went straight to checking my vitals as I pretended to still be asleep, but I could feel her suspicious eyes on me as she checked my pulse.

As soon she left my eyes flew open and I started to devise a plan of how I was going to get into the NICU to see my babies again and hopefully spend a longer time with them this time.

I placed one foot on the ground and as I was about to place down the other the doors flew open and in came the doctor.

I froze in my place for it would have been too risky to run back to bed so I just quickly thought of a believable excuse, "Umm. I was just umm, uh, looking for the bathroom."

The doctor sighed as she walked up to me shaking her head and pointed at me to get back to bed before she spoke, "Miss Carter why is it that you are always trying to run away? Your babies are fine and you are not. As your doctor I put you on bed rest but you are just too stubborn and keep getting and making matters worse."

I sighed as I sat on the bed and stuck the IV needled back into my arm, "I just want to see them. That's all. I haven't even name them yet can I do that at least?"

She sighed as pinched her nose bridge obviously tired from just being a doctor, honestly, I don't know how they do it.

"Look Miss Carter I know that you want to see them and believe me I want you to see them but they are preemie babies and are at risk so could you please give it a few days?" she bargained and I just lowered my head as a tear rolled down my cheek.

"Fine" she said cracking and I tried my best to hide my smile, "I will bring them tomorrow so that you can name and bond with them. Are you lactating yet because we needed to get some milk from you anyways since you cant breastfeed as yet and we are running low on supply."

I held my empty breasts and sighed for I have not been lactating as yet and I didn't know why.

"No" I answered as my head hung low.

"Well that's okay. With just enough water, sleep, relaxation and breast message you should be fine. I suggest that you start doing that tonight so that your breast will be full by the morning because your babies will need it. Well I must now take my leave for as you can see I am always busy. Anyways get some rest and get hydrated and I will see in the morning."

"Thank you!" I said gratefully, tears welling in my eyes as she smiled at me before leaving.

I was so excited to finally be able to see my babies with out restrictions and to finally hold and name them.

I got to massaging my breast and rank all the water in sight but I just couldn't seem to get my self to try the food so I just called Miss Knag and she was surprisingly wide awake and ready to make me meal.

It was in the middle of the night which weren't visiting hours but she got senior citizen privilege and it was enough to let her in when paired with my "I just had two babies" privilege.

"Oh dear!" she exclaimed as she saw the food that they had given me, "do they really expect you to eat that?"

I shrugged as I outstretched my arms waiting for the food feeling happy as the warm plates hit my hand and the delicious scent greeted my nose and my stomach grumbled.

I ate all of the food in record time clearing the plates as I didn't know how hungry I was.

Miss Knag had to leave unfortunately for it was very late and I was being of convenience but she didn't leave before making sure that I was good telling me that she will be back tomorrow with more delicious foods and I smiled.

I went back to massaging my breast and relaxing even though more boobs hurt as hell and I was in pain but this was for my babies.

It was about a few minutes to four am in the morning when I finally fell asleep willing the day light to come faster so that I could see my babies.

My stomach and my heart felt full and overflowing as I dreamt beautiful dreams and made plans of our future that would start tomorrow.

Shiwoo is missing out on all of this, but he didn't know and he will never know.

I am a single mom by choice and I don't care how petty the reason sounds because I do not need no man.