Chapter 82 - Broke

"I don't know mom I am still trying" I said into the phone between my ear and shoulder as I stirred the pot of porridge.

"Well you need to try harder for when the money runs out what will you do then?" she asked and I sighed removing the phone from the shoulder and placed in on the counter hitting the speaker button.

I had been trying for the pas three months to get a job at a Law Firm but I keep getting rejected because the schedule was too hectic and the twins were only nine months old and I didn't want to leave them for too long and my mom keeps on pressuring me.

"Look mom for the last time, I am not leaving my babies for a job no matter how broke I get. I will just have to put the Lawyer thing on hold for a while or at least until they are older."  I said I scooped some of the porridge into their bowls before placing it into the freezer to cool a bit.

"I know that you don't want to leave the twins but you need a job. What about Miss Kang? Cant she take care of them for a while or what about a baby sitter?"

I massaged my temples trying to prevent the headache that was forming silently screaming at the phone before collecting my self and checked my tone before I spoke to my mother, "mommy, please. Miss Kang have already done enough for me for the past year and she is an old lady and the twins are a lot especially since they love to crawl about and break things. I know that you see them as your little angels, but I see them for who they truly are and they are two little minxes that bite."

"Of course they will bite they have teeth duh." she replied completely missing the point and I just groaned as I remembered their porridge in the freezer.

"Okay lets go trouble" I said as I walked up to where they were playing and brought them one by one to the kitchen and strapped them in their high chair for they were the size of Godzilla.

I took their bowls out from the freezer and placed it on the counter top for a few minutes before giving it to them and handed them their spoon for they had established that they were independent and could feed them selves which I was thankful for.

"You still there?" I heard my mom asked though the phone at the spot where I had left her on the counter and I sighed as I walked over and grabbed my phone.

"Yes I'm still her. I was just feeding the babies. What's up?" I asked as I poured some of the porridge in my bowl and placed it in the porridge to cool for I could not stand hot porridge.

I heard her tisked through the phone and I knew she had something new to say to criticize my parenting, "You're just feeding the babies breakfast now? Why are they having breakfast this late?"

I wanted nothing more than to hang up in her face at how frustrated she was making me feel, but I didn't for she was my mother and I respected her, "no mom they already drank 12oz of baby feeding when they work up and have been playing all morning and I have them fruit. They are just having porridge with me since I haven't eaten as yet."

"Are you still having trouble eating? Is your eating disorder resurafaci-"

"No mom!" I cut her off losing my patience for I didn't feel like having another conversation about my resurfacing for it was still a sore topic, "Mama I am fine and their is no need to worry about me. I am eating at least twice a day and enough as well. Look I have a lot to do today with laundry and job hunting and so on so I'll get going now."

"Wait! But-"

"Good bye mom. I love you and give my love to the family and please don't worry about me. I am a big girl and I'm fine. Bye." I sighed as I hung up and now I have suddenly lost my appetite.

I had lied to my mom when I told her that I had been eating enough for really I didn't have the time nor the appetite to.

"I just had too many things on my plate right now," I thought as I heard the spilling of porridge followed by another then giggles.

Of course.

What one does, so does the other.

I sighed as I got to cleaning the porridge off the floor as I placed them in the baby proofed corner for time out which they protested against by pouting by I was immune to their little faces and I was strict with their ten seconds punishment.

Okay maybe they did had me wrapped around their cute little fingers, but its the thought of discipline that counts right?

I allowed the kids to crawl around as I did the laundry and cleaned before giving them and bath and putting them down for a nap then got to job hunting.

I was kind of like this same old routine of unsuccessful job hunting everyday for a while and I was getting real bored of it for nothing stood out to me and actually intrigued me.

I needed a job whose hours were flexible and the pay was enough in my field of qualifications, but I guess that their isn't much option or the spots have already been filled.

"At this point I might as well just open my Law Firm and just it a day" I thought out loud then immediately laughed at my self.

Silly me, thinking about opening a Law Firm ha.

Wait.

That actually isn't a bad idea.

Maybe I could...

Nah!

Better dream small kid.

Better dream small.