Chapter 118 - Love

I had been pacing the floors of Shiwoo's room awaiting for his return checking my phone every second.

He had left the room with such urgency and determination and I now feared what he might be capable of.

I didn't put it past him to kill somebody and I honestly don't know if I will be able to look at him the same if he did so right now.

Yes he has admitted to killing people while in Russia, but this was Korea and he had a family here. I should at least trust that he has changed and doesn't have a gun right?

I tried dialing his phone a few more times, but it just went straight to voice-mail and it has been a little over an hour now.

Maybe I was just a bit paranoid for I now knew the seriousness of this situation and how dangerous Ana could be.

A few minutes had passed with me still locked in the room away from the kids for I didn't want to startle them with my crazy hair and frantic eyes and movements when I finally heard the front door opened and closed followed by the sound of heavy foot steps towards me and I let out a sigh of relief.

"How did it go?" I asked as soon as he entered and closed the door.

He sighed as he ran a hand over his face, "how did you expect for it to go?"

He sounded agitated and I knew that he was still mad at me so I just kept quiet for the most part  biting my lip.

He walked passed me and sat on the bed casually removing a gun from his side as he placed it in his bed side table and I gasped.

"Oh My God! What the fuck are you doing with that?"

"Calm down Tally. It's on safety" he easily replied which left me even more anxious.

"Calm down? The fuck Shiwoo? That's a fucking gun that you just pulled out of your pocket in the same space that your kids are in!" I yelled and he massaged his temple. 

"Could you please keep it down my head already hurts form dealing with your mess."

I scoffed as I folded my arms, "my mess? How is this my mess? Am I the one that brought my mistress here with me or was that you?"

"Yes it is your mess for if you didn't go and look for trouble we wouldn't be in this mess." He argued and I scoffed again.

"I didn't go looking trouble I went looking directly for you, but I guess you're right. You are trouble!"

"Oh wow it took you long enough to realize that. I did warn you from the get go that I was wrong for you didn't I? Now look at us. You're getting a body guard by the way and it is not up for discussion." He said with such finality as if I were one of the twins.

"Excuse you! I do not need a baby sitter and and I remind you that you told me that I was "so wrong for you" after you had already knocked me up. I was stuck with you Shiwoo whether I liked it or not!" I yelled back and he rolled his eyes.

"Oh my God Tally why do you keep digging into the pass just to justify your actions? Would you have liked it that night if I had worn a condom or would you have liked it that we didn't have sex at all?"

"What? Are you implying that having kids with you was a mistake?" I asked confused. 

"Is it?" he asked sounding hurt and I sighed.

"No. Shiwoo I wouldn't have had it any other way. Yes things could have happened a little better you know with me telling you and you being there from the beginning, but I am glad that you were my first and the father of my kids" I took a deep breath and sighed mustering up the courage to say what I wanted to say next, "Shiwoo I-I love you."

At the sound of those three words the look on his face resembled that of the afternoon sun.

"Really?" He asked in disbelief and I nodded smiling. 

"Yes dummy. Of course I love you."

His smiled grew even wider and he came and held my cheek in the palm of his hand as he placed a gentle kiss on my forehead, "I love you more, but you're still getting a a body guard."

"Ughh" I groaned and pouted, but he placed a swift kiss on my lips.

"You won't even notice them. It's just to keep you safe. I can't risk neither of your lives" he said sounding sad and I sighed giving in.

"Fine I guess. Do I get a gun?" I asked and he rose a brow.

"A gun? What will you do with a gun?"

"Oh you know shoot people. The usual" I shrugged. 

He chucked at me as I smiled sweetly still wanting the gun.

"I'll think about it, but you and the kids need to learn self defense. How about classes twice a week?" He asked and I nodded.

"Bold of you to assume that I cannot take care of myself" I said as I stared stared snow him my moves by kicking and punching, and my last kick left me unbalanced and I fell forward taking him down with me.

"Oof" He groaned as my leg hit him in the stomach and my chest in his face.

"Sorry" I apologized a I tried to get up, but he pulled me back toward his.

"No. Don't move" He groaned and I laid still with my chest now on his and my vagina on his bulge.

"Uhh Shiwoo, you're umm ah dick is pressing into my lower stomach." I said feeling a bit flustered and he smirked. 

"You do this to me Tally. Everyday. You're going to he the death of me. Are you really shy right now?" he asked as I avoided eye contact. 

"Stop making fun of me. I haven't done this is a while." I pouted and he pecked my lips.

"Good. I didn't want to have to kill another guy for touching you." He said teasing, but I knew that deep down that he was serious, but I still chuckled with him.

"So umm Mr. Kim, what do you want for your birthday?" I asked after few moments of silence. 

"Besides you. Maybe for you to live with me." He said sounding hopeful and I sucked in a breath. 

"Umm yeah I don't know. I like my apartment and my independence so I'm not sure. Plus you live at a hotel and as nice as that sounds I don't think that I should. " I said declining as a I peeled my self off of him.

"I actually checked out of the hotel today and was considering buying a house, but that's fine. It's too big of a step I guess." He said as he too got off the floor.

"Maybe we should just take things so slow and get to know each other first and focus on being good parents before anything else."

"Fine. If you think that that is best. Why not. But I'm giving up on our relationship though. You just told me that you loved me." He said smiling again as he wiggled his eyebrows and I giggled.

"You are so stupid." I relied and he giggled.

"Mommy" said a voice from outside of the door and I went to open it to see the two trouble makers.

"Hello little people. How may I be of service. "

"We miss you" they replied and my heart melted.

"Awww come here."

I took the both into my arms as I brought them over to their dad on the bed.

"Would you like to play with mommy am daddy?" I ask and they both frantically nodded.

Soon after their giggles filled the room as we had a tickle and pillows fight and we were genuinely happy.

Shiwoo ended the night bytelling them stories as they snuggled closer until they both fell asleep.

I too was feeling sleeping by that time so I closed eyes as I cuddle with them.

In that moment we felt like a real family and my heart was full.

I can only pray that we stay like that for a a long time if not forever. 

I'm not sure of what happened between Ana and Shiwoo when he left here, and it seemed pretty serious, but I trust this man to keep us safe at whatever cost.

We will have to have a talk about the gun though for I still believed that it should not be in this house, but it might be necessary in these times.

I still didn't want a body guard though so I'll have to talk my way out of it.

I didn't need a baby sitter,  but what I do need is a gun.

If I were to ever see that bitch Ana again and if she so much as dear threaten us I will not hesitate to put a bullet inside of her.

I do not care about the history of her family or what she might be capable of for unlike Shiwoo she did not have me wrapped and I was not afraid to put a bitch in her place.