Chapter 132 - Blondes

"You look too beautiful to be standing here alone принцесса

(printsessa)-(princess)" said an old man walking up to me and I sighed.

"Good thing I am not here alone."

"Well I don't see any one here." he said stepping closer and I took a step back.

"Well he is just being a gentle man and getting something for me. A gentle man unlike somebody that I have unwillingly come to know of."

He still pressed forward still not taking a hint and I sighed, "I must say that you are quite beautiful to be outside. If I were that lucky guy who held your heart I would lock you up in my house."

I sucked in a breath finding that situation all too familiar, "ah yes for your answers do have a reputation of caging mine. I would have to disrespectfully pass on that offer thank you."

He looked confused at my words raising a brow, "what does that even me? I was just trying to compliment you."

"Well giving our heritage and history is doesn't seem like such a compliment does it?"

"Okay okay slow down. What does any of this mean?"

I sighed as I placed my drink down looking at him as I explain as if I were explaining to one of my kids, "it means sir that you are white and I am black and you saying that you would lock me up in your house is not a compliment for your slave owning answered have a reputation of doing so. You see the pattern and the big picture here or do you still don't understand?"

He looked furious and red in the face and I was not sure whether it was from what I said or how slow I was taking to explain it making him feel dumb, "I understand alright. I understand that you are a bitch."

He was starting to get aggressive and we all know how that story ends, "well that's my cue. Good day sir."

I walked away smirking leaving him as red as a tomato.

I made my way across the ball room staring up at the chandelier not looking where I was going when I suddenly bumped into someone.

"Oh my I'm so sorry" I apologized and she turned around smiling.

"Ah it's fine. No problem" 

"I really am sorry. I was not looking where I was going. Are you okay?" I asked feeling guilty, but she just chuckled waving it off.

"I'm fine. Truly see. I didn't even spill my drink.

"Well I'm glad" I replied and she smiled once more brushing a strand of straight blone hair out of her face and  I returned her warm smiled admiring her facial features when I I heard my name.

"Atalia?" asked Shiwoo snaking his hands around my waist turning me towards him, "why did you leave you spot where I left you? You had me worried."

"Oh I'm sorry. I was-"

"Wait Seo Joon? Is that you?" asked the lady and Shiwoo looked at her confused and she laughed, "it is you oh my God hi!" she said going in for a hug and I rose a brow at Shiwoo and he shook his head confused, "oh my bad. Where ever are my manners. Seo Joon its me Kira, Kira Petrov from school."

His face slowly morphed into one of realization as it lit up and he released my waist going in for a hug, "Kira? Kira really is that you!? Oh my fucking God it's been ages. You've seriously changed. You look so good."

"Yeah well I got the braces off and stopped wearing so many pony tails and just got a little older." she replied smiling flashing her perfectly white and straight teeth and the smile that I found so beautiful not too long ago began to piss me off.

"Yeah changed your hairstyle and got lip fillers and major surgeries as if anybody could look that good naturally with your long legs and slim model figure." I scoffed under my breath, but they were too busy talking to hear.

"Oh where are my manners" said Shiwoo pulling me close to him, "this is Atalia Carter, my umm-uh."

"Wife and the mother of his kids." I said helping him out and smiling flashing the ring on my finger for I had removed it from around my neck.

"Oh we've me. She's quite a clumsy one isn't she?"

She laughed and I side eyed him, "ha ha yes very funny. I'm tearing up from laughter here, but We can't all be naturally perfect can we?"

"True" she said nodding and she kept smiling looking at Shiwoo, "hey Shiwoo you remember when we were younger and we would hang out and at your house and get into trouble? I had a major crush on you then."

"Ha ha yeah I remember. We used to be inseparable that my parents would worry that I'd marry you instead of Harin." he joked and they both laughed and I folded my arms not finding it funny.

"Speaking of Harin where is she? I remember her being so young and always following you around. She was quite a lot to handle." okay that I agree with, but still.

"She uhh, she left the country a few years back and I haven't heard from her ever since. I think she took over their family's business or something. But how about you? Did you become the big CEO?" he asked and she blushed a little looking shy.

"Well yeah. I did take it over. It's going pretty well actually so thank you for asking. You know people don't really like hearing about female bosses." she said softly and I rolled my eyes at her bullshit.

"Of course people love hearing about female bosses. It's literally like bad ass and reporters kill for that kind of success story."

"Oh. I didn't know that you knew so much about work life. I thought that you were a stay at home mom" she said literally and figuratively looking down on me and I placed a hand on my hip leaning my head to the side.

"Excuse me?"

"Well no I don't mean it like an offence. I just assumed since you know-"

"Since he was rich?" I answered and she nodded.

I scoffed taking a step forward when Shiwoo outstretched his arm stopping my moments and I pouted, "well Tally actually isn't a stay at home mom. She actually has her own Law firm that she built from scratch and is now at the top."

"Oh wow. That is quite impressive. Girl boss. I like it."

"Better believe it. First generation and not inherited sweety. Hard work and dedication." I said staring her down before she blinked and I smirked.

"Well it was quite nice seeing you again Seo Joon. We should meet up catch up sometime. Here is my card. Have  nice evening. Miss Atalia." she said giving a pleasant smile before leaving.

"Wow that was nice seeing an old friend. It has been so long." he said as he looked at he card and I grabbed it from his hand ripping it.

"I see why you like blondes. You have a type." I said staring him down as I threw the paper in his face walking away leaving him confused.

Of course he had a female friend who he grew up with, which happened to be rich, which happened to be in love with him, which happened to be so damn hot.

I was furious as I made my way over to the finger food table taking a bite out of everything.

"Ah I see you've made it" said a voice from behind me and I sighed turning around knowing who it was.

I swallowed the food in my mouth and used the napkins to wipe my mouth as before I spoke, "hello Anna. Looking lovely this evening."

"Thank you and so do you." she complimented and I smiled, but it immediately fell after I heard her next words, "you know I never really expected Svetoslav to actually be with such a, umm child."

"I beg your pardon? I am no child."

"But you are dear. Look at you. Splurging over the food table while he is over there speaking to actual women. You know I was watching your conversation with Kira my second cousin twice removed and he looked so happy to speak with a woman at his level. Both height wise and maturity."

"Your cousin? Huh. I knew she felt familiar. Bitch runs in the family I see." I said and she chuckled.

"Such child like responses. Tisk tisk tisk." she teased and my blood began to boil, "oh please don't tell me that you are going to have another one of your outburst and cause scene dear. Why don't you put that energy into something more useful, like maybe say the gym hmm? I must say you look quite heavy dear. Only a matter of time that Shiwoo sees it."

I gasped at her words as she reached over me taking a slice of apple as she plopped it into her red stained lips and my chest began to hurt as my breathing shortened.

Was she saying that I was,...fat?

Oh God no.

No no no not this again.

I tried to control my breathing as I looked over at Shiwoo who was surrounded a group of women who you could have guessed looked my models.

My throat stung as it felt like I had something stuck in it and I felt like throwing up when I saw one of them raised their hands to fix his collar and he smiled before turning to lock eyes with me then I ran.

I ran out of there as my eyes stung from being welled with tears for Anna was right.

I had tried so hard all of my life to get rid of my insecurities and learn to love myself, but just as easy as that I felt as if  I was spiraling down wards.

"Atalia!? Atalia!?" I heard as I ran through a door not knowing where I was going.

I ran down a corridor then through another at the right being hit with the cool night's breeze as I stepped outside.

I took in a deep breath as I sobbed when I heard him again then I began running again, this time through the garden.

"Atalia wait please! You're going to hurt yourself. You're running in heels!"

Huh? I asked myself then I remembered that I actually was wearing heels ten suddenly it's like I forgot how to run for I twisted my ankle and fell to the ground with a loud thud, "ow!"

"Fuck Atalia! I told you not to run!" he cursed as he caught up to me bending down to where I was and I began to sob, "oh baby no. I didn't mean to yell. I'm sorry" he apologized.

"No. It's not your fault. It's because I'm so fat and heavy" I cried grabbing my hands from his and he tried to hold me.

"What!? What kind of fuckery is that!?" he asked and I sobbed even more.

"It's because I have the mentality of a child and you, and you need a woman." I cried and he sighed as he placed my hand to wrap his shoulder as he lifted me off the floor with ease bringing me into the house then into and empty room placing me on the bed to look at my ankle.

"You messed it up really bad Tally." he said as he wrapped it in gauze that he found in the bathroom.

"I'm sorry" I apologized picking at my fingers and he sighed as he held my hands and I slowly looked up at him.

"Atalia look at me. It doesn't matter how big or small you are or how childish or mature you are. I will love either way." he said with all sincerity and a tear rolled down my cheek as I pulled him down for a hug crying in his stomach.

"I don't deserve your love. You are better off with somebody like Kira who is a woman and who's is beautiful unlike me."

"Kira? Why would I date Kira? Is this what this was about?" he asked unwrapping my hands from around his waist as he brought my chin up to look at him.

"Maybe" I response sniffling and he smiled.

"You were jealous weren't you?"

"Okay okay. I broke the rule. There! Are you happy?" I asked as I rolled my eyes and he dipped his head to place a long and sweet kiss to my lips and I closed my eyes as he held my face in his palms.

"Yes. I'm very happy. Now let's get you home. You must be so tired."

I wrapped my hands around his shoulder as he carried me out the doors and out the house bridal style.

I caught sight of Kira staring at us and I smirked staring her down until she was out of sight.

He took my home and and placed me on the bed and gently removed my dress and I my hands instantly flew up covering my self and he removed them placing a kiss on my stomach, "don't you ever hide your body from me princess. I will kiss every inch of you that you feel is ugly."

I smiled sadly as he said those words and I allowed him to removed my bra and panties as he placed kisses all over.

He carried me to the shower as I wrapped my legs around his waist and he scrubbed my body clean for me then he dressed me and tucked me in after feeding me a warm cup of chamomile tea.

I didn't care what Anna had to say any more.

I know that he loves me for me and I too loved him with all my heart.