Chapter 135 - Dead

I pulled the blanket closer to my chest as I shivered from the cold as I hugged my knees.

My body felt numb and my heartbeat felt slow and eyelids grew heavy.

I sniffled a little as I took in a deep breath memories of his body flashing across my face and my lip quiver as my eyes filled with tears.

I looked to my side around the rest of the plane seeing the rest of guys storing away as I sat there heart broken.

We had been flying for hours and I haven't seen Shiwoo since the doctors left and my hands had been itching every minute to open that door and touch him, but his wounds were still very fresh and he needed to rest, but God I needed to see him.

I still couldn't believe what had happened today and I don't think I ever will.

I was still in shock and every time I started to drift into slumber, memories of his hand falling lifelessly and his faying I jumped up with my heart pounded so loud in my ears.

I sighed as I held my breath, quietly removing the towel from around me as I walked towards the door hesitating before I pushed it open.

I silently stood there at the door post staring as I held my breath looking at his chest for movements when I saw it slowly rose and fell and I let out a sigh of relief.

A minute or so had passed and I still stood there twisting my fingers deciding whether I should go near him or not.

I finally decided on stepping closer and I did so tip toing holding my breath when I went to his side bending my knees.

His face was bruised and there were banges all over.

He had a bullet wound that went through his right shoulder which was banged and he had a deep knife wound in his side.

My eyes welled with tears as I looked at his barely alive state and I placed my hand over my mouth to try and muffle my sobs.

"This is all my fault. I shouldn't have let you go."

I gingerly reached out my hand and ran the back of it across his forehead and he stirred and I froze gasping when he eyes slowly fluttered open and he squinted.

"Tally?"

"No no baby shh. Save you strength." I said as he tried to get up wincing at the pain.

"Ah-. What happened?"

"You were badly hurt Shiwoo. I thought, I thought that  I had lost you." I managed to croak out before breaking down and he grabbed a hold of my hand.

"Hey hey baby no. Please don't cry. Look, I'm fine now. Don't cry."

"I should be the one comforting, but look at me. I'm a mess" I cried as he squeezed my hand, "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have let you. It's all my fault."

"Come here" he said as he motioned for me to join him on the bed and I hesitated a while before I climb up and laid on his lap and he lightly brushed his fingers across my cheeks and I felt a sense of warmth and comfort and I closed my eyes enjoying the feeling, "I had you pretty scared huh?"

"Yeah" I said softly as I snuggled onto his lap being careful as not to hurt him.

"Well I don't want you to blame yourself for it was my decision and not, not yours. Look I'm fine. See."

"But you're not fine. You are with knife and gun wounds Shiwoo. That is not fine. Do you know how much it broke my heart today when they carried your lifeless body in? Do you have any idea of much my heart broke at the thought of losing you? So no, it is not okay."

He sighed as I began to sob and I bit my lip stopping myself from full on bawling for I had hardly any tears left and my eyes hurt from crying, "yeah you're right Tally. I can't imagine how hard that was for and I'm sorry. I promise you that it's all over now and I wont ever put my self in such dangers again. Nikolay is dead and Interpol has the rest of his men. We are free Tally."

I smiled at his words as he wiped the tears on my cheek, "I'm glad because if you were to die, I would have killed you."

He began to chukle at my words then began to caugh as he winced in pain, "ah. That hurts like bitch."

"Yes so you better be careful so that you can heal well. I'll take care of you."

"You will? Will you wear a nurses outfit? I love roleplaying nurse and patient."

"Of course you do," I said rolling my eyes as I got up from his lap, "no monkey business for you sir until you are all better."

"B-but"

"Nope. It's final." I said opening the door lock and he pouted.

"Not even a little foreplay?" he begged  and I shook my head no.

"Get some rest. Well be back in Korea in less half an hour. You need to start thinking about what you are going to tell the kids and I need to start thinking about what to tell Lia and Minjae."

I closed on his pouting face as I silently made my way back to my seat preparing myself for the landing when it occurred to me that I was still in my pajamas.

I shrugged as I rewrapped myself in my towel as I looked at the land below.

The plane soon after landed in Incheon and Shiwoo was carried off the plane by medic and I was escorted to the car which took me to his parents' house.

"Mommy mommy!" the twins exclaimed as I came through the front door and I stooped to their level engulfing them both in for hugs and kisses.

"Hello my babies how are you? Mommy has missed you so much and look! Presents."

"Yay presents!" they screamed jumping with joy as I handed them their presents.

"Do you wanna go show grandma and grandpa your gifts?" I asked and they nodded running to where they were, their feet making cute tapping noises as they ran, "be careful my loves."

As soon as the disappeared out of sight, Mingi and Joongki came wheeling a medically coma induced Shiwoo in his wheel chair, "Where should we put him?"

"Uhh down the hall first door to the right. The door should be open."

They nodded as they wheeled him to his room then Mr. and Mrs. Kim came around the corner with the kids in their hands.

Eomma placed Adrian on his feet as she pulled in to a tight hug sobbing and my tears welled in my eyes.

"Are you okay?" she asked as she broke the hug, holding both my shoulders as she looked into my eyes and I nodded.

"Yeah I'm fine. He's uh-he's here."

She sobbed as she held her chest before heading to the direction of his room and we all followed.

She gasped covering her mouth as she saw her son laying on the bed with bandages wrapped around his shoulder and around his waist as she slowly walked over to him.

I felt a tug on the bottoms of my pajama and I looked down to see Adrian asking for upsies looking sad.

"Are you okay baby?" I asked as I held him in my arms.

He twiddled with his fingers as he looked down pouting and I too began to pout, "Is daddy going to be okay?"

"Yes baby he will"

"Is he dead?" I heard Adriel asked and I gasped.

"What? No baby no he's not dead he's just umm-he's just resting."

"But money when I asked about Mrs. Kang you said that she was resting and so is he" she pouted and I handed Adrian to his grandfather as I took her into my arms.

"Well yes baby she is resting. She is resting in peace. Her soul is at rest." I placed a kiss on her forehead and she laid her head on y chest as we watched eomma cry and appa went by her side consoling her.

"Don't worry my love. He will be fine. He is just under medication that's all" he said rubbing her shoulders and she hug him crying in his chest and Adrian rubbed her hair.

"It's okay. It's gonna be okay." he said and I closed my eyes trying to believe him.

"Mingi and Joongki I want to thank you for always being by our side, especially when we needed you the most." I said grateful to them and they bowed.

"Thank you Miss Atalia for saving my life." said Joongki and I gave him a sad smile.

"Now go. Get away from here and lay low. Go spend time with your families." I ordered and they bowed once more before leaving.

"Okay dear let's give him some space so that he can rest. He'll wake up in a few days." said appa as he gently pulled her away.

"My poor baby." she said placing a kiss on his forehead before leaving.

"Hey kids go with your grandparents okay? I'll be out soon."

They nodded kissing my cheek before they ran to their grandparents and I nervously exhaled as I walked up to him placing a soft gentle kiss on his forehead when I felt him hold onto my hand squeezing tight before letting go.

"I love you two" I said smiling through the tears, "get well soon baby. We miss you."

I left the room after staring at him for a few more seconds ensuring that he was breathing correctly then joined eomma and appa with the kids and I told them of what happened.

It was still quite a sore topic and my heart still race as if I was reliving it all over again, but I swallowed and told them any way for I felt like I owed it to them.

The twins gave me a few more hugs and kisses and wiped my tears and I slept cuddling with them that night twisting an turning for the most part.

I was still suffering from traumatic flashes so I quietly untangled myself from them and made my way to the balcony as I took deep breaths trying to calm my beating heart.

"Be still my heart and let me sleep."

I sighed as I overlooked the city from above missing the country already.

I let the cool wind hit me across my face and it brought memories of me being back home and I smiled finally feeling my heart rate slow down.

That's exactly what I needed, I thought.

My home.

It was the only way to actually heal and find peace and solitude.

I decided that it would be best to lay low there for a while with my family just incase Nikolay's allies came looking focus.

It has been so long my sweet dear home.

I'm coming home to you my island.

I'm coming Jamaica.