Chapter 150 - Insecurities

"Babe you know what I've been thinking?" I asked as I laid on his lap watching the tv as he did God knows what on his phone.

"No what?"

"I've been thinking that we have been here for almost two weeks and we still haven't even been anywhere." I said as I sat up on the couch and he placed his phone down.

"That's true, but I like it here. Its calming."

"Yeah, but you are here on vacation. The least we can do is go to the beach or something. Yes! The beach." I said clapping.

"Okay. I was thinking of working on a tan anyway." he said as he got off the couch walking to our room and I grabbed my phone sending a message in the family group chat telling them about the trip that I was planning for Sunday.

It was late and a Tuesday evening so they were all asleep so I would have to wait until the morning.

I turned the tv off and straightened my mother's precious cushions on the couch before going to our closing the door behind me when I saw him brushing his teeth in the bathroom, and I was about to walk over to him to brush mine as well when I saw his phone screen lit up and I took a glance as I was walking by and saw a familiar name.

Harin?

What was her name doing popping up on his phone screen?

"Are you okay?" asked Shiwoo as he brushed passed me picking up his phone from the bed where my eyes were and I blinked a few times coming out of my trance.

"Huh? Oh yeah. I was just umm. I'm going to brush my teeth."

I walked into the bathroom and closed the door behind me as I placed both my palms flat on the counter as my breaths became rapid and I tried to control them, looking in the mirror on my reflection as my vision became less blurry and I sighed as I brushed my teeth and stepped out of the bathroom to see Shiwoo shirtless with both his arms beneath his head as he watched me.

I crawled my way up on the bed and laid on my side turning to face away from him as I pulled the covers over my head.

"Is something wrong? Is it me?" he asked as he removed the sheet and I shook my head no with my eyes shut.

"I'm just tired that's all. I'm going to sleep now. I want to go shopping tomorrow."

"Okay." he said as he placed a kiss on my on shoulder before turning on his side giving me space.

With my eyes still open and mind racing even after he fell a sleep I found the voices in my head more and more annoying.

They wouldn't stop coming up with different scenarios and stories and none of them were pleasant.

"What if he is cheating on you?" asked my self consciousness and I groaned as I buried my face into the pillow.

"They did grow up together and they were engaged and now he is being shady and her name pops up on his phone?" she pressed on and I felt like hitting myself on the head.

"Would you please be quiet and let me sleep? These are seriously things that you are accusing Shiwoo of and I know that he is loyal."

"Ha loyal? What makes you say that? He left the women he knew for years for you who he knew for months and they were to get engaged so what makes you feel as if he wont do it to you?"

"Okay just be quiet! He loves me and that's that. So if you would just to kindly shut the the hell up so that I can go to sleep and mind your business please."

"Fine, but you know that I'm right." She said as she finally went a away and I let out big exhale as I turned to my side facing Shiwoo as I watched him sleep.

His eyelashes fluttered against his cheek as his eyes were closed and his chest slowly rose and fell signifying that he was alive. 

I sighed as I looked at every inch of his face at how beautiful he was, and rhen just like that I felt insecure all over again. 

I then returned to my original position that I was laying on my side when I felt his arms wrapped around me pulling me closer as he snuggled I the crook of my neck and I smiled for I knew that he loved me.

His little gesture was enough to chase the dark clouds from over my head, for I finally felt at peace and the voices silenced, so I finally went to sleep.

The next morning I woke up stirring and found that he still was snuggling close to my neck, but now his hand was under my top squeezing my boob when I felt the urge to pee, but I didn't move because he was comfortable and I didn't want to wake him.

"Mmm good morning" he said and hi breath tickled the side of my neck.

"God morning. I need to pee."

He groaned as he removed his hand from my shirt letting me go free so I took the opportunity to take a quick shower and fixed my hair.

While I was bursting my teeth with a towel wrapped around my body he came in and looked at me intensely through the mirror and I stopped bruhsing for a while as I held his gaze and he walked over to m placing a kiss on my shoulder still looking at me.

I then quickly rinsed my mouth and out away my toothbrush as he spun me around and lifted me to sit on the counter and came and stood between my legs.

He then began to slowly lift my towel up still staring right into my soul and I felt my face heated up as my ears burned and my skin tingled and caught on fire where ever he touched.

I bit my lip as he went down on his knees as he opened my legs placing a kiss on both of my thighs, and as you might have guessed, he was still holing my gaze captive with his.

He wrapped his hand around my waist as he pulled my closer, placing one final kiss on my thigh before taking my throbbing clit in his mouth and I let out a gaspy moan, "euhh-mmmm."

I fisted a bunch of his hair as my eye rolled back and my legs shook as I leaned my head against the wall.

"Mmmm. Delicious." H e said as he stuck his tongue out lickimg my wet folds.

"Mmm-ah" I moaned as he stuck a finger in and I panted sweating from head to toe, "that feels so fucking good."

He placed a kiss on my lower stomach right where mynscar was before taking my clit back into his mouth whilst still fingering me, "come all over my tongue baby. I need to taste you."

"Ah." I moaned as he sped up the pa e of his fingers and I held on even tighter to his hair as I finally came on his tongue as he licked me clean.

He then swiftly stood to his feet and placed a kiss on my lips, his lips wet from me as I tasted myself on his tongue. 

"What was that?" I asked as he laid his forehead on mine, our breaths equally rapid, "that was so sudden."

"I crave you every second of the day aein. Forgive me for not asking."

"It's okay babe. You don't have to ask. My body craves and invites you and only you every single second of the day. I love you."

"I love you too."

"You promise me that I am the only one?" I asked as I looked deep into his eyes to see if I could gage gage reaction when he smiled and placed a kiss on my forehead. 

"It's only you princess. I love you."

"Okay" I said as he helped me down ontomhe floor and I went to get dressed as he took shower for we were going shopping with the twins and my sister today.

It would be their first time in Downtown Kinsgton and I had alot that I wanted to show them so I reserved the entire day today for them.

Since the climate here was hot I got dressed in skin tight jeans and a casual top while he wore a track suit when the twins barged into the room rubbing there eyes when I said, "you guys should be lucky that I am not like your grandma for if it were ever her you would have got together up at 6 to leave by seven. Come on, I'll give you two bath."

"Mhmmm" yawned Adriel as they walked over to the bathroom and I shook my head chuckling at them.

Prepare the capital of Jamaica to meet the capital of Korea.

This was going to be fun.