Chapter 158 - Trust

"Oh my God that was so fun! Thank you so much Shiwoo for today. It really was such a wonderful first day." said Tristy and Shiwoo blushed.

"Oh it was nothing. I just wanted you guys to have fun, and I am so glad that you are so far."

"Yes we really are." said the others in unison, and I laid my head on his chest as he held me by the waist.

"Tally you better marry this man, because if you don't, I will." said Tristan and we all laughed as he pat him on the back.

"Oh don't worry bro. I will." I said and he looked down at me smiling, "well if you guys are done being kiss ass gold diggers I would like to get him to bed please. Good night."

"Good night." they said before retreating to their room, and Shiwoo opened the door to ours as he picked me up and I wrapped my feet around his waist as he carried me over to bed and gently placed me down.

"So about our wedding. I was thinking of a prate theme."

"Oh God no." I giggled he grinned on top of me, "that is so bad."

"Really? I thought you loved pirates of the Caribbean."

"I do, but not for a wedding." I said chucking, but stopped when I saw that he was silently staring down at me, "what?"

"Pretty." he said as he placed a kiss on my lips before coming to lay beside me as he stared up at the ceiling.

"Shiwoo?"

"Hmm?" he asked still staring and I took a deep breath preparing myself for what I was about to ask.

"Are you cheating on?"

Like lighting speed I saw his head whipped in my direction as he furrowed his brows, "Atalia? What? Why would you say that?"

"Shiwoo I know that you have been messaging Harin. I have known for weeks."

"Oh baby no. Baby no no no it's not what it looks like. Oh God." he said as he sat up in bed running his hands though his hair.

"Is it not? Then why are you so nervous? I just asked a simple question and here you are uneasy and sweating."

"No I'm not nervous I'm just, is this why you were being so cold towards me? Because you thought that I was being unfaithful?" he asked and I shrugged, "wow Tally So much for communication."

"Oh no. Don't you dare flip this onto me. I should not be asking what is going on between my man and his ex for nothing should be going on. I should not have to be paranoid and feel insecure and inferior to her, but here I am feeling jus that just because you are being sneaky!" I shouted sitting up in bed.

"Keep your voice down and don't wake the rest of the floor. If you had just asked me all those weeks ago about what was going things would have been better for you are making up your own little scenarios and hurting yourself. Atalia I have never been unfaithful to you and I never will."

"I don't believe you. You keep dodging and you still haven't answered the question. What is going between you and Harin, and why is she worried that I may find out?"

He sighed as he got off the bed running his hand though his hair, "look it was my fault that she go cut off because I didn't marry her oaky. She messaged me shortly after we arrived here saying that she needed help and didn't have anyone else to call. I have been sending her money and taking care of her, but jut for now. I dint want you to freak just like you were doing now."

"Why was she worried?" I asked looking at my hands and he sighed.

"She didn't want you to think that she was here to ruin our lives. I think that she is sorry for what she said and did."

"Okay." I said as I went under the covers laying on my side.

"Atalia are you still mad?"

"No I just, I just need to sleep." I said closing my eyes.

"Look I'm sorry. I shouldn't have hid it. You have every right to feel angry and dishonored. I know that I have broken you trust, but please, don't hate me." he begged and I remained quiet with my eyes still closed and he sighed, "okay. I will give you space. Good night, I love you."

He knew that right now I didn't want him near me so he grabbed a pillow and blanket and made his way to the couch.

Was I so fragile and petty that he was afraid to tell me something as simple as that?

Was he telling the whole truth about this?

Was it really even necessary to hide his phone?

Why did she need help now of all time even though its been almost four years?

Is she lying?

Am I over thinking?

Probably.

I sighed as I turned to my other side to where he was and I ran my hand along the sheet missing him, but I needed to stand my ground to let him know that I was truly and deeply hurt.

I thought he had promised to be an open book and to never keep secrets from me just a few weeks ago.

Well you know what they say, "A promise is a comfort to a fool," and I am that fool.

I am always that fool.

Atalia the clown of the circus that was her life.

Well I guess it should comfort me to know that he was not being unfaithful, but it didn't.

I still felt betrayed because he tried to hide it, and you don't hide something unless you're guilty.

I know that he loves me, but is that enough to keep him faithful?

My father loved my mother.

I am afraid that their is nothing that I can do to keep him faithful, for after all, he is still a man.

I just hope that he has enough sense to know that I wont always be around after every mistake he makes to take him back.

He will need to choose.

Me, or the world.

I hope you choose wisely Shiwoo.

I really hope that you do.