Chapter 56 - messed up

She is on the verge of losing control

She wants to scream. She has no strength to think right now.

She closes her eyes again and he pulls her head back again, forcing them open.

"I want you to keep your eyes open." His eyes glowing with passion. His need to conquer was all over his face.

Ru Shi knew this was also torture for him.

She can see how bad he wants her, but knowing his ego Ru Shi knew he won't back down until he gets what he wants. At this point, she doesn't even know what it is anymore.

."Mu Chang, please!"

He pushes her down on the counter and leans on her, barely grazing, just circling, as he whispers in her ears.

"Who do you belong to?" he demands to know as his fingers thrust inside her.

The ecstasy is so staggering that if he wasn't holding on to her, she would fall off onto the floor.

"Who?" He licked her neck as his mouth moved up her throat. "You!" She cried out, desperate for him.

"Say it, completely," he orders. The need. "Go ahead and scream it, kitten.

No one can hear you. Only me."

God. She hates him. She loves him. She hates him. She loves him.

"I belong to you," her voice is raw with d.e.s.i.r.e

"Are you happy? I belong to you! You asshole!" she's practically sobbing now with need.

It is so humiliating that she had to add the last bit for her own self-worth.

She swears she can feel him smile, and yet he still wants more.

"That's good, kitten.

You're learning. We're almost there." She cries out in frustration.

Damn! What else?

"You're mine, kitten," he says as he pulls up against her,

"Say it."

"I'm yours," she pants out because she is. He knows it. She knows it. F.u.c.k.

"I'm yours, Mu Chang.

I want you!" she screams at him in a feverish frenzy. 

"Are you happy? I'm yours and I want you so bad"

Thankfully she doesn't have to finish the sentence because he thrusts deep inside her, giving her exactly what she wants until again and again, she reaches sweet release.

Her legs are wrapped around his waist and he's leaning over her on the counter, still deep inside.

She has o.r.g.a.s.med countless times.

She's completely satisfied. Even though they clearly got some major issues, but hell, she's so content, she could sit here all day.

He buries his face in her hair. "Ru Shi." He says her name as if it's a prayer.

"Damn, kitten, you have no idea how you make me feel no idea how crazy you make me."

Her brain is foggy, unable to focus, but his words penetrate her clouded mind.

'How she makes him feel?' He pulls her up, gathering her into his arms.

"I'm sorry," he whispers. "I lost my head for a moment, but thinking about you with anyone else, it makes me feel"

He searches for the right word. She turns her face to look up at him. "Jealous? Possessive?" He chuckles. "Crazy, enraged?"

She sighs, confusion and sadness taking over her. He hurt her by dismissing her when she asked about their relationship, and he hurt her again by coming here and claiming ownership of her.

"Let's shower."

He gently held her as he takes her into the bathroom.

She lets him as he pulls her into the giant shower.

She let him wash her body, and it literally takes all her willpower not to get turned on again by him and his hands.

She rinses off as she watches him rub the soap quickly over his body. He's been quiet the entire time, just staring at her, watching, observing. Doing that goddamn thinking thing he does.

She tries to act cool too and gracefully gets out of the shower.

She picks up a plush towel and starts to dry off.

She wants to give herself one minute without him. One minute just to think normally.

She discreetly looks over at him. His eyes are down, and she can tell he's thinking. He still hadn't said one word and she suddenly felt deathly afraid.

"Are you trying to rub your skin off?" Damn him. He's been watching her staring at him.

"I'm just drying myself off,"

she replies aloofly. He gives her a c.o.c.ky smile. Yeah, yeah. He knows she's just lying. "Are you happy now, Mu Chang?" she blurts the words out before she can help herself.

"If you are, you can leave after you're done.

After all, you've just proven your point. I'm just your f.u.c.k buddy who can't say no to you."

Ru Shi said as she left the bathroom.

Mu Chang sighed looking at her back.

He knew he had messed up. He shouldn't have seduced her.

Now she'll think he's with her just because of s.e.x.

Ru Shi locked the door the moment she entered her room.

She sat on the ground and her tears couldn't help but fall.

Why is it so difficult to love him!

Why doesn't he want to give their relationship a chance?

Mu Chang stood in front of the door.

He can hear her crying.

His heart hurts. He raised his hand to knock on the door

But stopped.

He knew she needed space.

Now he just has to find a way to make up to her.