Chapter 469 - No Regret [Bonus ]

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CHAPTER 468

"I am sorry, ma. Sorry for the pain I caused you."

"I miss her, so very much," Li An cried into his chest.

"I know you do. I am so sorry about that but know that I am here for you."

"You have already left me, how can I trust those words?" Li An complained.

Ye Cheng let out a soft sigh but he did not pull back or anything. Rather he held her closer to himself. "I didn't leave you, mum. Please, don't say that."

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They were both seated in her small living space in her room staring at each other and not saying anything to one another.

Tired of the God knows how long silence, Ye Cheng finally pried his lips open to speak.

"Mother."

"Yes?" She answered, more like asked almost immediately.

He smiled. "Mother, we need to talk."

"About?"

"About yesterday."

"There is nothing to talk about, Michael."

Hearing her call his name again the way she loved it only made him smile. Yes, he was already one step in, in seeking her forgiveness.

"Mother, we do and you cannot deny that fact."

"I am still angry at what you did."

"I fell in love, mother and I married. As a mother, you should be happy…"

"That my son cannot keep his words like his father?"

GBAN GBANN!!

It was like someone placed a heavy drumbeat in his ears instantly and his lips fell open. "Mother."

Ye Cheng blinked severally, trying to get himself back from the annoying words she just uttered now.

At first, when she said this, she took her face away but when the words fell out of her mouth, she realized how heavy and wrong she had been.

Slowly, she turned her towards his direction only to see his eyes turn red and shining.

'A trace of tears.' She voiced within herself. 'Oh my God, I just hurt him big time. I never should have said those words.' She regretted.

"Ye Cheng."

"It is okay. Now I know how you really feel. In your eyes, I was never better than my father, right?"

"Michael, no." She stood up as did he and quickly went to block his path. "Baby, please. I am sorry. I am sorry to have used those words and compared you with him."

"No, what is wrong with that? After all, he is my father." Even saying those words, he knew he did not sound convincing, rather he sounded more sarcastic than ever.

'What have I done!' Li An quarrelled within her.

"Michael, please. I am sorry. I never meant to be harsh on you like that."

"Seriously, mum. You know more than anything, I hate to be equated with that man. Yes, he may be my father but never once did I acknowledge to be like him especially in his marital affair. It was unfair of you to do such."

"Baby, I am so sorry. I know I did wrong. I never intended to. I just spurred it out."

Just hearing her beg was one thing he hated as well. He never wanted to worry over anything and wanted to take care of her with all his heart so when she was like this, it was hard on him but it hurt him more knowing that the thought of comparing him with her husband did indeed cross her mind.

"I only wonder, ma. Has my reputation before you been so squashed that the thought crossed your mind? It hurts me when it comes from you and her. Yes, she would never say that to me but so should you as well."

Li An took in a deep breath. He was already bringing Li Jing up. She withdrew a bit and turned around. "I am sorry, son. I really am."

"And I know mum, but I also want you to understand that I found love. You should be happy for me."

"And what of Sying? What should I do about her own sadness wherever she is?"

'Mother, I am your son. Do not tell me that you now love another's daughter more than your own son?"

"No." she turned back to face him. Her face was stern and sad at the same time. "I love her but I love you more. I share a bond with her mother. She was like a sister to me and her daughter, I cherished as mine."

"Okay, I am not disputing your relationship but mother if she really cared about me, she should have surfaced all these years. Haven't I tried? I kept myself for her for a long time."

"You could have waited a bit more."

"More!" Ye Cheng was taken aback. Did she just say a bit more?

"Mother! Do you care about me at all?"

"It is because I care about you that I want you to marry her. She has a sound upbringing. I know her mother well."

"And you have not seen them for over a decade now and you still say this? What if something happened and she was not with your friend and her environment has changed her, would you still say those words to me?"

"Be optimistic."

"I should live my life on optimism only? Have you ever stop to wonder what it felt like growing up without her and you? I ignored and shunned my feelings and refused from liking any girl. I forwent pleasure just to stay true to her but I am sorry ma, I fell in love again."

"If you had stayed true you wouldn't have been a victim of Bai Qing Mei. Now there is Li Jing."

"SHE IS NOT LIKE HER!" Ye Cheng yelled at his mother.

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"Ye Cheng. Can't you see she has changed you, son?"

"For the better, yes. I am no longer the overly rude and indifferent CEO with everyone again, mother. I did that to push everyone out and stay true to you and her."

"Why don't you mention her name? Does your promise scare and hurt you?"

"Perhaps it does but I have no regret. I would never go back on my words. Not even for you or Sying."

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My apologies for my absence in writing guys. My sincerest apologies, guy. On Friday was my birthday and I told myself I would give Bonus chapters to all my books. 

Updates would resume as usual and even more beginning from tomorrow. Still battling health cases.. Preparing for the hospital now.