Chapter 742

I'm Yu ruosheng.

It is said that the surname of our family comes from Yu in fenghuangyufei.

My name, from, if endless.

It's the blood of our family, living and growing.

Of course, the name doesn't work.

At home, it's a single pass or a single pass.

I don't have any brothers or sisters, so I have known since I was a child that I will take over the family and inherit the glory.

……

When my father died, I wanted to go with him, but my mother told me, don't worry, you are the only Miao in the family. You should live well.

I deeply feel that I can't die so selfishly. You know, the glory and responsibility of my family will be on me in the future.

But

Mother.

Why did you hang yourself with more than 300 people in your family.

I was exiled alone.

At that time, I felt that I was a sinner. I was very timid. How could I be shameless and afraid of death before I left you "loyal and righteous people" to live.

Later I learned how painful it is to be alive.

……

Many of the things that happened in the middle are very messy and unclear, and I don't want to talk about them.

Before eighteen, sixteen is a watershed.

In this life, meeting a man named Chen Zimu is a watershed.

My feelings for him, from complex to simple, to single.

From appreciation, to being a confidant, to liking, to being very happy, to love.

I don't know why I met such a person and harmed such a person.

In my eyes.

He's brilliant.

Li Xiangxiang, who is known by the world as the jade face Lord, has a better appearance.

Qi Xuan is more talented than Qi Xuan, who is known by the world as Jinghong Lang Jun.

He is my world.

My Chen Zimu.

I had fantasies about the future before.

I thought, I will become an excellent poet, excellent bachelor, will participate in the imperial examination, at least is a top three.

My father said, I hope I can see the princess.

Maybe she was young at that time, so I often recall that there was such a princess in the courtyard of Shengong who was admiring me. Her appearance was not charming, but with a kind of Southern grace.

Her voice is clear and beautiful, full of characteristics, she is well-educated, can be called a talented woman.

But I didn't expect that I became someone else's "princess.".

It's also known as the one below.

He's been with me so much that I can't afford it at all.

I used to want to have sex with him, but I held back.

Because I think

He is white and clean, I am muddy and dirty. How can I drag a clean man into the water?

Or later, really, really faced with such a choice of life and death, I united with cloud ink to do such a thing.

Later, the world became even.

A lot of things have happened and I owe him a lot of money.

I don't know how much there is, but I remember her saying to me:

"even if you have a box of gold leaves a day, you can't pay the money all your life."

I don't quite agree with that, because I don't think that even if I have ten boxes of gold leaves a day, I'll be able to clear the money all my life.

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later.

We are all old.

The old one can't walk any more.

Because no children, do not want to have an adopted son, do not want to experience pain, do not want to live too sad.

So.

We meet when both of us are going to die.

Go away in a smart way.

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no engagement, no chapel, no matchmaker.

We're still together.

Forty seven years.