Fu Xiaoning's face became pale in the cold light, her eyes were empty, and there was no expression. It seemed that all the bright lights in her eyes had been annihilated in the endless darkness. Fu Xiaoning whispered word by word: "what shall we do then?"
The doctor's look was not relaxed at all. He sighed: "Mrs. Bo, if the patient no longer has a strong sense of wanting to treat the disease, then we suggest that he go home to recuperate and follow him more in the future to make him happy."
Game into pinching Fu Xiaoning's hand, Fu Xiaoning's tears slowly flow down, Fu Xiaoning only feel the tears salty and astringent, as bitter as her heart.
"But didn't you say you could have an operation before? Liver source has not been found, can't you still do chemotherapy? That's what the doctor told me before. Why is it better to go home now? "
Fu Xiaoning's tears came surging, falling on the hands of the game, burning the palm of the game.
The doctor also has nothing to say. Before, Fu Jiaxiong's physical condition was still able to withstand the drug reaction of chemotherapy, but when he was treated, he found that the result was not as good as expected. Now Fu Jiaxiong's health is going from bad to worse. If he drags on any longer, he may not have much hope, especially the patients themselves don't have a strong sense of survival.
Game into quickly put Fu Xiaoning embrace to the arms: "well, well, don't cry."
Now all the words of comfort are powerless, in the face of disease, in the face of the possible arrival of life and death, no matter how the words of comfort, do not play much role.
Fu Xiaoning can't help crying, so he has to take her out of the office first. In the quiet corridor, only Fu Xiaoning's cry reverberates, heartbreaking and heartbreaking. But the passers-by just couldn't bear it, and then walked away by bypassing Fu Xiaoning and Yu Chengji.
There are too many people crying in the hospital. Life and death are going on every day here. No matter how soft the heart is, it will be polished into a hard stone, so we don't feel that we can't see the pain. Only those who really experience it will know how much the pain makes people collapse.
When Fu Xiaoning's mood was calmer, she saw Fu Xicheng, who was crying beside him. His whole face was so red that he had no time to wipe his nose and tears. Fu Xiaoning hugs Fu Xicheng and wipes his tears. Game into sitting quietly next to them, give their mother and son two paper towels.
In addition to the red and swollen eyes, there is nothing unusual. Game Cheng holds Fu Xiaoning's face and rubs it. Fu Xiaoning dodges. She doesn't want to be intimate with game.
After returning to the ward and saying goodbye to Fu Jiaxiong, Fu Xiaoning still didn't tell Fu Jiaxiong to let him leave the hospital: "Dad, you have a good rest in the hospital. We'll talk about other things then."
As for whether to let Fu Jiaxiong leave the hospital, Fu Xiaoning thinks that she still has to consider it. Although she doesn't want to let Fu Jiaxiong suffer from treatment, if she goes back, there is really no hope of cure. If he insists on treatment, how many more years can he live? Do you really want him to go back and die?
After returning home, Fu Xiaoning's mind has been in a trance. He thinks that seeing her like this, he doesn't give her much pressure. After dinner, he takes Fu Xiaoning back to his bedroom and helps Fu Xicheng take a good bath.
Fu Xicheng is also in a bad mood. He has been worried about Fu Xiaoning.
"Dad, mom, will she cry all the time?" Fu Xicheng's face is full of worry and anxiety when he looks at the game, so there will be adult's worry on his immature face.
Game Cheng patted Fu Xicheng's head: "my grandfather is sick, so my mother will be so sad. When my grandfather is better, my mother won't cry."
"But when will grandfather get better?" Every time he went to see Fu Jiaxiong, Fu Jiaxiong looked at him very kindly and laughed. Then he always listened to him very carefully about the interesting things in the kindergarten. He always thought that Fu Jiaxiong's illness would soon get better. But what he didn't ignore was that every time he went to the hospital, he saw that Fu Jiaxiong was thinner than before.
No matter how he smiles, he can't hide his haggardness. Will he get thinner and thinner? But he is very thin now. Will he continue to be thin? If you're thinner, there won't be much meat, just bones.
"Grandfather, he..." In fact, she knows that Fu Jiaxiong may not be cured. Fu Xiaoning has always been under the illusion that Fu Jiaxiong might be cured one day, but she also knows that Fu Jiaxiong's illness is so serious that it is impossible for her to recover.
After a pause, game Cheng still doesn't know how to explain with Fu Xicheng: "grandfather, he is not in good health now, but people will always leave back and forth. Maybe a person can only live for so many years in his life, and then he will disappear from the world."
"What does it mean to disappear?"
"To disappear means that things gradually decrease to the point that they do not exist, and so will people."
"Is he getting thinner and thinner, and then disappearing when he is not, or will he come back when he is full of electricity like a robot?""Well To disappear is to never come back. "
After hearing the words of game Cheng, Fu Xicheng was silent for a long time. When game Cheng took him out of the bathtub, he held game Cheng's neck and asked, "my mother will be very sad that my grandfather has disappeared. We will never see him again."
"Yes, mom, she will be very sad, but everyone will disappear from the world one day, so that people can never find it again, but don't be too sad, he will always live in the heart of the living people."
"Will you and mom disappear, too?"
"One day, we will. If we disappear, we will die. When we die, we will not be able to breathe, eat, walk, and stay with Xicheng."
"But I don't want you to die." Fu Xicheng's hand tightly clenches the corner of Cheng's clothes. He is too young to understand death. He doesn't want his parents to disappear from him. He just wants them to accompany him all the time.
When he suddenly talked about death, he didn't know how to say it. When he was old, he naturally knew about death. Death education was always absent. At the beginning, he thought about death because of song Shiqiao. At that time, he didn't know whether song Shiqiao would come back. At that time, he thought about death and whether song Shiqiao would come back He died.