Chapter 263 - Hate and love

Meanwhile at Sarah's place….

She should attend Nathan's and Aria's engagement party along with Daniel. But should she really go…

Part of her is in Agony, she could feel her heart contract and her lungs suffocate with misery but she couldn't comprehend why she is feeling in that way…..

'I stopped caring about all of them long back. They are not my friends anymore…..they are my enemies now' Sarah chanted it again and again as she punched the punching bag with all the force she could acc.u.mulate from her fragile body.

According to her she is feeble and weak but her every punch and kicks are brutal and unusually agile with sheer accuracy. However she knew very well how capable her ex- friends are, they might not have recognized her yet, but if they finds out for whom she is working, they will not show her mercym

But what will happen if she reveals her past self during her attack, will they faze just for enough time so her companions would successfully implement their plan…..but do they still care for her. Sarah laughed sardonically at herself for her foolishness. 'If Nathan would have really loved you then, he wouldn't have easily moved on in his life.' Part of her mind mocked at her.

She sighed sadly as her inner self continued. 'Truth really hurts darling. The love he had for you is no where near to how much he is loving his current woman, you are nothing but a used good. See your plight…even after being with you for more than five years he couldn't even recognize you'

Her heart started to fume with anger. She kept on throwing punches until her knuckles turned bloody. As she looked at her tainted fists she felt some sharp pang of pain in back of her head. Like a jabbing electric shock, wave of agony and indignation made her adrenaline to surge.

*BAM*

She delivered a heavy blow on her swaying bag. Her brutal force broke the thick fabric of the punching bag as the sand poured out of it until it was almost empty.

Never she have thought why she started to hate them so much….but her despise for them reached no bounds. To be honest she really doesn't know why her unconditional love for them drastically changed into indescribable loathe and disgust.

Her mental stability is so fickle, her feelings towards them changes so swiftly and her head hurts whenever she thinks about it. Sometimes she feels very protective of them and in another fraction of second her opinion takes one eighty degrees angle that she will start to feel an urge to destroy each and every one of them.

For what….she doesn't have an exact answer for it till now….

Sarah looked around only to find her mentor staring at her intently….she couldn't feel but suspect them for her state of mind. Nodding at him meaningfully she exited her so called office only to find Daniel waiting for her in the parking lot.

Her eyes suddenly lit up but dimmed back as the realization stuck her….he is good, kind and caring. Though she hates to agree, he deserves someone far better than her.

She swore to protect him at any cost as she snuggled into his warm embrace, but will he choose her over his sister?

No, she will leave him as soon as her mission completes...

When Sarah is busy in blaming Nathan for his insincere love, Nathan is kneeling in front of the grave of his first love….

His eyes are red and misty with sorrowful tears. His hands skimmed over the tombstone as his tears wetted the flowers, he brought for her. No one knows how many times he had visited this place after that fateful day when she left his world.

"Kiara, I am getting engaged officially. And I think I should tell her about us, what do you think, will she be angry that I kept her in dark or will she break after knowing that I was once married to you?" Nathan muffled his sobs and smiled gloomily.

Yes, just like Jean and Scott they were married long back. But the only difference those got married officially and he just married her in the church, there are no written proofs of their wedding. Fate was so cruel on his first love that it took his Kiara with it just after one month of their sacred marriage.

"I am lucky to get a such woman in my life. I never thought I could love someone once again just like how much I loved you back then. I want your blessings love, and this will be the last time I would be coming here." Nathan kissed the name engraved on the tombstone.

When he got married to Aria in the island it is so sudden. He actually didn't give a thought about it till David shared his concern. Jean and Scott might not get a chance to bless them as a couple so he took that decision in overnight and didn't have a chance to say to his Kiara.

Even when he proposed to Aria they were in country A back then and he couldn't come to this place to talk to his first love. "I loved you Kiara, I cared for you to my life, but Aria became my life now. She is my life, love, strength and weakness." he smiled lightly as his cleared with warmth and love.

He really loved her, but he also has his own family and friends who cares and worry about him. He can't just dwell on his past and hurt them with something no one could give him back..

He decided to move on..

Once he will confess to her about Kiara he decided not to come to this place once again. It would hurt Aria's feelings....and he is not ready to let her feel insecure nor betrayed.