Chapter 251 - 251 The Past

I was wrong when I hurt you

Did you have to hurt me too?​​

Did you think revenge will make it better?

I don't care about the past

I just want our love to last

There's a way to bring us back together

-- Ray Parker Jr.--

"Luna, how are you? I mean, how have you been for these five years?" Louie asks Luna who is silently pushing Winter's swing. Luna slowly looks at him and smiled, "I am fine Louie, I survived the most difficult struggled in my life that happened when I was still pregnant with the twins." Luna answered him. Louie sighed deeply, he knew that if he didn't choose Sofia five years ago he will be the happiest man in the world. He was loved by Luna without any pretensions and he will be called Daddy by his children. 

"Luna, I am sorry, I am sorry for everything that happened in the past, let's not bring the past back anymore. If I need to be tortured by you and your family, I will gladly accept this just to be with you.... to be with the children. I was fooled by Sofia way, way back then; I didn't listen to my heart and Yuan at that time. I now regret everything Luna. Please give me a second chance, Luna. This time I'll hold you forever... This time we'll never end" Louie said in tears that are welling up in his eyes. 

Luna looks at him, it was like just five years ago...the same look on her eyes was what Louie has seen on her today. "What about your love for Sofia? Have you forgotten your song to her?" Luna asks him. 

"That song was intended for you, Luna. You are the woman I fell in love with at the Wu Valentine's Day Party. The woman who wears the masked and played the violin with Jessica, you played the theme from Howl's Moving Castle. You are the woman who says that her name was Lu without the letter O on it. When you left the Villa, I swear I was worried about you, your safety, then the news about the gang war, and when we got the news about your death, I was devastated then; you can ask Yuan if you don't believe me. For five years, I hired investigators and detectives just to search for you. Because I don't believe that you already died, I can't accept it and I believe that you are still alive. I have the gut feeling that you are still alive" Louie explained to her. The twins' are just listening to their biological parents as they speak what happened in the past. For Winter, the answers that he seek to the questions that he just asked his father will be answered through the conversations of them. 

Luna smiled at Louie and ask, "Then why didn't you listen to your heart back then? Why did you still keep me for eight months, why didn't you believe about my feelings for you back then, and why are you so happy when we got divorced?" 

"Maybe I believed more in what other people around me said than in my heart, Only Yuan believed in you, he was the only one who gave a real impression about you and Sofia. I knew then that he could not fully protect you because of me. I also know that behind my back he was protecting you then. About our marriage, I decide that it lasted eight.... nine months because there is a part of my heart that says not to you let go. I look for you more Luna, I prefer you next to sleep, I prefer your scent, your kiss, and the way you touches me. Even though Sofia and I were together at the Penthouse back then, we did not sleep together and had s.e.x. We are just together in the same house but you are still in my mind, I do not know why, because my mind also says something different. I am sorry if I listened more to my mind and my friend's impressions about you. The first time something happened to us, which was the happiest moment of my life because there I proved that I was the first on all things to you. About Sofia's case, the one before we got married, I have this feeling that I might not be the one who got her innocence at that time, but since she is my girlfriend during the University days, and I saw the bloodstains on the bedsheets. But when the audio that has been played at the Chen Annual party and I heard everything, I asked someone to make some research and investigate Sofia's background. But I've decided the day after that.....that I'll divorce her." Louie confessed what is inside his heart and Luna was quite surprised about it. Silenced envelopes the family of four, then Louie took another deep breath and walks in front of Dawn and looks at his daughter so sadly.

"When we separated, I mean when we got divorced. Yuan was the first to tell me that I was doing is wrong, especially after he visited you at Villa 7, he also told me your demands. My mind says I am doing the right thing, but my heart says it is wrong, that I should stop you, chase you, and I should not let you go. But when Sofia saw Yuan, she told me that we should be happier because we can be legal in public. But deep inside my heart, I could feel a stabbing pain."

"When we got the news about the gang war at the train station where you are in and I said that you are one of the casualties, I don't want to believe it, I can't accept it. The Wu triplets cursed me after that, I want to see you, I wanted me to be the one to identify your corpse at that time, but Samantha stopped me. She said I must not do it, enough for me to make you suffer, enough for me to let you see I was happy with Sofia, and most of all, enough for me to pretend that you were important in my life and I care and love you because it is too late. They did not tell you where you were buried, we even ask some people who knew you to where did the Wu family buried you but didn't told any of them. But I have this feeling that you are still alive. The strength of my intuition that you are still alive is very strong. I've been looking for you for five long years Luna, in the five years I have been looking for you, I have drawn your picture the way I remember your face." Louie added some more confession, but now his tears are rolling to his face while he c.a.r.e.s.ses Dawn's face. Dawn was just staring at him, while Winter was still glaring at him. 

Luna was silent at first after she heard his words, but her heart seemed turned cold already for him. She remembered the advice of the people who became her family for five years, but for her, before you forgive someone, you must forget everything first. All the things that happened in the past must be forgotten before the person can forgive those people who have done too many wrongdoings to someone. 

Luna remembered her words before she left him Villa 7, she remembered that she was crying and c.a.r.e.s.sing Louie's picture then. She talks to herself at that time, she has spoken about her future fears towards Louie. 

FLASHBACK (LUNA"S FEARS)

"I'm sorry," she absentmindedly asks for forgiveness and f.o.r.c.i.b.l.y rubbed her tears away until her face turned red. "I'm so sorry for loving you…. To care for you…." Luna uttered as she is looking at his picture on her hands.

"I have no regrets marrying you. No matter how tough you treat me, I am still happy to be part of your life, I am still the happiest woman in the world for having you as my husband, as my first in everything" she said with her hand on his face. She realized she was tearing up again, she can't control her tears.

"I don't—extremely regret loving and caring for you." She shook her head. "But did you know what I'm afraid of? What I feared of" There was an undeniable sadness in her voice.

"I have no regrets at all, but I'm scared that it will come a day that I will stop loving you and caring for you, and you will no longer be in here (she points her index finger to her left c.h.e.s.t....to were the heart is located); and all I can feel for you is hatred, and anger. That one day I all I want is revenge for all the things you have done to me even the things that my step-sister, my family, and your family, especially your mother have done to me." Luna said as she c.a.r.e.s.ses Louie's picture.

"I already have forgotten how it felt like when I first started loving and cared for you, Louie, but if we meet again, I hope you will not recognize me at all and we must treat each other as strangers and not as ex-lovers for I am the one who loves you and no the other way around." She sniffed and sobbed for a while before retreating into her corner. This was her whole word—her lonely world.

END OF FLASHBACK

"I am sorry Louie, I just can't forgive you yet, and the wounds are not yet totally healed. Falling in love is easy, staying in love is a challenge. Letting go is hard and move one is the hardest. That's what happened to me, but through HADES' help, Francois's undeniable presence, kindness, and love to me, the way he takes care of me and the twins without even getting tired is a great help for me to forget you. To forget what I feel for you for he is the man who has shown to me that moving on is not scary but it will give you another sunshine in your life." Luna told Louie. Louie looked up to where Luna was when he heard what she had said, "Could you give me a second chance Luna, and I want to be with you and the kids. If I need to prove anything to you and the twins' I'll do it, just tell me what it is, I just want to spend some time with you and the kids. Luna, Please... I beg you" Louie pleaded at Luna. 

Dawn: "Father....did you say anything that we want you will do it?"

Winter: "Hhmm...I like that statement, Father."