Chapter 355 - 356 Confessions

City Wise; Palace

Louie is happy celebrating New Year's at the Palace, he didn't have any idea what is waiting for him back at City A. All he wants is to be with his kids and Luna even if it is just in a meantime. Kim and Pearl's dance solo was already over and now it's time to party with other members of the HADES, Phantom, and the rest of the people inside the venue. Ethan and Emerald also dance when the Princess asked him. Ethan gives in, for him, Emerald is different from Princess Rosela. The first woman he truly fell in love with is very reserved, but ferocious, while the woman beside him right now is very outspoken, witty, and a tigress. Emerald is also quite a partygoer as he observed her, but there is something on her that he wants to know more about. It seems that she is masking something or hiding from her own shell and wall, "Luna will not partner me to her if this woman is not compatible with my personality" he said to himself.  ​​

As the party goes and after a couple of dances, Louie was called on stage together with Ethan, Kim, Harry, and Kim. Audrey is one of the emcees of the program, she announces that Louie will have something to say to Luna and sing his songs for Luna. Louie is not quite prepared for he doesn't want others to hear his confessions of regrets. Yes, he already did some confessions, but it is not poured out all and he didn't expect the Knights and even Luna's brothers to want him to do it in front of all inside the Palace. 

Louie swallows a mouthful of saliva and his heart is pounding rapidly, he did know what to say as he only wants to sing his unspoken words to the woman he fell in love with that wears the blue mask. Harry and Yuan already sense that Louie is having trouble forming words as the five of them walk towards the stage. Harry strode fast towards Louie, "Just be yourself, Louie. Just say it loud what is inside yourself. I know it is hard, especially seeing the woman you love in the arms of another man. Just tell Luna your hidden feelings, we all know that it is too late but still have no regrets informing her and the whole world about your feelings in front of everybody. Maybe this will be the chance that Luna will accept you fully and even your children" Harry whispered to him. 

Louie smiled and nods his head, as the five men went to their places at the center of the stage with musical instruments and all eyes were on them; Louie took a deep breath and let it out. Louie smiled and his eyes drifted to Luna.

"Good evening, Ladies and Gentlemen. I don't know how to start and know much, but all I have right now is to express what is inside my heart. It's not enough just to tell Luna how regretful I am and how much I love her. Even though my brain always tells me not to say it anymore or do more" Louie started his speech. Harry and the rest just listening to him and waiting for the cue of what song they will be playing for Luna. Louie stared at Luna once again. 

"I try to stop my mind from thinking about you, especially when I watched Viscount Francois proposing to you and getting married, but my heart won't let me. I know that I will always love you and care for you, but some things just don't work out the way I hope and dream for especially now.  And then I learned a lot about myself. I know I have, I have to be strong and accept the reality. I know I played a part in how things went, but it doesn't mean it hurts less. I know things work out the way they are meant to, and that's my only solace now. 

Deep down, my heart believes that we will still find our way back together, but for now, all I can think is to be by your side and by with our children. To keep you three safe and well protected from those people who want to bring you harm. Luna, I know the people around you can do it, but please don't let me stop protecting you this time. I want to be a father to the kids and be a man for you even if it is a friend or an acquaintance. 

I know, I have to focus on myself and healing the parts of me that are bleeding the raw emotions that I've ever known. To hurt like this is to feel a pain that is so much more than just physical, soulful, or emotional. Now I know what you feel five years back then. My betrayal, cheating, and even the humiliation I gave to you. I am very sorry Luna. 

The feelings I am having right now are not gradual but rather it's everything at once. And it's almost suffocating- and I'm fighting to breathe. So, I'm digging deep, attempting to rouse my spirit and trying to be strong. I don't know if I can be, but I don't have any other choices, all I will do is to accept the fact that you will not be mine and even the kids will not be mine. But I am happy that the man you choose is way better than me," Louie's speech was heard by everyone. 

Then Louie gave the cue to Harry and Yuan, both of them started to play the intro of the song When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne (youtube.com/watch?v=xYfF-kLIg98). Louie sang the song full of emotions. 

"I want to get a move on again, to escape this place I've fallen into- and I know I can. But it will take some time, I know I can do it. I think I'm strong enough until something happens and it breaks me into shattered pieces. I'm broken, shattered, and crushed all at once. But I know I can still stand up and be a man for you and the kids. I may not love again, but still, my love for you is in my heart," he said to himself while singing the song. 

Louie, knew deep inside in his heart that, day by day, breath by breath, he might find a way. He wants to be stronger, wiser, and braver, his broken heart will make him a warrior, And soon enough, he'll be unstoppable. For him and his kids. There's no other choice. It'll take some patience and growth, but he'll get there, he has to. One day, he knew, he might fall in love again and might meet Luna again and he will introduce someone to her and he can finally tell her that he had found his lifetime partner. Maybe things will be different then.

"Louie's future comes crashing down in an instant, he can sense as though his heart is being emptied, moment by moment. But his broken heart will be his fuel to rise again, to come back better and become stronger" Francois whispered to Luna as they both watch the performance of his Queens' ex- husband.

Luna smiled, "My King, the memories still sting a little, but not like they used to, and one day soon, they won't bother me at all. I'm healing, growing, and rising again and it is because of you My King. I can finally look forward to my future again instead of holding my breath waiting for the next disaster. At long last, like I should have decided long ago, I'm free to live, love, and chase my dreams. Thank you for being there when I needed to learn along the way. You helped make me what I couldn't have become without the fire of struggle. You taught me how to become brave, strong, and free. Louie is my past, and he can't be my present and future, for you are my present, future, and forever" Luna whispered back to him and gave him a peck on his cheeks. 

That scene was like a slap on Louie's face. He still gets jealous of those lovey-dovey acts of Luna with Francois. Even though it is a normal gesture for married couples, but his heart still aches and his brain still can't accept the present. 

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