Chapter 243

I was held in Xiao Mo's arms. This night, I didn't feel sleepy at all. Now my mind is full of Xiao Mo's engagement to Anna.

"Xiao Mo, are you really willing to get engaged to Anna? You won't regret it?"

After a long time, I didn't know if Xiao Mo was asleep. After a long ideological struggle, I finally asked this question.

"What if you don't want to?"

Xiao Mo didn't answer my question, but asked me faintly.

But I heard from his words that he didn't mind being engaged to Anna.

"If you don't want to, why are you engaged? Don't you think it's a painful thing to spend your life with someone you don't like?"

I turned around and looked at Xiao Mo seriously. In fact, I was selfish to say these words. I didn't want Xiao Mo to be engaged to Anna.

"In this world, many things can't be decided if you are willing or unwilling."

Xiao Mo's dark eyes stared at my eyes. His tone of voice was very flat, but I seemed to feel his helplessness.

Facing Xiao Mo's answer, I don't know how to answer. Maybe Xiao Mo obeys the arrangement of his family for a reason.

In Xiao Mo's world, emotion is not the most important.

"It's getting late. Go to bed."

I tried to resist the bitterness in my heart. After I said this sentence faintly, I closed my eyes.

I didn't feel sleepy at all, but I was afraid to continue talking with Xiao Mo, because I knew that even if his heart liked me, he wouldn't cancel his engagement with Anna.

I closed my eyes, but I could feel Xiao Mo's eyes staying on my face. He stretched out his hand and touched my face. He looked very gentle and gentle now.

My eyelashes trembled. Now I really want to jump into his arms and ask him not to be engaged to Anna and not to be with Anna.

But in front of Xiao Mo, what qualifications do I have to say so? And even if I did, would he change his mind?

"Maybe the hardest decision I've made in my life is to give up you."

Xiao Mo murmured these words, and his hand was still gently touching my face.

Hearing his words, my heart was shaking fiercely. I felt from Xiao Mo's tone that he had me in his heart, but I didn't understand why he paid so much attention to his career and ignored the feelings that can make people feel happy.

I haven't opened my eyes. I don't know when I really fell asleep. Maybe I feel special peace of mind in Xiao Mo's arms. I sleep very well.

But when I woke up in the morning, Xiao Mo had already disappeared.

Looking at the empty bedroom, my heart seems to be hollowed out. After last night, do we really want to be the most familiar strangers?

I sat on the bed, holding my legs in my hands and recalling the little things I had with Xiao mo. although he had always been overbearing and indifferent to me, he was always the only one who appeared in front of me to help me when I was in trouble.

I looked to the side of my body. There was still his breath on the sheets. Maybe last night was the last memory between me and him.

I stayed at home these two days, neither watching TV nor watching the news, because Xiao Mo's wedding should be the focus of the whole country. The TV news will be broadcast. I don't want to see him and Anna appear in the camera happily.

At the weekend, I came to the hospital. At the same time, it was also the day when Xiao Mo was engaged to Anna.

I came to the doctor's office because I had an appointment to have an abortion operation today. When the doctor saw me coming in, he gave me an expressionless look.

"Sit down. Have you really decided not to have children in your stomach?"

"I've decided that I'm not fit to have children now."

I bowed my head slightly and whispered this sentence.

"Then prepare yourself. We'll start the operation in half an hour."

Seeing that I had not changed my mind, the doctor looked at me and opened his mouth indifferently.

Half an hour later, I followed the doctor to an operating room. Looking at the cold operating room, there were tools for surgery everywhere. I was a little scared.

The doctor who operated on me is now disinfecting the surgical tools. I stood in place in a panic. When I entered the operating room for the first time, I said it was false not to be afraid.

I looked nervously at the tools for abortion in the doctor's hand, and I was even more afraid.

A few minutes later, the doctor turned to me. She was wearing a mask. I couldn't see her expression clearly.

"Take off your pants and lie down."

The doctor pointed to the operating table behind me and opened his mouth faintly.

I went to the operating bed. After struggling for a long time, I finally took off my pants. Although I haven't had abortion surgery, I also know that my private parts must be exposed in front of the doctor.

Although the doctor who operated on me was a woman, I couldn't help being embarrassed. After all, I have lived for more than 20 years and haven't been seen by anyone except Xiao mo.

I lay on the operating table, nervous, and I began to struggle inside.

The child in my stomach belongs to Xiao Mo and I. If I beat him out like this, I really can't bear it.

Lying on the operating bed, I looked a little restrained, and my inner panic made me uneasy.

"Separate your legs. I can't operate on you."

The doctor looked at me nervously and spoke again.

I frowned, finally closed my eyes and opened my legs. Anyway, the doctor did this kind of surgery. I don't know how many women's bodies I've seen. This is someone else's career. What's embarrassing for me.

"I'll disinfect you first. I'll give you anesthetic before the operation. You won't feel pain. You don't have to be nervous."

Maybe he saw my nervousness and the doctor said something to comfort me.

"Thank you."

I opened my eyes and faced the doctor's comfort. I didn't know what to say.

I lay on the operating table. I couldn't see what the doctor was doing, but I could feel the cold of my lower body. It should be disinfecting me.

I looked at the operating light with my eyes open. I was very nervous. I thought that the child in my stomach would disappear soon. I didn't know why, but I felt a little flustered.

I'm not a ruthless person. After all, what's in my stomach is my child. I really feel guilty if I end his life like this.

After the doctor helped me Xiao Mo, he illuminated my lower body with an operating lamp, and then came to me with an injection. I guess it should be anesthetic.

My heart mentioned to my throat. As long as the anesthetic goes on, I won't feel anything. When I wake up, it's all over.