Maybe it was because of the tossing for too long last night. Xiao Mo didn't plan to let me go to work today, so when I woke up in the morning, she was gone.
I can only drive to the company by myself. Although I say my body is very uncomfortable by her, I must not delay my work because of my private life.
After the toss of last night, I had almost forgotten my mother's story, but when I drove to the door of the company, her figure appeared in my sight again.
She still stood where she stayed yesterday, probably because my last warning worked. She didn't go to the company to find me, but waited at the door every time and didn't disturb me.
Seeing her figure, I still couldn't ignore it. I slowed down. She knew my car, so her eyes stayed on my side.
I was going to ignore her directly, but I found that I couldn't do it at all, so cold-blooded.
After all, it's my biological mother. I didn't know it before. Now that I know the relationship between us, how can I have no feelings for her.
I parked my car at the door of the company, then got off and walked towards her.
Although I didn't intend to forgive her, it still hurts me to see her waiting here.
When she saw me coming towards her, a smile appeared on her face, but she became a little excited.
"Peace of mind, you finally don't hide from me now."
"I'm not hiding from you. I just don't want to see you?"
In fact, I didn't hide from her, but she didn't dare to find me in the company because of my last warning.
"Peace of mind, you came to me today. Does that mean you have forgiven me?"
She ignored my indifferent tone. She smiled and looked at me with tenderness in her eyes.
"Mrs. Chen, I think you misunderstood. I came to you not because I forgive you, but because I don't want you to squat at the door of my company every day. I don't want my private life to become the gossip of the company."
In fact, although I say so, my real idea is that I don't want her to wait here every day. Now it's so hot, she's standing here all the time, and I'll be distressed.
"What do you call me? You still call me Mrs. Chen? Peace of mind, I'm your mother. You call me by this name. Do you know I'm very sad?"
My mother looked at me with some injuries. When she said this, her tone was sad.
"Mrs. Chen, I think I made it very clear when I went to school. I don't want to have anything to do with you, so you can't be my mother in your life. My name for you will never change!"
Although it's hard for me to say these words that hurt her, I just want to vent my resentment now.
Because she abandoned me more than 20 years ago, my heart is to blame her and hate her. I can't forgive it so easily.
As soon as I said my words, I clearly saw that her body trembled and the tears in her eyes were spinning. She looked at me sadly. The disappointed expression made me feel very uncomfortable.
"Peace of mind, I know your heart's desire and hate me, but please don't say such cruel words. Do you know that as a mother, it hurts to hear her daughter say such cruel words?"
She grabbed my hand and said this sentence with some emotion. I seemed to see a trace of despair in the bottom of her eyes.
In fact, I really don't want to hurt her in my heart. I even want to hold her and call her mom. I want to ask her loudly why she abandoned me. I want to tell her how important family affection is in my heart!
"No matter how painful your heart is, I believe it is more sad than being abandoned by your own mother! The saddest thing in the world is being abandoned by your own parents. You have done such cruel things to me. I just said a few words now, and you can't stand it?"
I tried to pretend that I didn't care. I looked at her sarcastically, in a cold tone without a trace of emotion.
What I said was all complaining about her inside and outside. When she heard it, her face turned pale and her eyes showed guilt.
"I know you hate me because of that thing. I know you should hate me. I've been guilty for more than 20 years because of that thing. I found you this time just to make up for my guilt for you and give my mother a chance, okay? Let me make up for my debt to you for more than 20 years..."
When my mother said this, she held my hand more tightly. She looked at me expectantly and hoped that I would give the answer she wanted.
In fact, when I heard her say these words, I had already softened my heart. I just couldn't get through the barrier in my heart.
"Mrs. Chen. No matter what you say, my decision will not change. I hope you won't appear at the door of my company in the future. It's best and never in my sight. Can we be strangers?"
I don't know what's wrong with me. I know that saying these words will hurt her, but I still can't help saying it.