When I came to Cuiping community, I opened the door and saw Chen Jiajia sitting on the sofa in the living room. When we left yesterday, she sat here like this. I even wondered if she had been sitting like this since I left with Xiao Mo at noon yesterday.
"Chen Jiajia, I brought you some breakfast. Have some."
I put the breakfast I brought from home on the table in front of her and spoke to her gently with me.
She didn't even look at me. It was like she didn't hear me. Her eyes became empty and completely devoid of the aura of the past.
I know she still didn't come out of that thing. I sighed helplessly and then sat next to her.
"Your mother has been discharged from the hospital today. Do you want to go home to live? I'm very worried that you live here alone."
I looked at her side face and whispered a reminder.
"No, I don't want to go back to live! If my mother knew I was... How could I see people!"
As soon as my words were said, Chen Jiajia immediately turned to look at me. She spoke loudly with emotion.
Her sudden reaction startled me, and it took a long time to calm down.
It's not that she couldn't hear what I said. She just didn't want to talk to me. When she heard what I said to let him go home, she immediately began to refute me.
"I know it's still hard for you to face up to now. I think it will be very uncomfortable for any woman to have such a thing, but since it has happened, you have to learn to face it. It's not the way for you to escape all the time."
I patted Chen Jiajia on the back and looked at her with heartache. In the final analysis, she is also my mother's child. Although I don't like her, she also has a different feeling than strangers.
"It's easy for you to say. If this happened to you, can you act as if nothing had happened? Can you stand the stain of letting others know you?"
Chen Jiajia looked at me excitedly. Her eyes were red and her face was pale. At the moment, she looked a little scary.
When she said this, her body was trembling. It could be seen that she was holding back her emotions and fear.
"No, but something I happened. You have no choice but to face it, don't you? Do you want to hide here all the time?"
To tell you the truth, if this happened to me, I might become more extreme. Chen Jiajia, as a woman, I still pay more attention to this aspect. If it happened to me the night before yesterday, maybe I didn't even have the courage to live.
"Since you have admitted that you can't face it calmly, why should you ask me to do so? Gu Xinan, don't hypocritically pity me here. It's not all because of you. Why would you be my mother's illegitimate daughter? If my mother didn't come here to find you and I didn't come here to find my mother, how could this happen to me!"
Chen Jiajia stared at me angrily. When she said this, her eyes were full of hate.
Seeing that Chen Jiajia blamed all the things on me, I frowned slightly and felt a little dissatisfied. I felt that this matter had nothing to do with me. She quarreled with her mother and ran out in anger. If this happened, all the mistakes were blamed on me?
Did I find someone to rape her?
However, although I thought so in my heart, I didn't say anything. I thought she could not accept it for a time because of this kind of thing, so I took me as a vent.
"If you think I caused all this, think so. I brought you food and you'll be cold if you don't eat it. Do you want to starve yourself to death?"
I'm sure Chen Jiajia hasn't eaten anything since noon yesterday. I even wonder if she slept last night.
She has experienced that kind of thing. I don't want to argue with her so much. Although whether she will starve to death has nothing to do with me, he now lives in the place where Xiao Mo and I live. If she has an accident here, it will bring me trouble.
After Chen Jiajia looked at me, she opened the food I brought and began to eat.
Watching her eat, I was relieved. I sat next to him and quietly watched her eat. At this time, she ate like a wolf. Her eyes were red, as if she was suffering something.
She didn't say a word to me until she finished eating, and I didn't want to quarrel with her.
After dinner, I packed my lunch box and was ready to leave.
"I'll come back in the evening. I'll bring you dinner. If you don't want to see anyone these days, I'll bring you some laundry and the medicine I prescribed for you yesterday, which is the medicine for... Vulva tear. Don't forget to apply it."
As Chen Jiajia is now, she doesn't eat rice, let alone take a bath and apply medicine. When I came to the door, I couldn't help reminding her.
After hearing what I said, Chen Jiajia's face changed. A pair of red eyes looked at me with hate.
The vulva laceration was caused by gang rape, which is the biggest stain in her life. I remind her that applying medicine will inevitably remind her of what happened that night again.
But things have happened. Although I also want to avoid not mentioning it, I am also kind to remind her to take medicine.
Women's physical diseases can be large or small. I don't want her to leave any roots in the future.
When I saw Chen Jiajia looking at me, I didn't say anything more and turned away.
After walking out of Cuiping community, the mobile phone ring rang. I saw that the caller ID was murongze's number. I thought of what he said in the ward that day. In fact, I still felt a little embarrassed.
I don't really want to answer, but I regard him as a friend in my heart, so after struggling for a moment, I still connected the phone.
"Hello, murongze."
"Your mother was discharged today. Didn't you come?"
Murongze's voice came from the other end of the phone.
"Well, I have something to do today, so I didn't pick her up from the hospital. Anyway, her health is no longer a big problem. It's the same whether I go or not."
I said this sentence in a faint tone. I could hear from Murong Ze's words that he should be in the hospital now.
"I thought I could see you in the hospital today. Unexpectedly, I threw myself into the air. Alas, I'm really disappointed."