Chapter 109 - What's In Your Head?

Chapter 109: What's in your head?

Jason's eyes widened as the repercussion of Tamara's behavior hit him from everywhere.

She was kissing him. 

His wife was upstairs and Tammy Jones was kissing him.

Jason grabbed both of her arms and he shoved her gently.

He wiped his lips with the back of his hand.

"Get out of my house, Tamara!" Jason told her through his clenched teeth.

"Jason, calm down. It was just a kiss and I had to get it out of the way" Tammy tried to calm him down.

Jason tried to control the sudden surge of anger that was going through him.

He vowed that he wasn't going to turn up like James, a cheat and a bad father. So far he was doing a great job until the woman he thought was his friend showed up and wrecked his life.

"I am going to say it one more time. Get the fuck out of my house!" Jason pointed to the door and his raised voice made Mckenna walk faster down the stairs.

She wondered what the commotion was all about because Jason knew that there were kids up in the room and yelling wasn't allowed in her house.

"Jason, what's going on?" Mckenna asked her husband with a face that clearly said she was not going to take the usual 'everything will be alright' answer.

She stared at him and she had never seen him this angry before. Tamara looked contrite and tried to pacify him.

Mckenna wondered how they went from giggles to this.

"What is going on?"

"Can you please tell Tamara to leave?" Jason asked his wife.

"I will leave. I just need EJ to come down" Tamara told him with a straight face.

"EJ stays, you can pick her up in the evening" Jason insisted. 

He folded his arm under his armpits like he was ready for a fight if one should ensue.

"She is my…" 

Tamara was interrupted by Mckenna.

"Tamara, I think you should go. You can pick up your daughter later in the day. Please go, you are upsetting my husband and I don't want my daughter and yours coming down here to see us arguing" Mckenna opened the door for Tamara and waited for her to walk out. She did.

She closed the door behind her but when she turned around Jason was making his way upstairs and she followed him right behind.

"Jason! Jason!" She called after him but he didn't stop. He entered the bedroom without saying a word to her.

Mckenna saw Kara and EJ standing outside their room looking at her.

"Everything is fine, girls. Go back into your room" Mckenna spared a smile even though she knew deep down that everything wasn't fine.

As soon as Kara and EJ disappeared into their room, she entered the bedroom and locked the door behind her.

Jason was dialing a number on his phone.

"Annalise, this is Jason Yagazie. Can you forward everything you have on getting the sole custody of …" Jason was startled when Mckenna took the phone from him.

"Hi, Annalise. We are going to call you back" Mckenna hung up.

Mckenna raised both of her eyebrows. She wanted to know why her husband was calling the family lawyer to ask for child custody. 

What did Tamara do that was so bad that Jason wanted to take her daughter away from her?

Mckenna won't stand for it. Because she was carrying his child too and if things ever went south, she shouldn't have to worry that Jason was going to take her baby away from her.

"Jason, this is the time you use your words to talk. What happened?" Mckenna asked him.

Jason finally looked at her and his anger was beginning to dissipate, he looked ashamed now. Like he was about to tell her the greatest regret of his life.

"Tammy kissed me. I was trying to pick up my bag from the floor and he kissed me" Jason told her.

Mckenna blinked. Her mind went blank.

"What?" She whispered.

Jason leaned against the wall. It was a lot to process and he knew that his wife needed time to process it. 

Hell, he was still processing it too.

Tammy was supposed to be his friend. She should know how much he worked to be anything but James and now? Well, now he was watching his wife go through her feelings because of him and he couldn't do anything about it. 

Jason wondered at how fast labels change in a man's life. Ten minutes ago, he was a faithful husband to his wife and now?

Well, now he was a cheat. The man who kissed another woman while his wife was in the next room. 

He felt dirty and disgusted with himself. He was gradually turning into James.

First, he abandoned his daughter for nine years something James had been doing for years and second, he just cheated on his wife just like his father.

"What?!" Mckenna asked again.

"Tamara Jones kissed me. Basically, I just cheated on you! I am James. I am my father now. What is next? Will I start hitting my kids with a belt?" Jason asked and started stripping as fast as he could.

"Did you want her to kiss you?" Mckenna asked him.

"No! God no! I am disgusted and I am angry and you should be angry too, Mckenna"

"I am! But you are not standing still long enough for me to yell at you" Mckenna yelled at him.

Jason tried to stand still. He owned her that much. He could feel his skin crawl with invisible ants. He needed a good scrub.

"I am standing still. You can yell now" Jason told her.

Mckenna watched him. He was somehow overreacting to the news more than she was.

"You really didn't want to be kissed by Tamara?" Mckenna finally admitted to herself and to him. 

She weirdly believed him. The way he couldn't wait to get rid of her and the way he was stripping like he wanted to get away from Tamara's scent.

"No. A cheat is the last thing I wanted to be. Can I have that bath now? Please" Jason asked her.

Mckenna nodded and he stripped down until he was naked as the day he was born.

He entered the bathroom and switched on the shower. He allowed it to fall on his body and he tried to get over the feeling that was trying to overwhelm him.

He closed his eyes briefly, just lost in his own head and thinking about James. He was yet to punish his father for EJ. 

James should be punished for turning him into the type of man that missed nine years of his child's life.

He scrubbed his body like he had OCD. He scrubbed until he felt someone touch him from behind. He turned around to find his naked wife standing behind him.

"I am sorry" He told her.

"It wasn't your fault. If you want to blame someone, then join me and blame Tamara. She kissed you and you stopped it as soon as you could, right?" Mckenna asked him.

"I swear on our daughter's life I pushed her away" Jason answered her. 

Mckenna nodded. It was all she wanted to hear.

"In Canada, you forgave me for sleeping with Jacob…a guy that was sweet on me…" 

Mckenna was interrupted by Jason.

"Except you didn't actually sleep with him"

"But you didn't know that when you ambushed me in the school parking lot to tell me that you were in love with me…Just me with my imperfections and flaws, baby" Mckenna had a smile on her face.

"Wrong. I am in love with you just like I have always been, Mckenna" Jason corrected her.

"Well, now it is my turn. I am in love with your imperfection and flaws, Jason Yagazie. You are not a cheat. It's not cheating if I say it's not and you are not disgusting, so stop scrubbing yourself like you are. And you, my love…you are nothing like your father. Do you hear me?" Mckenna asked him.

Jason nodded and calmed down. He rested his face on Mckenna's and let out a pent up breath from his lips.

"We don't have to see Tamara again. I want to file for sole custody of EJ and I need your blessing" 

"You don't have it, Jason. And I remember you having the same conversation with your mother about Kara. Do you remember when you wanted to take Kara away from Naya?" 

Jason was mute.

"You didn't have our blessings then, you won't have it now. You don't have the right to take away a child from her mother, especially one that has been raising her for nine years. No lawyers…please" 

Without his anger blindingly prompting him to hurt Tamara back, he saw reasons in what Mckenna was saying.

"Alright. I am sorry" 

"I know" Mckenna hugged him. "But from now onwards, you will not be alone with Tamara or see her without me sitting with this face…" Mckenna pointed at her face "...Staring at her and letting her know that she can't have my man. Do I make myself clear?" Mckenna asked in a high pitched voice. 

She was dead serious.

"Crystal!"

"Now, you are going to kiss me until every memory of the kiss Tamara imposed on you vanishes into thin air" Mckenna ordered him and looked at him seductively.

"Your wish will always…always be my command!"