Chapter 17 - Heartache

Jayden and I accompanied Kian to talk to his friend. He was from the Gold Class so we went there to look for him.

"Jayden?" A girl shouted.

"Clarisse?" He shouted back.

I frowned. Who the hell is she? When I looked at the girl, she's pretty and sexy. Her boobs were like an E? That's quite big for a high school girl. Her boobs were jiggling when she ran towards us. To my surprised, she jumped into Jayden and kissed him.

My eyes widened and so as Kian. Jayden was startled so he wasn't able to move for a moment. When he realized I was glaring at them, he gently pushed the girl away from him.

"Clarisse please don't do that anymore." He said.

"Why? We always do that, as if you're not used to it." She said while she brushed her fingers into his chest.

Jayden didn't move and that pisses me off. It seems to me that he's enjoying it. My heart felt like something was piercing it.

"It's different now. I have a girlfriend. A serious one." He said but he didn't tell her it was me.

"I see. But you told me that before and still you always come back to me. Anyway, it's nice to see you here. I just transferred so we'll see each other more. I have to go to the principal's office for introduction so I'll just find you later." She then gave him another kiss and run.

"Peggy!" Kian called and I didn't realize I was crying.

I just stood there looking at Jayden. He turned to me when Kian called and was shocked when he saw me crying.

"I hate you!" Then I run away from him.

He was calling me but I didn't look back. My heart felt betrayed. Why didn't he push her? Why does it looks like he enjoyed the kiss? Why didn't he introduce me to her as his girlfriend?

My phone was ringing non-stop and I know it was Jayden. I didn't answer. I called Missy and asked her to take me home. Not in Queen's but to my parents house

This house is where I grew up. I had a lonely childhood. I never had a happy memory here. Father left me alone with the servants when I was born. Mom died because of me. They said I look like her so I assume that's the reason dad never came back for me. I haven't seen him for 17 years. I don't even receive any call or a message from him. It's like I didn't exist in his world.

I've been living in Queen's for a few months now. I enjoyed staying there. It was fun being with the people who treats you like a family. I don't believe in love because I never experienced the love from my family.

Sometimes, I want to go to Flousia. It was a small country where my mom was born. When I was little, I asked my tutor to tell me about that country. I never told him the reason. When he told me about it, I was fascinated. I wanted to go there and visit my grandfather, the King. Did he know me? I'm not sure. I don't think anyone from my mother's family knew my existence and father's family never treated me as their own.

I layed down on my bed thinking about what happened for the past few months. Jayden came in to my life, became my boyfriend, I gave him my all, confessed that he loves me then broke my heart. I know he was a play boy. I know he had several women before me. I know they were pretty, sexy and has more experience in bed. But I trusted him. I thought his love is enough to trust him and I wouldn't be hurt by him.

My heart felt like it was stabbed. It hurts so much that I wanted to rip it out of my chest. Am I already head over heels in love with him? Or is it just my pride as a woman that got hurt?

The image of Jayden and that girl kissing lingers in my mind. The thought of that girl touching his body made my chest tightened.

Why does it hurt so much? Is this the pain you'll always feel when the man you love hurt you? If so, I don't want to continue falling in love.

'Beep' Another message and another. I looked at my phone and it was the girls who sent the messages in our group chat.

Alora: Peggy where are you? Jayden's been looking for you.

Emily: He's been trespassing all the classroom. He was asking all your exes. He's crazy.

Nina: Peggy what happened? If you don't want to see him, you can talk to us. Just tell us where you are.

Sophie: Yes Peg, let's talk. We're worried about you.

Peggy: I'm at home. Can you come here in secret please?

The girls confirmed they will come here and won't tell Jayden. I know Alora will tell Luke because of her safety.

The girls arrived at around 4PM. I was still on the bed when they came inside the room.

"Peggy what happened?" Emily asked.

They sat on the bed around me.

I told them what happened earlier and that I was mad at Jayden for not introducing me as his girlfriend.

"I know she's one of her exes. She wouldn't kiss him if not. She said Jayden told her twice about being serious in a relationship but he always come back to her. I don't understand. I thought I was the first girl he fell in love with. I felt betrayed." I said while sobbing.

"It's natural to feel that way. I felt the same way when Luke's ex-fiance kissed him in front of me." Alora said.

"But yours was different. Luke clearly told her that he's yours. Jayden didn't even look at me when he was kissed by that girl. I gave him everything. I trusted him. I thought giving him my body will make him stay with me." I can't stop crying when I told them that.

"Didn't you give him that because you love him? And why would you allow that woman to ruin your relationship with him? Shouldn't you fight for him instead of sulking here? Are you going to accept defeat just like that?" Alora asked.

"Peggy don't expect that your relationship won't face any issues along the way. If you love him, you have to accept his past and his flaws. You already know that he was a play boy before he met you, right? It was Sophie.

"You should talk to him. Don't run away. It won't help the both of you. Just tell him exactly how you feel. If you trusted him, trust him with all your heart and don't doubt your love for him." Alora said softly.

"If Jayden's just messing with you, he wouldn't be like that. He was searching for you in the whole campus. He even went to the college department and asked Andrew. He was a mess when we left earlier. The boys were trying to calm him down." Nina said.

We continued chatting when we heard a voice outside. It's like someone was making a ruckus. One of the servants rushed inside.

"Miss there was a man who was forcing his way in. He was looking for you. He's with Mr.Wilson, so we let them in. He wanted to go to your room but the guards won't let him so they were restraining him." She said.

I know it was Jayden. I'm afraid to face him. My heart was beating so fast because I know he's mad. I know he's different when he's mad.

The door opened as if someone kicked it from the outside. It was Jayden.