Chapter 32 - His Pain

I froze. Do I really want to witness what happened to his mother? Can I take the horrifying event that day? Jayden just told me what happened and I was already in fear, what more if I saw it?

But it was Jayden's pain. It was the memory he preserved deep inside his mind. I would never understand his pain if I couldn't see it.

"You're in doubt." She said simply.

"I'm doubting myself if I could actually look at what happened to you. But I'm not doubting that I wanted to share his pain." I answered.

"You know Jayden was a happy kid. When he was born, me and my husband were so glad to have him. He was the greatest blessing for us. He's smart and always on top of his class. My husband was a small time doctor and we don't really have much." She took a deep breath and continued.

"I inherited a huge amount of money from my grandmother but my husband didn't want to use it. So I decided to give it to Jayden. We're happy and greatful even if we're not rich. Jayden was also protective of me. He was young but he will always tell me that he'll protect me. When I was murdered, I think he became desperate that he couldn't protect me." She said, wiping the tears from her eyes.

"Peggy, I want my son to be free from those pain. From anger. If you're willing to follow him even in hell, I think you can help him. He's broken. But he was starting to be better when he met you, then this happened. He should let go of me." She continued.

"Why couldn't you ask him? And why are you trying to take him earlier?" I asked, confused.

"Peggy, I'm his other self. His dark side. I don't have a soul so once I take over him, I will kill. Because he created me like that. I'm his fear, his pain and despair. He just didn't notice for now that darkness is slowly consuming him. I wanted to take him, so he wouldn't feel the pain anymore. He will be safe." She said.

Everything was still unclear with me. Ever since we experienced this kind of charades, from Alora and now Jayden, I just couldn't understand how broad our mind is. Alora has multiple personality inside her. Jayden only got one but I think his pain was so deep and the only thing that can cure him was to get his revenge.

"If you're not willing to share his pain, I won't give him back to you."

"But where is Jayden? You said he's lost somewhere in the dark. Can I reach him?" I asked.

"He's trapped in his own darkness. You can try reaching him, but I'm not sure if he can hear you." She answered.

When I looked at her, she looks like Jayden. Her golden hair was waving through the wind. Her hazelnut eyes were like Jayden's. She was pretty and classy in every way.

"No.You won't take him from me. He needs me more than anyone. I need him. I want to see his pain. I want him to share it with me. Show it to me." I said in a firm voice.

"Are you sure Peggy? Your mind should be ready and so is your heart. If you're weak, you will suffer the same way like Jayden." She said.

I smiled. "I know. He's suffering is mine and his pain will become mine."

Then she reached out her hand to me, and I reached back. Everything became dark.

Where am I? It's small and cramped. As if I can't breathe.

The closet! I'm inside the closet where she hid Jayden.

"Jayden, baby. Go inside the closet and don't make a single noise. Whatever happens, don't come out!" It was her mother's voice.

"Mom I'm scared." He said.

I can hear someone thumping on the door. There are distinct voices outside and they were trying to get inside the house. I felt my heart beating so fast. I can also feel the sweat all over my body. I was trembling.

The closet's door opened. Her mother made small holes so he can breathe. He pushed him inside and Jayden was sitting beside me.

"Mom don't leave me." He begged. When I looked at him. He was crying and fear was all over his face.

"Jayden listen to me! Live! You will get old and find your true love. When it happens, mommy will be happy. I love you to the moon and back." She said while trying not to cry.

"Mom I love you for all eternity." Jayden's little voice were trembling as he bid goodbye to his mother.

Her mother closed the door and I heard someone burst inside the house.

"Who are you? What do you want?" She yelled.

Jayden looked at one of the peepholes his mother made. I wanted to cover his eyes so he won't see what's going to happen. He didn't say a word. I leaned closer to the hole to see what's happening.

"Where's your husband? We've been hired to kill him." One of the men said.

There were three men inside like Jayden told me but we couldn't really see their faces from where we are.

"My husband's not here. So leave! If you don't leave I will call the police!" She almost screamed.

Then the man slapped her in the face. It was so hard, she fell on the floor. I can sense Jayden was tensed. But I can also see his eyes burning with rage.

"We're dead if we couldn't kill the man. Let's have fun with her instead, we'll be dead anyway." The other man said, smirking.

Then the next scene happened, the most terrifying thing I saw in my whole life. I don't like what I'm seeing, it was horrific but I couldn't take my eyes off them. I felt the rage and anger was growing inside me.

I looked at Jayden and he was stunned. His eyes were emotionless. Nothing. As if he was dead. My heart felt if was ripped off from my chest.