Xu Nuan, who was walking towards her bedroom to get her clothes to take a shower, stopped in her tracks when she heard his words. Although his voice was low, she heard it clearly.
She slowly turned to face him and saw his serious expressions which vanished her playful mood earlier. She stood there while staring at him silently and pondering over his question.
' That's right. Why does she love him? She never thought about it before. Since the day she woke up as Xu Nuan, she found his heavenly handsome face attractive and his nature has been fairly constant and genuine with her. He has seen her at her worst and has supported her when everyone was ready to fight with her, especially Xu Nuan's family members. On top of that, he moved in next to her condo. All these coincidences made her feel that he is the one that can give her hope to get through this bumpy life.
However, the realization that he is Han Zihao she knew before as the closest friend, made her feel even more attached to him, increasing the intensity of her feelings for him.
But she never sat down to think about why she loves him. Is it really love?
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Han Zihao saw her puzzled expressions and seeing her freeze on a spot, he walked to her and stood in front of her, while gazing at her intensely.
" Huh? Why do you love me? I can't understand despite me pushing you away every time why you keep invading my life, making me confused and insane at the same time?" he said in a low voice, which sent a shiver to her body.
She was stunned to see him extremely serious at this moment. She was trying to pull his leg a while ago in front of Lin Hui. She didn't know that it had affected him to this extent.
" Tell me a single reason why you love me? No one does anything without a reason. There are many men who can be a good catch but why me? I always push you away, turn down the efforts you spent on me. Is there a reason that it has to be me and not someone else." he asked.
He was confused. Till now he has turned down many women brutally but for some strange reason, he always finds himself letting down his guard in front of this woman. He can't be as clear with her as he has been with them. He hates it when she skips her meals, he hates it when she goes to the club with another guy, he also hates it that she enjoys food cooked by another man. He doesn't know why he was feeling this and he knows he doesn't have any right to feel this way, but he does.
Xu Nuan bit her lower lip and closed her eyes for a moment before speaking. When she opened her eyes, she stared at him determinedly and said, " Mr. Han, you asked me the reason why I love you? There is no reason." she said, which caused a confused look to appear on his face.
Upon hearing her words, he felt a little let down. Maybe he was thinking too much?
Xu Nuan stood in front of him comfortably, with her hands by her side which slowly made their way to his. She held his hands which were by his side and said while holding them, " There is no reason to love, Mr. Han. I also used to think that I like you because you're heavenly good looking and ridiculously rich. But that's not the reason." she said seriously.
" If I think about it, there is no reason. I don't know why I love you but I just..do. I don't know either, why? Love is a complicated thing, Mr. Han. These strong feelings are as new to me as it is to you. I have never felt such a strong desire to make someone mine or to be with someone so badly." she said while choking up a little.
She started to think about her past relationship and if she compared to that, she realized how much she loves him. She easily managed to get over Qin Ju because she never felt such strong feelings for him before. At that time, she was angry at the fact that he cheated on her with her best friend and not because he betrayed her. She felt angry for a moment but those feelings aren't as strong as this. She was more embarrassed and angry at herself than him.
She can't imagine being betrayed by Han Zihao like this, because just about thinking about it, gives her goosebumps. She doesn't even want to think about that possibility.
Han Zihao stared at her with his gaze fixated on her face, not missing any single expression on it.
" Mr. Han, I haven't done a Masters in Love, so I don't know much about its theory. But I remember that someone once said this to me, ' Love with reasons is not love. The day you start to have reasons for it, it doesn't remain as love. Love with the condition is not love. You love your family, right? Why do you love them?" she asked, which caught him off guard.
He blinked before replying hesitantly, " Because they are my family?"
" I also have a family, but I don't," she said monotonously.
Although she is not Xu Nuan, she knows that Xu Nuan didn't have such feelings for her family either, nor does she. As Jiang Yue, she never liked her uncle and aunt and that bitchy cousin of hers. While Han Zihao loves Han Liang, he just doesn't show it but he does love him.
" You love them not because they are your family or they're blood-related to you but you don't have any reason to explain why you love them. Feelings cannot be explained in words, Mr. Han. Neither love nor hate. There can be some reasons which give birth to these feelings but it starts to grow inside us without a reason." she said.
She scrunched her brows seeing his indifferent expressions. " Well, did you get what I was trying to say? I mean, I don't love you because I have a reason, I just love you because I have no reason," she said while trying to think if she said it right.
'Ah, I should have taken literature classes seriously back then.' she cried inwardly thinking if she was saying right or not. She was trying to stay as serious as possible but his serious face was making her anxious and she can't help but wonder if she said it right.
" Okay, let me give you an example to explain this simply. Unlike your previous suitor, Zhu Ai, I don't love you for your money. I want to be capable enough to support you and love you even when you go bankrupt. You can depend on me. In the future, I will be able to support you and will even give you pocket money every week, not every day though. I need to save some for our future as well." she said with her serious face which made his lips twitch.
" Also, I am going to kill...I mean teach a lesson to all those bitches who dared to hit on you and come near you. I can accept anything, drinking, clubbing as long as you take me with you, overworking as long as you give me time on weekends or take me for a holiday after work. See, being in a relationship with me is so simple. I am so understanding and adjustable. Your life will be heavenly if you accept my feeling and get in a relationship with me Mr. Han." she said while tightening her grip on his hands while grinning ear to ear.
Han Zihao was speechless and wondered didn't she talked about love with no conditions a while ago? Here she is already putting so many conditions. He couldn't help but chuckle at her antics.
" You will be the luckiest man on the earth if you became my boyfriend," she said proudly.
"-_-"
Han Zihao was speechless seeing how she went from emotional mode to self-praising mode. He doesn't know about anything else, but she has a knack to surprise him every time with her unexpected words and that's her charm.
She can make him laugh even in the most serious conversation. Was she praying for him to become bankrupt? He was speechless.
He couldn't help but chuckle. This girl…
Xu Nuan was looking at him and blinked wondering if she said anything wrong. She pursed her lips to think about it. She frowned and started to speak again, " Erm...it's complicated right? Let me explain it again. See, love is a complicated feeling that you can never…..Umph…"
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