Chapter 251

But it's useless at all, Jian Ran's whole body is so weak that she seems to be about to fall down at any time, just like when she was sick before.

Maybe it's because I'm sick, it's a little more serious than usual, and the one-time dose of medicine has no effect.

Thinking of this, Jian Ran came to the living room, poured a glass of water, and took another dose of medicine.

After eating, Jane went back to the room and lay down on the bed, closed her eyes, hoping that the effect of the medicine would take effect soon, so that she would not feel so uncomfortable.

Jian Ran waited for a long time, not only did she not feel better, but she was covered in cold sweat.

After being discharged from the hospital two years ago, as long as she insisted on taking the medicine, she would not feel anything wrong. Why did it suddenly happen today?

Jian Ran couldn't figure it out, she was rolling around on the bed sadly, she wanted to call her father, but she didn't want him to worry, so she put down the cell phone she picked up.

The phone hadn't been out of her hands yet, but a call came in. She took the phone back and saw that it was from Qin Yue. Her heart softened for no reason. When she answered, she heard Qin Yue's deep voice: "What are you doing?"

"I..." Jian Ran sniffed, and suddenly felt so wronged that she wanted to cry, but she suppressed her grievance and tried to speak in a calm tone, "I seem to be sick."

"Don't hang up, wait for me."

Then, Jian Ran vaguely heard the sound of closing the car door. She held her mobile phone and buried her head in the pillow, feeling as uncomfortable as ten thousand ants devouring her heart.

Not long after, Qin Yue's voice came from the phone again: "Open the door."

"What door to open?" Jian Ran was in a daze and didn't realize it. She had already lost her mind and would not have thought that Qin Yue would appear at her door for a while.

"Open the door of your house." Qin Yue's voice came from the phone again, sounding a little anxious.

"Ah?" Jian Ran made a foolish ah, and after thinking about it with her confused mind, she finally realized that Qin Yue was asking her to open the house.

She got up and staggered out with her limp body. When she got to the door, she reached out to grab the doorknob.

"Jane -" Qin Yue's voice came from outside the house.

"I'm opening the door, you wait." Jian Ran groped for a long time before opening the door. After the door opened, she couldn't even see Qin Yue clearly, "Are you Qin Yue?"

"It's me. I'm Qin Yue, your Qin Yue." Qin Yue hugged her up and left.

"Qin Yue, what are you doing?" Jian Ran pushed him, but her body was so weak that she lay limp in his arms.

"I'll take you home." Back at their home, he would never let her stay outside alone, never let her suffer alone and write about loneliness.

"Home? Whose home?" Jian Ran muttered silently, "My home is where my father is. If he's not here, I don't know where my home is?"

She will be sick, helpless, and afraid. It must be that her father is not around, it must be.

In the past three years, her father has never left her. Today, when her father suddenly leaves, she is so helpless.

Listening to Jian Ran's words, Qin Yue tightened his arm forcefully, wrapped her tightly in his arms, and said in a deep voice: "Jian Ran, I don't allow you to talk nonsense."

If you want to blame, blame him, blame him for not protecting her well, that's why she suffered those painful things, and that's why she lost her past self.

"Qin Yue? Are you Qin Yue? Who is Qin Yue?" Jian Ran said in a daze, vaguely, "I don't seem to know you anymore. I seem to have known you for a long time. This feeling really It's so strange."

"Jianran..." Apart from calling her name, Qin Yue didn't know what else he could do.

Jian Ran added: "Not only do I not know you, I also don't know who I am. I will be called whatever my father says I am. But I can't remember who I am, what happened to me in the past I don’t know, many times, I feel that I will disappear at any time. It’s like I don’t belong to this world.”

"I was scared in my heart, but I didn't dare to tell my father that I didn't want him to worry about me. He's not young anymore, just me as a relative. He didn't want to tell me those things in the past, it must be for my own good. But It also made me understand that what happened in the past must not be a good thing."

"I keep telling myself not to think about the past, but I still can't help thinking about it. What kind of scary things have I encountered that make me unwilling to think about my past?"

"Why am I talking so much to a stranger like you? I told you, you won't understand how uncomfortable I feel. You won't even understand how scared I am."

She was alone, always pretending to be indifferent, as if she didn't care about anyone, and she didn't make any friends.

It's not that she doesn't want to make friends, but she's afraid to make friends.

If someone asked her one day, what university did you go to before, where did you work before, did you...

When people ask her the simplest and most basic questions.

How should she answer?

If I answer honestly and tell others that I can't remember the past, will those people treat her as a different kind?

"Jian Ran, I understand. I understand everything you said." Qin Yue kept telling her that her heart ached like it was shattered and she had difficulty breathing.

This is his Jane, no matter what time, she is always smiling, using her unique smile to cover up her inner worries and fears, pretending to be strong, as if no one can do anything to her.

He hated himself for losing her, and for so long. How did she live these three years?

"Hehe..." Jane shook her head with a sneer, and pulled out a smile that was uglier than crying, "Even my father doesn't understand, how can you understand?"

I don't know if it's because my mind is not clear, or if it's because people who are sick are particularly vulnerable. These things and fears that I've never told anyone before are all said out in one breath.

Maybe it's because I've been alone for too long and have no friends for too long, so I jumped into Qin Yue's net so easily, and I can't extricate myself anymore.

Knowing that he saw his dead wife through her, but she still threw herself at him like a moth to a flame without hesitation.

Many times, Jian Ran is both jealous and envious of Qin Yue's "Jian Ran".

Although that Jian Ran is no longer by Qin Yue's side, they have shared beautiful memories, and there is also a person who loves her deeply, cares about her, and has such a lovely daughter.

And her?

She has nothing but her father, not even the memory that everyone should have.