Chapter 695 - What Do You Want Me To Do

Xian Guiying was actually very upset. Whenever she saw Qin Gengxin's temperature increase, she would worry about him and would lose her sleep all night. However, every time he wanted to approach her after seeing her concern, she really wanted to run away and retreat. 

Xian Guiying had no idea what had happened to her. She didn't know if she was scared, tired, or something. Suddenly, her thought was seen through by him and she immediately became anxious.  "Qin Gengxin! Stop being like this. Let me go first!"

Qin Gengxin forcefully pulled her into his embrace. The beer can she's holding fell from her hand, splashing to the floor with a soft thud sound.

Xian Guiying's eyes widened. With a frown, she tried to push him away. "Qin Gengx--"

"At that time, you kept asking me why any woman could be with me, only you couldn't?" He squeezed her wrist and said, "Because I f*cking put you in my heart a long time ago! Because I f*cking clearly knew I couldn't have anything to do with you, but I still fell in love with you. Other than letting you by my side to protect you, I can't do anything else! I love you, but I can't be with you! I don't want to hurt you!"

Every word he said made Xian Guiying gritted her teeth, but it somehow calmed her down. She looked at him silently.

'I love you, but I can't be with you.' 

'I don't want to hurt you.'

Her eyes reddened, but she let him hold her wrist, let him hold her domineeringly in his arms. She then asked in a very soft voice. "Why can't you love me? Qin Gengxin, I know there seems to be something going on between my grandfather and your grandmother, but why does it affect us? Why can't you give me the answer? Why did your parents agree to our marriage? Was it because I'm pregnant? If I wasn't pregnant, nothing really wouldn't happen between us, right?"

Qin Gengxin's black eyes locked onto her reddened eyes. He finally saw the accusation in her eyes. After so many days, he finally saw that her eyes were neither rational nor calm.

He couldn't bear to see her like this. He put her hands down and placed his hand around her shoulder, pressing her head to his chest. "It's all my fault, it's all my fault."

Xian Guiying didn't struggle as she pushed her face to his chest, feeling very wronged in her heart.

"I made a wrong choice." Qin Gengxin hugged her and stroked her hair gently. "I shouldn't have avoided your feelings from the very beginning. If I chose to be with you from the beginning and we faced this together, those so-called memories and the past won't affect us. Guiying, I'm not as good as you. I said that I didn't want to hurt you, but in reality, I used my weakness and cowardice to hurt you. I'm so sorry."

"At this moment, other than using everything in my power to compensate you, I don't know what else to do. Please forgive me. I'm not that smart to the point where I can easily do everything. I really don't know what to do without you and Qianqian anymore."

Xian Guiying closed her eyes and listened to his words carefully. Her eyelashes were wet with tears.

"I've been thinking countless times about how I can get you back to me and how I can make Qianqian call me daddy." He kept stroking her hair. "Guiying, what should I do? What do you want me to do?"

Xian Guiying remained silent. Qin Gengxin hugged her tightly. "Tell me, what should I do? Tell me."

After hesitating for a moment, Xian Guiying wrapped her hands gently around his waist. Qin Gengxin felt her acceptance and hugged her tighter.

"I accept your apology." She said softly, "I didn't teach Qianqian not to acknowledge her father. The child was too sensitive. At that time, according to three years of child's knowledge, she thought her father didn't love her, didn't want her, so she became like this. She was sad."

"I know." Qin Gengxin hugged her tightly. As he spoke, he loosened his grip gently but not completely let her go. He bent down and kissed her lips. "I will do my best to win back my daughter's heart. I will not let her just remember Uncle Wei's good looks."

Xian Guiying immediately laughed when she heard his sour words. She didn't want him to keep hugging her like this and started pushing him away. "Go take your medicine and go to bed early. I already said that I accept your apology. We can discuss other things later."

However, before she could say other things, her lips were sealed again by him.

When their lips touched, Xian Guiying's stubborn feelings from twelve years ago finally drowned her. Finally, she was cherished by the man she loves and she didn't want to push him away again. Just like what Xian Zihao had once said, if they really destroy each other, then let it be!

Closing her eyes, she threw her arm over his shoulder and reciprocated his kiss. Qin Gengxin's kiss was getting deeper and hotter until she felt the natural physiological response of his lower body. 

Xian Guiying's body stiffened and she immediately retreated her head back, avoiding his lips. She looked up only to see the bottomless abyss in his eyes.

"I still have work to do and a video call with Qianqian. Otherwise, the girl won't sleep. You should take medicine and go back to your bedroom."

Ignoring her words, Qin Gengxin sealed her lips again. Only then Xian Guiying realized that he was leading her towards the bedroom. Her heart was beating fast and her memory of that night in the hotel suddenly came back to her, burning her body with a passion. She turned her head and buried her face in his neck to avoid his kiss, whispering, "Don't be like this."

She panicked and didn't know what to do. She was a woman who was almost thirty years old. Who believed her if she said she still feels awkward in this department? However, throughout her life, she only suffered those passions when she was in a hotel with Qin Gengxin that night. She still remembered the pain that made her feel like she wanted to die, that she hurriedly put on her clothes and ran out of the hotel the next day.

"Qin Gengxin." Xian Guiying was slightly confused. As his kiss moved to her ear, she shuddered and called his name.

Qin Gengxin stopped kissing her and slowly raised his head to look at her.

Xian Guiying looked at him with a bit of embarrassment and pointed to his face. "You're still sick. Even though the rash on your face has subsided, you still have a high fever." 

Qin Gengxin held her tightly, not letting her escape. With his deep black eyes, he stared at her for a while before asking, "Have you done it with Wei Zhengsheng?"

It was clear that he had acted like he didn't care, but in reality, he cared too much.

Xian Guiying said helplessly, "He and I have never had any relationship, so how can we do this?"