Chapter 190 - Why Did You Come ?

His jealousy was quickly replaced by a violent desire to crush his lips against those of his little rabbit.

But this intense and completely unexpected desire disappeared immediately when he heard the term duo fight, and he got angry again in spite of himself : "Fuck Ash, it's only been 2 weeks since you joined the Sun Sect and you've already found a duo fight partner, you're kidding me !"

Ashton immediately let go of him as if he had just slapped him and he replied looking down to hide his disappointment : "You know very well that I always wanted to learn to fight but you always refused to teach me."

He tried to push him away because he felt like he was about to burst into tears, and even though he knew why Nolan always stubbornly refused to let him learn to fight, he just wished that for once he understood why it was so important to him.

But Nolan didn't even move and he grabbed his chin forcing him to raise his head so that he could look him in the eye again.

But Ashton stubbornly avoided his gaze and he saw a tear silently running down his cheek, Nolan grunted in frustration and he said : "Damn Ash why are you doing this to me ?"

With his thumb he dried the tear that had rolled down his cheek and then he ordered him : "Ash look at me."

Ashton hesitated but finally looked him in the eye, he felt that Nolan was not behaving as usual with him but he didn't know why, so not knowing what to expect he waited for Nolan to continue lecturing him as he used to do, but the lecture didn't come.

Nolan just told him : "You also know why I always refused to teach you how to fight, you know very well that the organization will not hesitate to send you into the battlefield if you know how to fight."

The mere thought that his little rabbit could be sent to the border to fight against the demons frightened him more than anything, and he really didn't understand why he wanted so much to learn to fight.

So he said to him to try to reason with him again : "Ash, you are already a genius, everything you do you succeed at so you don't have to prove anything to anyone ... Why this stubbornness ?"

Ashton couldn't tell him the truth, all he wanted was to be able to fight alongside him and share his burden, and he wanted him to finally notice and see him different from the weak and useless mage he was right now.

But it wasn't just for Nolan though, he wanted to be worthy of being able to stand beside the future bearer of the Pentagram Mark, if he remained just a potions maker he would never be able to prove what he was capable of.

Nolan continued to stare at him and he saw a myriad of emotions pass through his beautiful azure blue eyes, was it because of him that he wanted to learn to fight so badly ?

Was that why his parents had asked his father if he could send him to try to reason with him and finally get him to go to the capital's Academy where he should have been from the beginning, was it because they knew he had feelings for him ?

This revelation shocked him in spite of himself and he didn't know what to do ... He had always been attracted to girls but at the same time it was the first time he had felt such intense jealousy.

He needed to go back to his room to reflect on his own feelings but the distress he saw in Ashton's eyes prevented him from doing so.

He finally took him in his arms and kissed the top of his head saying : "Do not say anything my little rabbit, I'm not sure I want to hear what you have to tell me ... Not yet at least."

Ashton froze, what did he mean by that, but again he was unable to think properly, this was the first time Nolan took him in his arms, not to mention that light kiss he felt on the top of his head, he felt his cheeks burning and he hid his head in the crock of his neck so he couldn't see him.

He finally put his arms around him to enjoy this unexpected hug and when his heartbeat had calmed down, he finally asked him knowing very well that he was probably going to break their intimacy with this question : "Why did you come Nolan ?"

He felt him stiffen immediately and he said tightening his grip around him : "Was it my parents who asked you to convince me to leave the Sun Sect to join the capital's Academy."

Nolan then said close to his ear, his feelings getting more and more confused : "If you come, we will be able to see each other every day my little rabbit."

Ashton chuckled in despair and said to him while breaking himself their embrace and while going to sit on his bed avoiding his gaze : "Thank you, but no thank you, very little for me.

If it is to spend my time to see you flirting with your conquests I would rather skip my turn, you probably won't have a second to give me anyway."

Nolan clenched his fists, he hadn't anticipated such a reaction from him, but what could he answer to that.

It was true that he spent his time to boast about his conquests but he had never imagined that his little rabbit could have developed this kind of feelings for him.

Nolan then said to him as he pulled out a medium distance Teleportation Talisman paper, feeling that if he stayed any longer he would surely do something he would regret : "I'll tell your parents that you still refuse to come."

He knew he had to go but Ashton still ignored him and he didn't feel like leaving like this, so he asked him : "Do you need money ?"

Ashton finally looked at him and smiled sadly : "I'll manage, don't forget I can sell my potions a good price here."

Nolan nodded and before he left he couldn't help but add : "None of them ever mattered Ash, my conquests, as you call them, were just there to help me decompress from the pressure my father puts on me and my brother."

Ashton opened his eyes wide in astonishment, none of them had ever mattered ... Why was he telling this to him all of a sudden, was he supposed to see any hope for him ....