In his dream, ye Yunsheng saw his parents, who said that if only he had not been a child, nothing would have happened.
His parents also asked him why he didn't go down to accompany them. They were so lonely.
As soon as the thought of continuing to live comes into being, nightmares begin to haunt us.
He knows that his parents are not like that, but he can't hear his parents forgive him. He can't hear any more. He has no parents.
So who will forgive him for killing his parents.
Who will forgive him. They knew that they would only have pity, and then they thought that it was a pity for his parents to have a son like him, who had lost his life.
Ye Yunsheng vomited a lot tonight.
Because when I took photos with Ren Jiaojiao. When he listened to the joyful music on the street with her, he was extravagant.
I hope I can live and watch the beauty of the world with her.
Sure enough Hope is to be punished.
He is a damned man. Why is he looking forward to life.
After vomiting for a long time, ye Yunsheng came out of the room. Pick up the glass and touch it. It's as cold as his body temperature.
He was like a walking corpse who was dead but still could walk.
Ye Yunsheng didn't want to drink such a cool thing. He felt that after drinking it, he would only feel more uncomfortable, the kind of suffering of endless sorrow and pain.
Staggering to open the door, ye Yunsheng plans to get some hot water.
However, as soon as I went out, I happened to see Ren Jiaojiao holding a water cup.
Four eyes opposite, ye Yunsheng face slightly changed, turned to want to go back to the room, Ren Jiaojiao surprised, quickly blocked the door and asked: "Ye Yunsheng, what's the matter with you? Are you not feeling well? "
"I'm fine!" Ye Yunsheng doesn't want to see this kind of fragile ugliness, so he shakes Ren Jiaojiao's hand with a bad attitude.
Ren Jiaojiao couldn't give it up. She threw her water cup on the ground and held his arm with her arms. "You don't look like you're OK at all. What's the matter with you? Tell me."
Ye Yunsheng clenched his teeth, and all the suppressed pain broke out: "I don't need you to manage me! What qualifications do you have to take care of me! I love even if uncomfortable, even if the body is broken, it's all my own business, you are very upset! Very annoying! Don't you know it yourself
Ren Jiaojiao's face turned white and her heart ached. Her arms trembled slightly, but she took a deep breath and endured all the pain. She refused to let go and said, "you look very bad now. At least let me know what's wrong with you, and whether you're going out just now to take medicine or something."
Ye Yunsheng broke away from her arm and stabbed her with cold eyes: "you are really great, because I am going to die. So I said you can bear it, Ren Jiaojiao, do you have no self-respect? Do you know that you are in the way, because you insist on following me. I can't even enjoy my holiday. I have to take you with me wherever I go. I don't have many days to live. Go! Don't get in my way again
Ren Jiaojiao clenched her hands hard, and her nails fell into the flesh. She took a deep breath, endured all the pain, and asked softly, "what do you want, I'll get it for you."
Ye Yunsheng looked at her and said, "I want a cup of hot water."
Ren Jiaojiao nodded: "OK, I'll pour water for you."
Ren Jiaojiao turns around and goes out to pour water. When she turns around, she wipes the tears from the corners of her eyes. Ye Yunsheng saw it.
Cone heart pain spread all over the body, ye Yunsheng gritted his teeth, ruthlessly went to the door, closed the door.
Sitting on the ground in pain, ye Yunsheng hates himself to death.
He is a shameless suicide. People who don't have the courage to live.
Ren Jiaojiao came back with hot water and saw that the door was closed. The door couldn't be opened. Ren Jiaojiao's tears fell down her eyes.
She swallowed a lump, took a deep breath and said, "I'll stay here all the time. Until you open the door. "
Ren Jiaojiao sat down and leaned against the door. Ye Yunsheng also leaned against the door.
Close your eyes, ye Yunsheng advised her: "give up on me. Scum like me, it's good to die. You've done a lot. It's a pity that no one can save me
While wiping her tears, Ren Jiaojiao said, "do you want to listen to music or not. I'll sing for you, or you want to hear a story, forget it, just sing. I'm not good at telling stories. "
Holding her legs, Ren Jiaojiao hummed an unknown folk song, soft and soft.
Ye Yunsheng's heart was pricked by the soft voice.
One hour. Two hours.
She's still singing. She's hoarse.
Ye Yunsheng has been enduring, until the third hour, her voice can hardly make a sound. Ye Yunsheng finally can't bear it. He opens the door, squats down and holds her tightly from behind.
Hot tears fell on the back of his hand. Ye Yunsheng's fingertips trembled slightly: "I've been having nightmares. I can't escape those nightmares. When I dream, I will vomit. I'm very embarrassed. I'm angry with you because I know I can't help it. Jiaojiao, why don't you let me go? If you are scolded, you have to protect yourself. Don't come up and be hurt by me. "Ren Jiaojiao wiped a tear way: "perhaps I am abused constitution.". I'll pour you a cup of hot water and cook the noodles. "
Ren Jiaojiao didn't ask about nightmares. Maybe she was in such a bad mood that she couldn't ask, or maybe it was because she respected Ye Yunsheng. Anyway, she didn't ask anything.
It's three o'clock in the morning. It was quiet all around. Ye Yunsheng drank a cup of warm hot water, which was different from other nightmares. The hot water warmed his stomach.
And even warmer. A bowl of instant noodles. There is an egg lying on it, and vegetables.
He took a bite, a little salty, but he didn't stop and continued to eat.
He had been eating up all night. The noodles were delicious, but he always felt that there was the saltiness of her tears in it.
Ren Jiaojiao sat opposite the sofa, holding her knees and staring at him.
There is no expression.
Ye Yunsheng had been eating this bowl of noodles before he said to Ren Jiaojiao, "I lied to you all the time. I said you were upset and that you had no self-respect. I'm sorry I hurt you again. "
"It's OK. I'm the one who insists on pestering you. That's the truth. " Ren Jiaojiao reluctantly smiles and gets up and says, "you can have a rest after eating. I'll go to bed, too."
Ren Jiaojiao said to go back to her room.
Ye Yunsheng sat there, rarely had a full meal, but his heart was empty.
He has a hunch that even if he is really good, Ren Jiaojiao will leave him.
In the face of such a time let her down, one day she will leave, to better people.
She deserves that, doesn't she.
Compared with him, there must be a good man in the world, waiting for such a good her.