Chapter 120 - Breaking Apart?

Breaking Apart.... are we?

'You are mine!! Mine! Have some…' It's not easy to offend me but now that she did you can imagine how much she fucked my mind up. 

[.....

Uhh 

Okay?]

'Yeh. just an 'okay' so here take mine too….'

[Okay]

[breh, I kinda guessed you'd be mad….]

[Mad? 

It hurts my feelings nothing more

See if you kept doing such things a time will come when I'll stop caring. I'll not even feel possessive anymore. I will stop caring whom you kiss sleep etc.] 

Oh yeah right. Possessiveness was the right word to use. [I would not be able to bring myself to be mad even if you cheated on me with riz.] the worst-case scenario possible yeah. 

'It's not like you can know if your partner is cheating on you in a Long distance relationship.'

[I ain't sleeping with no one wth]

[So now see the things for yourself keep doing things like these and a time will come when I'll stop caring.

Why do you want riz to stay away from the girl next door?]

[Cause I know more than anyone that things won't work out? 

Cause I care?]

'Ah, I still hate this kind of texting where you ask questions while telling questions. I hate it when you use a question mark while texting… like it's obviously still they use a question mark.'

[Your only someone to kiss after we end things is now going after someone else] I was mad for real now. 

[Uhh, okay?] 

'See. again a question mark. A normal 'okay' is fine too.' 

[I care. Only I know how horrible she might've felt when I dumped her

She knows how to laugh off anything, just as good as me in hiding feelings

If anything I should know that I need to make sure she isn't hurt any further in the future.]

'How do you know how it feels getting dumped. Yeah, the one thing I hate. Hiding feelings, laughing things off. Huh? 'Make sure she isn't hurt in the future?' where am I then? Fucked off? Just cares more for her best friend than her boyfriend.'

[Cool

Keep it up.]

[And now I feel like I shouldn't have even started this conversation.]

[Right. 

You should have never told me this.]

[Yeha

I shouldn't have] Yeah don't. Keep hiding things from me. [I'll go get some fresh air, for now, I kinda need it.

Damnit, just why does everything get messed up when it comes to her?

Tch.]

[My fault maybe. After all, I am too childish, right? I am too possessive. Got this from my mom too.]

[you just don't seem to like Riz] 

'Why would I like my girlfriend's ex who is still after her? Till now I thought It will just take time for me to adjust with her sister and Riz but… no.' 

[Nope. 

Well yeah.

Sister and Riz. hate them both.]

[Ah, my sister too, right]

[both want things between us over

How happy riz was when you said you were about to ditch me

Mom, sister, riz

Everyone 

Wants us over 

It hurts

A lot

Physically mentally emotionally

She wants things over so she can get back to you

Now that you asked her if she'd kiss you

She might be sure. That you still have feelings and wanna kiss

Just amazing.

It's sad and hurts how you still care for your ex]

'I might be texting too much...'

[so what? So I should avoid her when I am the one at fault for even starting things between us? That just makes zero sense to me]

<Injury detected. Healing activated>

Blood. There was blood dripping from my lip. I bit it way too hard, I held my tears from falling, I still feel those heavy eyes, burning sensation. 

[yeah 

Do what you want

And please don't tell me]

[Alright then

I'm still sorry though

I thought being honest was key, but turns out it's an actual problem I'll just sugarcoat my life the way you want to believe it is]

'Whoa, rude.' I wanna say but I can't. Cause that's what I really wanted. 'But be honest. Just what the hell do I want what is the thing that I want from her, from our relationship? I don't know. But everything hurts like fuck. I can't take this anymore.'

<Lower lip injury. Healing the cut.> 

My lip…. 'Huh? Tear?' it reached my eyelids. 'Pull it inside. I can't cry for this bitch anymore. Pull it up, don't let it fall.' i lifted my head and let it hang back from my neck. It dropped backward. The drop went back into my eyes. 

'I am hurting myself,' I thought, 'I can't take this anymore….'

I leaned forward. Opened the dm. Brought both hands on the keyboard, sniffed back my snot. My fingers sat on the keys firmly. 

I calmed myself first. 

'I am sure about this. I am gonna take this step.' Erin went offline. Not a single drop went down my cheeks. 

Took a deep breath and texted:

[Let's break up] 

'I will need to move on quickly. I swear I will never cry over this bitch anymore. Mom was right… ah. She texted.'

[You know this could be the end, right?]

[I can't take this burden of relationship on my shoulders anymore

I am sorry

I give up.

I am not cut off for a relationship

I am not cut off for loving someone

I can't take this burden of a relationship anymore

What do you say?

This relationship is too much for a kid like me

I don't wanna cry anymore] 

Too much text? Exaggerating? No bitch I am not. 

[yes I know. 

Sorry for wasting your time

You are a good girl

If possible I wanted you to be my wife..] Ahhhh…. I never got to tell this soI did that time. 'Ah, I never told her this.' I smiled.. [But the problems which come together…. I am not able to face them]