Chapter 126

I shook my head: "no -"

"why? Have you found a new job here? " Haizhu said.

I nodded.

"Where to work?"

"Where to Qiutong? She's the boss of a newspaper publishing company!" I said.

"To her?" Haizhu looked at me: "is she the boss? Why are you going to her? "

"Haizhu, don't ask. There are some things you can't say clearly in one or two sentences!" I'm a little impatient.

Haizhu does not speak, eyes looking at the front, seems to be thinking.

I don't know what Haizhu is thinking. I know that there must be a lot of question marks in her mind about me, Li Shun and Qiu Tong since she was asked to send a message. Haizhu no longer ask, does not mean that she does not think.

After a while, Haizhu turned to look at me: "brother --"

"in --" I said.

"Are you upset?" Haizhu said carefully.

"No!" I smile at Haizhu.

"No?"

"Of course!"

Haizhu laughed: "that's good. I'll be in a good mood if you're in a good mood!"

I also laugh: "really want to eat Korean barbecue?"

"No, I ate it yesterday. I still want to eat Japanese food! I just made a temporary excuse to leave! " Haizhu said with a smile, as if she had forgotten the unpleasant scene just now.

"Ha ha, let's change it!"

"Well! Haizhu happily agreed.

So Haizhu and I found another Japanese restaurant. After eating, I took Haizhu to watch a movie in Wanda cinema.

After watching the movie, we went back to the dormitory of Wanda Square. I arranged Haizhu as usual, and then I got ready to leave on the pretext of working night shift.

"Brother --" Haizhu stopped me.

"Zhu, what's the matter?" I look at Haizhu.

Haizhu stood in front of me, her face flushed, her chest undulating, her lips clenched, her eyes burning at me, suddenly she jumped into my arms and put her hands around my neck.

"Brother -- I won't let you go --" Haizhu murmured in my ear. Her plump chest pressed my chest tightly: "brother -- I I love you... "

Haizhu's lips rub against my ears, and the faint fragrance of her body seeps into my nostrils. Her youthful body sends me a shivering and affectionate message.

I couldn't resist Haizhu's enthusiasm, so suddenly I hugged Haizhu tightly.

Dizzy and trembling, I don't know when Haizhu and I began to kiss each other

"Brother Brother I Tonight, I I want you to accompany me... " Haizhu whispered, closed her eyes, and her face was dreamy.

Haizhu's words made me even more helpless. I suddenly filled Haizhu up and went into the bedroom

Just when I was about to take the key action, I suddenly had a dream in my mind, a flash of Qiutong

My body suddenly stiffened, the whole body of the rolling tide rapidly receded, the crazy heat immediately cooled down.

My movements stopped, my body froze there, motionless, my facial muscles twitched a few times, and my brain entered another world

Seems to be aware of my stop, Haizhu slightly opened her eyes, looking at me in a delicate and shy way.

"Brother --" Haizhu called out with soft shame.

Haizhu's cry wakes me up. I stand up and stretch out my hand to gently pull Haizhu up, tidy her messy clothes, and gently comb her hair.

Haizhu looked at me suspiciously and sat beside the bed: "brother - what's the matter with you?"

I took a deep breath and looked at Haizhu: "Zhu, I'm sorry."

Haizhu stood up, pursed her lips and looked at me: "brother, what's the matter with you? What did you say? I I volunteered I I love you From the day I saw you, I fell in love with you Tonight, I will. "

"Sorry, Zhu:" I said incoherently: "I I... "

At the moment, I felt a kind of extreme pain in my heart, and became a mess.

"Brother, you Don't you love me? " Haizhu looks at me.

"Zhu, I like you, I really like you!" I said.

"I'm talking about love, not like. Brother, don't you love a Zhu?" Haizhu murmured.

I try to calm myself down and look at Haizhu: "ah Zhu, love and like are two different concepts. It takes a process from like to love. After all, we have just known each other and we don't know each other very well."

"But I've loved you a long time ago. From brother Haifeng, I've known you a long time ago. Although I haven't seen your real person at that time, I've fallen in love with you since I met you..." Haizhu said."But I know you for a short time. I don't want to cheat you, Zhu," I said. "So far, I can tell me that I like you very much. But love really needs a process. We still need time to nurture and cultivate love. I really hope that our flesh blending is the result of natural sublimation of love, the result of deepening of soul, and there is no sex of love, It's not my pursuit. "

I don't know whether I really want to cultivate love with a Zhu or to find an excuse to delay myself and find a suitable reason for myself to get rid of the psychedelic entanglement.

On the one hand, I am infatuated with a Zhu, and want to find a real love in reality, a true love of mutual affection.

On the other hand, it can't give up the sincere emotion in the illusory world. Although it is illusory, but Qiutong is living in front of my eyes, she is the floating life that I can't wave away.

Although I know that she belongs to another man, I still can't persuade myself to accept another woman wholeheartedly, and I can't let go of the uneasy feeling in my heart.

I don't want to deceive Haizhu, I don't want to deceive myself, I struggle between reality and illusion, my heart gathered into a big knot, this knot, I seem to be unable to untie.

In addition to this big knot, there are two big knots, one is cloud, the other is Dong'Er.

Although the cloud is more family, but I actually have that kind of relationship with her, I do not know if the cloud wakes up one day, how I will face her.

Although Dong'Er is gradually fading from my heart, it can't be eliminated in a short time. After all, we had such a deep and deep love. I love her so deeply

There are all kinds of feelings in the world, only love can't be forgotten.

I believe that in the future, with the passage of time, even if I fall in love with other women, my love for Dong'Er will never be forgotten. There is no trace of years, but there is a trace of love. This is a deep imprint on my heart.

Haizhu listened to my words, and her face gradually calmed down. After a moment of silence, she nodded: "brother, what you said is reasonable. Sex without love is not true love. Although I love you very much in my heart, you still need time after all. I can't force you. You are right. Love needs a process to breed. I understand your idea. You are a real person Positive man, a responsible man, you say so today, I love you more and more

"I will give you time, I have enough patience to wait for you to fall in love with me, I have enough confidence to let you fall in love with me, not just like me."

I laughed and patted Haizhu's face: "a Zhu, men's love, some come quickly, but some come slowly. Maybe, I'm a slow type Thank you for your understanding To tell you the truth, I like you more and more. I think, when I completely overcome my heart, I will fall in love with you, and I will love you with all my heart. "

"Conquering the heart?" Haizhu looked at me: "brother, do you mean sister Donger? You still can't forget her? "

I can't answer Haizhu's question, and I can't answer it. Where does Haizhu know my complicated entanglement.

I gave a wry smile.

"Brother, don't make yourself too embarrassed. I won't increase your mental pressure. In fact, you are still thinking about Dong'Er now. I'm not angry or jealous. On the contrary, I think you are a man who attaches great importance to friendship and love. Such a man is a reliable man Time will take everything away, years will heal the wounds in your heart, and I will use my sincere love to water the dryness and withering in your heart. " Haizhu said with emotion.

I was moved and laughed at Haizhu: "Haizhu, you are very good Good

"Brother - are you really leaving tonight?" Haizhu said.

"Yes." I nodded: "I really have something to do tonight. Someone is waiting for me there. I have to go!"

"Well, OK, then you go!" Haizhu nodded and turned her eyes a few times.

"Well, go to sleep and have a good sleep! I'll bring breakfast tomorrow morning I said.

"OK, brother, you don't have to rely on my heart. I'll have a good sleep!" Haizhu said with a smile on her face.

So I left the dormitory and went directly to the hospital.

In the ward with the clouds for a night, the next day, I wake up, going out to buy breakfast for Haizhu.

Just opened the door of the ward, I Leng, Haizhu is standing at the door, carrying a bag.

"Zhu - you -" I was a little surprised, looking at Haizhu: "you - how did you come? You - how do you know I'm here? "

Haizhu looked at me calmly: "I'm sorry, I followed you last night. I watched you at the door of the ward for a long time. I saw you massage her and play music After that, I went to the doctor on duty and asked about her condition I know her name is Yunduo. She is a semi vegetable caused by a car accident Are you on duty these two nights? "

Originally Haizhu knew, this clever ghost girl.I nodded and said, "come in!"

Haizhu came in, sat down in front of the bed, looked at the sleeping clouds, and said softly, "what a lovely little girl, my God How could it be caused by a car accident? "

I said: "Haizhu, since you have seen it, I will not hide it from you any more. Do you want to hear the story between me and her?"

Haizhu nodded and looked at me: "if you are willing to say it, I am willing to listen!"

So, I started to work in the distribution company and got to know Yunduo. I started to talk about the things between Yunduo and me, including Yunduo and Zhang Xiaotian, including Yunduo's help and care for me and his pursuit of love, including my true feelings about Yunduo, including Yunduo's drinking together before I left, including Zhang Xiaotian's abandonment after Yunduo's car accident, and my love for Yunduo He went to Li Shun to treat Yunduo and told Haizhu.

When I said this, I avoided all the links related to Qiutong and did not mention Qiutong and other related matters.

Haizhu listened, staring at the clouds, fell into a long silence.