Chapter 460

"What? Master Yi I said.

"Ang Yes, Master Yi

"The master of studying Zhouyi?" I said.

"Hee hee Silly No, it's Yike I just gave him the title today, Master Yi! "

"Why do you call him master?"

"Because he is really a master, his research and practice of business management and his rich experience are really a valuable asset. The more I read his lecture materials, the more I feel that he is qualified. It's not too much to call him a master!"

"Er..." I suddenly felt a little excited and a little lost: "that He's a master. What am I

"You Ha ha Of course, you are also a master. To me, you and he are both my teachers. However, in marketing, you are my earliest teacher, which can be regarded as the first teacher He's later than you. "

"Do you admire him?"

"Worship No, I admire him very much

"Oh Do you worship me? "

"Hee hee, do you want me to worship you?"

"Hope!"

"Well Well, I'll say I adore you! I adore the guests so much... "

"You are fooling me, satisfying my poor vanity and self-esteem!" I said.

"Ah, Hakka is so clever." She sent a look of laughter.

I couldn't help laughing: "why cheat me?"

"I didn't lie to you. I really adore you However, I don't admire your marketing ability and knowledge. I also admire your ability. "

"How do you say that?"

"Because You are my faith It's the pillar and belief of my spiritual world and the object of my soul space worship. " She said.

My heart suddenly trembled, and my brain was greatly shocked. I deeply understand what she said. I have become the indelible brand of her spiritual world and the spiritual pillar she relies on to survive in the real world.

She continued: "once, when I was young, I had faith, which was the Utopia in the dream taught me in the textbook. Later, when I grew up, I disillusioned my faith and lost my faith Later, when I met you, I found my faith unconsciously. It seems that it is the home of desolate spirit, the home of lonely soul and the end of wandering soul. "

I said, "actually, I can't be your faith. I don't deserve to be your faith."

"It's not up to your imagination or my own intention." She said: "maybe if we were together in reality, I would not believe in you, but in this illusory world, I don't know how I came to this step unconsciously Maybe that's what virtual worlds are all about

"Well..." My heart is a little heavy.

In fact, unconsciously, since the beautiful and wrong encounter on the Yalu river last year, Qiutong has been deeply imprinted in my heart. After the reality has become impossible forever, Qiutong has sublimated into an indispensable belief in my spiritual world and become the highest realm in my love space.

Perhaps, faith is not to be sought, it is never to be obtained, it is not faith.

"Guest guest."

"Well, I am!"

"Do you have faith?"

"I Yes

"What do you believe in?"

"I believe in life and death love." I said, "it's just that this kind of belief can only be faith and will never be realized in reality."

She was silent.

For a long time, she said: "reality is always cruel In fact, your and my beliefs, in other words, are ideals The so-called unforgettable, the so-called life and death, like a gorgeous window paper, pierce it, just know how cruel behind the paper However, many people in the real world are often confused by this gorgeous piece of paper and enter the dream world, but when they wake up, the reality stings people's eyes deeply. "

I took a deep breath, lit a cigarette, silently looked at her words, for a long time, I said: "this topic is very heavy, change the topic."

"Well..."

"You Do you like Master Yi? " I asked her.

"Yes! I like a friend like him

"I like it, not this one."

"Who likes it?"

"That is That kind of That kind of You know

"I have answered you this question before. I like him and I like you, not the same type." She said: "Master Yi has a girlfriend. His girlfriend is my good sister. I wish them happiness from my heart. Do you think I like him? What's more, as a man, he may have affection for several women at the same time, but as a woman, he will have affection for two men at the same time? "

"Well As a man, you don't have them at the same time, do you? ""You are a man, you don't need to ask me this question..."

"Master Yi, does she mean that to you?"

"Well I don't think so. "

"What do you mean by that?"

"Now I understand that he is a man with good moral character and heavy feelings and righteousness. He has his own girlfriend now. His girlfriend loves him very much and he is also very good to his girlfriend. In this respect, he won't have that kind of meaning to me, but."

"But what?"

"But Sometimes, the way he looks at me often makes me feel a kind of panic I really don't understand what he means

"Oh What kind of eyes? "

"It's the kind of dazed, dazed and crazy eyes, sometimes with a few strands of confusion, even Even a little sour I am often confused by his eyes. I don't know what he is thinking. However, according to my understanding of other people's personality, he will never have that intention for me. In fact, he is a very loyal person to love. Although he has changed his girlfriend several times, it is out of helplessness and not his wish. "

"Oh..." My heart a burst of fierce jump and toss: "you are observing very carefully."

"Actually If it wasn't for you I won't find that either. " She said.

"What does that mean?"

"Because Because sometimes, when I see him, I can't help but see your vague shadow in my mind Sometimes, I am in a daze I always feel vaguely that you are very similar to him. Knowing that you are not alone, I can't help thinking about it. Seeing him, I think of you I'm always worried about it. I know it's wrong for me to do this. I shouldn't turn you into him... "

"Let me ask you a question!"

"Well Ask

"If I mean if. " I said, "if I were Master Yi, what would you do?"

"Ha There is no such thing as "if!"

"Isn't that an analogy? We can have a fantasy, a rebirth, if I am that Master Yi, what will happen to you and me? "

"If that's true, I might as well die!" She said, "you must be living worse than death!"

"Ah - why?" I was startled.

"Very simple, I have my reality and you have your reality. I can't disobey my conscience. I have to repay my kindness and I have to marry my benefactor's son. This is an unchangeable fact. As for you, there is a girl who loves you deeply and you love her very much. According to your character and character, you will not leave your girl either Isn't this the cruelest reality for you and me? If it doesn't ruin your and my life, even if it doesn't ruin our physical life, our spirit will collapse completely There is no spirit, only the body, that is, the walking dead

"Well..." I fell into deep confusion and loss.

"In fact, I often have a deep sense of guilt now. I have my own fiance in reality, but I fall in love with a person in the air in the illusory world. I don't abide by women's morality. Although it's the back board of my spirit, I think it's more terrible than the betrayal of my body, which makes me feel uneasy every time I think of it

"Countless sleepy nights, I constantly blame myself deeply, and even try to forget you and erase you from my memory But I can't do it, I can't do it I can't

"Hakka, I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm a bad woman. I can't be any worse In the real world, we all think that I am a good woman, a woman who is intellectually rational, knowledgeable, reasonable and self disciplined. However, who will know my other side, my dirty and evil side. "

"You - don't say it." My heart aches: "I don't allow you to abuse yourself and belittle yourself like this I tell you, no matter in the real and illusory world, you are a good woman, the kindest, gentlest and most beautiful woman in the world. You don't want to be like this. You are just forced, forced by reality. In reality, you bury everything and repay your kindness at the cost of your best youth. Your life is bitter enough

"In the illusory world, you just want to find a spiritual support, an empty comfort, a spiritual habitat It's not your fault, you have no sin, you are innocent You should be grateful for this virtual world. Without this virtual world, although your body still exists in reality, your spirit may have already died out. Now, with the support of the illusory world, your spirit is still breathing in reality, although it is not clear. "

At this point, my heart can not be their own pain, hit a key issued, and then severely smoking.

I know that if I completely disappear from the dreamlike world, I will cruelly strangle her spiritual life and completely suffocate her soul until she dies.She stopped for a moment and said, "even if Even if you are right, I still can't alleviate my guilt. Even if I ignore my reality, I have to take care of you. If we go on like this, there will be no result. I can't give you anything. I've been asking for your spiritual comfort, and you will have nothing in the end Not only have nothing, but also delay your real life This is extremely unfair to you In this afternoon, I will be sorry to all people, including you... "

"I don't care! You don't have to think about it! " I used to have a rude and angry expression: "what to give, what to take, what I'm sorry, are all bullshit, as long as you live well in this virtual world, as long as you are happy, I will be happy In the future, such words should not be mentioned or spoken again! Do you hear me

She doesn't talk.

"Do you hear me when I ask you? Answer me I have another overbearing look.

After a while, she said, "I hear you."

"Well That's good. " I said.

"You You are so fierce. "

"Am I fierce?" My heart a soft, want to cry, and want to laugh.

"Well..."

"If you don't make me angry, I won't be fierce!" Imagining Qiutong's grievance, I couldn't help laughing silently.

"You are an overbearing man!" She said.