Chapter 1144

The thought sent a shudder through my brain.

Why does wonderful sex become a procedural task and obligation? What a terrible thing it is!

My brain continues to tremble with fear

At the same time, a burst of guilt and shame for Haizhu rose in my heart. If Haizhu knew what I was thinking at the moment, how sad it would be.

I can't help blaming myself. I feel like an asshole.

I don't know how many men in this world think about other women when they do that with their own women, and use other women to complete their sexual activities with their own women. I don't know whether these men will feel guilty for their own women.

I don't know how many women in this world will hallucinate their men to other men to make themselves climax when they do that with their men. I don't know whether these women will feel guilty?

There may be many such men and women.

Haizhu came back to me and lay down in my arms, holding my already weak little brother with one hand and gently caressing him, saying: "ah, my little brother is so hard Big brother is hard

I had a silent smile in the dark.

Haizhu lay quietly in my arms and didn't speak for a long time.

I thought she was asleep.

"Brother, Kong Kun said a word to me today!" Haizhu didn't say she was asleep.

"What's that?" I said.

"I told her that I was going to marry you before the end of the year. After hearing this, she said that marriage is the grave of love! Tell me not to get married so early Haizhu said.

"Oh This is an old topic! " I said.

"But it's also a permanent topic!" Haizhu said: "brother, do you think marriage is the tomb of love? At the thought of this, although I know that we are going to get married sooner or later, how can I feel some panic in my heart? "

I thought about it and said, "Zhu, what do you mean by marriage?"

"I think marriage is a kind of social system, which is a norm for the individualization of sexual behavior, so that people can fulfill their corresponding social responsibilities after they get married," Haizhu said. As far as the marriage system itself is concerned, it is more social and legal needs than personal emotional needs.

"It can even be said that it is a kind of oppression on both sides of the marriage. Of course, this is a kind of reasonable oppression. Its function is to stabilize social relations and protect the interests of our next generation, which is conducive to the reproduction and development of mankind as a whole. "

"So, what do you think is love?" I asked Haizhu again.

"Love?" "In short, love is a subjective emotional experience based on human sexual instinct," Haizhu said

"Well The answer is basically correct! " I said, "have you seen that Korean drama" my name is Jin Sanshun "

"Yes Haizhu said.

"There is a line about love in it. Do you remember it?" I said.

"That part?" Haizhu said.

I said, "the first time a man and a woman crave each other, the sex hormones release testosterone and estrogen. This desire continues, and when you fall in love, you secrete dopamine and serotonin. They are the most important material in love, which can make people in a state of near madness for a while. In the next stage, men and women will continue their relationship and hope to get closer union, and then they will develop into sex or marriage. "

"Oh Remember Haizhu said.

I said, "this passage in the play is very scientific. Love is actually a chemical reaction in the human body. What's particularly interesting is that its chemical composition is almost the same as when people are crazy. "

"Ha ha..." Haizhu chuckles and starts to caress me.

I went on: "of course, people can't be in a crazy state all the time. The self-regulation function of the human body is always trying to adjust people back to a normal state. Generally speaking, an emotional process like love lasts for one and a half to two years. After that, with the decrease and disappearance of hormones, Jiqing will return to calm, or, as people usually say, lose the feeling of love. "

"Oh..." Haizhu answered.

"Obviously, love is destined to be a short process. After that, we mainly rely on family affection and responsibility to maintain our family. Family love is a kind of emotion. The difference between emotion and love or emotion lies in its greater stability and persistence. It is formed on the basis of love, and then gradually develops and stabilizes in daily family life. " I said.

"Well..." The palm of Haizhu rubs my hand gently.

"So marriage can be said to be the grave of love, but it is not the killer of love. Love is an emotional process that depends on the strangeness and freshness of two people. Its nature determines that it can not be too long. And instead of love, family love, although it can no longer burst out as dazzling sparks as love, has the most stable heat, which is warm and comfortable, and the most profound. " I'll go on.With these words, I have a feeling in my heart. It seems that I haven't been married yet. My affection for her is greater than love.

This feeling makes my heart tremble.

Haizhu said, "I understand What you said is very reasonable. It seems that I shouldn't think that marriage is the tomb of love. I shouldn't panic about this In fact, I long for the family affection derived from that kind of love. "

I was a little confused and didn't speak.

Haizhu stroked the hand under me and slowly stopped. She began to breathe evenly. She fell asleep.

Holding Haizhu's warm and delicate body, I have no sleepiness. I look at the darkness with big eyes, as if I want to see through the endless night

Suddenly, I think of Qiu Tong again. I feel a pain like a needle in my heart. The pain seems to pierce my heart

At noon the next day, I received a text message from my fourth brother: last night, Cao Li and Cao Teng went to the crown hotel for dinner.

I replied to my fourth brother, "who's treating?"

Four elder brothers reply: "don't know!"

Crown Hotel is wood's home. Cao Li and Cao Teng went there together. What do you mean?

When Huang Zhe and I called last night, we were waiting for Xiao Qinru in Haizhu company. If wood invited Cao Li and Cao Teng to dinner, he would not be able to attend. Besides, Dong Er might not attend. Wood did not necessarily inform Dong Er to accompany her. After all, Dong er's position in wood is far less than that in Bai Laosan.

Before that, there had never been any contact between Cao Teng and wood, including his people. Cao Li and wood have known each other for a long time. Well, will wood be the guest? If so, what is wood's purpose?

I was lost in thought.

The fourth brother then sent a message: "I'm eating in a hotel with Mr. Qiu now. Before the meal, I'm walking around. I accidentally see Dong'Er and Kong Kun. They are coming out of a luxury shopping store with big and small bags in their hands. They are talking and laughing."

My heart is beating again. When Kong Kun and Dong Er are together, how do they know each other? How did they get together?

After receiving these two messages from my fourth brother, my brain can't help being a little confused.

I pondered for a long time, took out the battery from my mobile phone, and then got up and went to Cao Teng's office.

"Mr. Cao, are you busy?" I asked Cao Teng.

Cao Teng said with a smile, "I've just finished my work. I'm planning to go out for dinner. How about you? Are you finished? "

I nodded: "I'm going out for dinner, too. If you see your office is open, please come and have a look."

Cao Teng said, "why don't we have lunch together? It's my treat."

I ha ha a smile: "good, let Cao Zong spend!"

"What's the cost of a lunch? Mr. Yi is so polite!" Cao Teng smiles.

Cao Teng and I went to a fast food restaurant near our company and asked for two meals, chatting while eating.

After a while, I said, "by the way, I just thought of something to say to the cloud I'll make a call! "

Said, I felt out the mobile phone: "Damn, no electricity again!"

Cao Teng then took out his mobile phone and handed it to me: "use mine."

"Good!" I took the phone.

Cao Teng then looked at me: "I'm almost finished. I'll go and ask for some more dishes!"

Cao Teng then got up and left.

I then opened Cao Teng's mobile phone address book, flipped quickly, and didn't see wood's name. Cao Teng's address book is full of Chinese names, with only one letter: JJ.

This JJ caught my attention.

Shit, what's JJ, chicken? penis?

I opened the name of the detailed list, the number is very strange, I quickly wrote down the number.

Then he dialed the number of xiayun with his mobile phone, and quickly pressed it to death without waiting for the ring. Then he put his mobile phone in his ear and pretended for a while, and then put it back to Cao Teng.

After a while, Cao Teng came back. He put away his mobile phone and said, "finished?"

"Well..." I nodded.

"I want two more dishes!" Cao Teng said.

"Good!" I nodded, and at the same time, I silently read the number of JJ.

We went on eating.

"By the way, Mr. Yi, let me report something to you!" Cao Teng said.

"What's the matter?" I said.

"My cousin and I went to the crown hotel for dinner last night. My cousin introduced me to a big client." Cao Teng said.

"Oh, good!" I laughed: "what kind of big customers?"

"A boss of a home appliance store, who has just entered Xinghai If I want to put advertisements in the media of our group, I have an idea. I copied your previous way of doing Hongying household appliances. I convinced the boss to use the advertising expenses of the household appliance manufacturers to order our newspaper, and we will give them advertising rewards The boss was very interested and said that he would go back and think about it carefully and calculate the benefits. The possibility of success is very high. " What Cao Teng said is well-organized. It seems that he doesn't worry that I will go to Cao Li to verify the truth of the matter. It seems that he and Cao Li have been angry for a long time."Oh, good!" I laughed: "you are very good at learning from it!"

"Ha ha, I must learn from your successful experience, but I have been learning from you all the time! What's the matter? If you succeed, you won't ask me for the patent right? " Cao Teng said half jokingly.

"How can I say that?" I said, "I'll reward you for your success! Of course, you can also buy me a drink with your commission! "

"Ha ha It's necessary to treat you to a drink, but I can't get the Commission on the subscription! " Cao Teng said.

"What's the matter?" I said.

"How can I say that I am also a leader of the company? I want to have a high attitude. Leaders are responsible for ordering newspapers, but they can't get a commission. Didn't Qiu always do that before? I want to take president Qiu as an example and set a good example for everyone Cao Teng said.

Cao Teng's words seem to show his high style, and also seem to satirize me for taking the Commission of subscription newspaper.