Chapter 1270

A long suppressed tremor from the depths of my heart surged in my mind, as if I was not kissing her lips, but kissing her miserable and thirsty soul.

Qiu Tong's body vibrated violently, but she still passively accepted everything I imposed on her, as if she did not dare to take the initiative, afraid of taking the initiative.

Qiutong closed her eyes tightly, her long eyelashes trembled slightly, and her face was a bit red and shy.

In this blush and shame, there is a kind of pain.

Suddenly, I saw autumn Tong's eyes shed tears.

My heart throbbed. It was like acupuncture. My eyes were a little damp.

Kiss dry her tears, and her tears, pull her body over, hold her body tightly.

My eyes are getting wet

I held her body, her hands hanging there, but she didn't hold me.

She seems to still dare not have any initiative, but seems to be unable to refuse my comfort and comfort.

Hold her so tightly, face to face, heart to heart, even, I can feel her heartbeat.

Silent silent, I use my heart to feel her, she is also feeling my heart.

The embrace at this time is pure, because I don't have any physical impulse, only the sublimated soul is trying to blend with her

I began to kiss her again. She seemed to wake up suddenly, and suddenly pushed me away, with painful and confused panic and uneasiness on her face and indescribable fear in her eyes.

I looked at her, she looked at me, the fear of eyes full of incomparable purity.

"I'm sorry." She wriggled her lips.

I bowed my head and suddenly felt ashamed.

"I understand I understand But I can't... " She continued softly.

I bowed my head and kept silent.

"I know your heart I know my heart, too She said quietly: "face the reality Reality is irresistible Actually, I'm very grateful to you. I really appreciate it. "

I looked up at Qiutong, her face gradually calmed down, gently pursed her lips.

I stretched out my hand, gently stroked her hair that I had just messed up, breathed heavily, clenched my lips and looked at her.

She obediently let me comb her hair with my fingers, and lowered her head slightly.

My hand ran down her hair to her cheek, gently stroked her face, gently picked up her face, lifted her chin, then bowed down and gently kissed her

Qiutong closed his eyes.

"Tong..." My voice trembled.

Qiu Tong opened her eyes and looked at me, with a kind of deep feeling and helplessness in her eyes, as well as powerlessness

I put my hands on her shoulders and gently pressed: "you are mine."

"My heart is yours It will only be yours It no longer belongs to anyone. " She said.

She seemed to comfort me.

"My heart." My lips are shaking.

"Your heart can't be mine Your heart can only belong to Haizhu. " She interrupted me, though intermittently, with a hint of determination.

She looked at me stubbornly and tried to show a smile: "promise me to live a good life, try to live a good life, and treat those who love you well Don't let her down. "

I reluctantly also smile, smile a little sad and miserable.

Qiu Tong's eyes hurt a little and said, "Yeke, we are not destined to be together. It's fate In the next life, I I promise you... "

"The next life Will there be an afterlife? " I murmured, feeling a great loss and melancholy.

"If you will, there will be." Qiu Tong nodded affirmatively: "afterlife, in heaven, in the dream heaven In the paradise that we once looked forward to As long as you have a heart, there will be an afterlife. "

Qiutong's eyes showed the light of happiness and hope.

My heart is a pain again, pressed her shoulder tightly.

"Afterlife, I'll wait for you in heaven In this life, we can only be strangers Qiu Tong turned around slightly and didn't let me see her eyes.

My heart was so painful that I couldn't help myself. I suddenly held her in my arms and held her tightly

She didn't resist and let me hold her tightly

Her body began to shake again

For a long time, she came out of my arms, took a deep breath, looked up at me and said softly, "we all need to be strong No matter what hardships and hardships we face Promise me, be strong! "

Looking at her clear eyes, I couldn't help nodding.

Qiu Tong smiles: "in fact, you are stronger than me You are a man, an indomitable man

I said: "I'm not as strong as you think. Your heart is much stronger than me. I'm not as strong as you think."Qiu Tong said: "even if it is true, one day, your heart will be stronger than mine It will

I looked at Qiutong and laughed, but I wanted to shed tears.

Qiu Tong said: "to live every day with a smile, we should learn to be content. We often envy others for their kindness, but we are worried about our own lack. In fact, no one's life is complete.

"Think about it carefully. Don't cherish what you have, but what you don't have. And the missing part, though not lovely, is also a part of your life. If you accept it and treat it well, life will be happy and open-minded. "

I nodded in silence.

Qiu Tong said: "I remember I told you that when I was annoyed, no one asked me, I learned to bear; when I cried, no one coaxed me, I learned to be strong; when I was afraid, no one accompanied me, I learned to be brave; when I was tired, no one could rely on me, I learned to be independent.

"In this way, I found myself. What's valuable is that there is only one me in the world! Gradually, I am mature, and only when I have pressure can I have motivation. Because there are no more disappointments, so now the disappointments are also happy. "

"Unhappiness is also happiness." I murmured and repeated.

"Yes In the face of reality, we should learn to be content with ourselves. " Qiu Tong said.

"Reality is always cruel and grim." I looked at Qiu Tong: "for example, now, for example, at this time, although you are included in the deputy county investigation candidates, the only candidate, but I always feel that it will not be so smooth."

"Yes, many things in the world are not plain sailing. Just look at them correctly." Qiu Tong said.

"But I don't want you to suffer any injustice and tribulation in this respect." I said.

"I understand your mood and your thoughts," Qiu Tong said. "In fact, maybe things may not be like what we imagined. Maybe everything will go well."

Qiutong seemed to comfort me and herself.

I said, "I hope so, too. I hope you can succeed. You have to succeed!"

"Fool, you have to succeed. It's very satisfying. Just let it be Of course, we must insist on what we should insist on. " Qiu Tong said: "in fact, no matter how turbid the water is, as long as it has experienced long-term precipitation, it will still be very clear. No matter how stupid a person is, as long as he makes enough efforts, he can rewrite the direction of his fate.

"Don't complain that the reality is cruel, we can't choose objectivity; don't resent that the reality is dark. After all, the reality is reality and unpredictable, which is not what we can control. Don't complain that the starting point is too low, which is just the origin of our standing. Life is a long confrontation, some people laugh at the beginning, some people win in the end. Fate will not favor who depends on how long you can chase and persist. We encourage each other. "

I took a breath and nodded, "well We encourage each other. "

Qiu Tong also said: "in this life, opportunities are difficult to share, and the causes are different. Whether it is smooth sailing, ups and downs, or plain and ordinary, it is one's own destiny. Those who pass by, encounter, meet, leave, are the only. No matter what situation you are in, don't complain about the world, don't give up the bottom line, don't hate others. If you are not greedy, you will have less desire; if you are not angry, your heart will be easy; if you are not seeking, you will always be satisfied. If you meet them, please cherish them; if you don't pass them, please cherish them. "

I stared at Qiutong, speechless for a moment.

Qiu Tong looked at me: "smile, I see --"

I grinned.

Qiu Tong frowned: "not good-looking, like crying!"

So I tried to smile.

"Ha ha Make do with it Barely qualified. " Qiu Tong laughed and then said, "I want to tell you that at any time, no matter what happens, we should keep an ordinary heart It's hard to be normal in life. Let nature take its course, we can get inner tranquility, and we can get a happy life only if we have less desire.

"Be indifferent and open-minded. Less material desire, more pure heart; less possession, more merit. Have a common heart, treat everything in the world flatly, be open-minded about the gains and losses of life, let go of the hand of desire, and let happiness come easily. "

I kept trying to make myself smile and say, "well, I understand."

"Do you feel tired of living?" Qiu Tong asked me again.

I nodded: "now I seem exhausted!"

Qiutong said: "when you feel tired, maybe you are on the way up in your life. Keep going, and you will find that you have reached another height in your life. "

I looked at Qiutong: "are you comforting me?"

Qiu Tong said: "not to comfort you, but to tell you a fact Really, we all know that there is no life that is not tired. We should believe that life is very tired. If you are not tired now, you will be more tired in the future. Life is very bitter. If you are not bitter now, it will be even more bitter in the future.

"All things live and conquer each other, no lower is no higher, no lower is no higher, no bitter is no sweet. Only when you are tired can you have leisure; only when you are bitter can you know sweetness. When you are young, go out boldly, meet the baptism of wind, frost, rain and snow, and cultivate a patient, open-minded and wise heart, happiness will come. "Looking at Qiutong's optimistic and calm look, I remember floating life like a dream. I said: on the way of life, some are unavoidable, such as fate; some are unchangeable, such as love; some are indelible, such as memory; some are difficult to shelve, such as love It's better to face it bravely than to bear it passively; it's better to fight against the wind and rain than to live under the eaves; it's better to break out in the struggle than to be lonely in silence The more difficult the road is, the greater the obstacles are, and the more dangerous it is. As long as you go through it and have a big heart, life will be more wonderful.

Yes, it's true. When the heart is small, the small things will be big; when the heart is big, the big things will be small; when the heart is big, the big things will be small; when you look down on the vicissitudes of the world, your heart will be safe. We should have a big heart to accommodate the things in the world; we should have a empty heart to love the goodness in the world; we should have a calm heart to discuss the things in the world; we should have a firm heart to deal with the changes in the world. Great things are difficult to bear, adversity is good to see the mind, there are willing to see wisdom, success or failure depends on persistence.

My restless and melancholy heart gradually subsided