Chapter 1367

Lao Qin left the camp first and didn't know where to go.

Li Shun and I stayed in the headquarters for tea all the time. Li Shun said that we would wait until dark before starting.

Li Shun seems to have a lot on his mind. He just drinks tea, and then smokes one by one. His eyes are a little dull and he looks very cold

I don't know what commander Li is thinking at the moment.

"To live is to choose!" Li Shun murmured to himself.

I looked at Li Shun and thought about this.

Li Shun looked at me: "what do you think?"

"What do you think?" I said.

"When people live, they have to choose a life, don't you think?" Li Shun said.

I thought, "maybe."

"However, once you are in the river and lake, you have no choice. Many times, you have no choice!" Li Shun said.

I was silent.

Li Shun said with a silent smile: "we often say that people can't help themselves in the world. Yes, today's society is a big river and lake. It may not be difficult to have a bowl of rice in the river and lake, but it's not a simple thing to be famous. The society is too complex, the pressure of life, work, emotion, all kinds of pressure will make people suffocate

"However, in the face of reality, people can't help themselves. This is the most painful time. At this time, you can't get what you want, or even feel extremely empty, nothing to fill

I can't help but agree with Li Shun's words from my heart. Yes, everyone has his most depressed and painful time. Maybe this man is a hero in the spotlight, maybe he is a well-known celebrity, maybe he is not angry but powerful, and he is brilliant, maybe every time you see him, he is so strong and full of vitality, as if nothing can destroy him.

But there will always be a time when he is depressed, painful, struggling and depressed, because he is also a mortal. Those are just hidden, so you can't see how he suffered, how he suffered, and how he overcame the pain. Everyone has a low period of life, a low period of mood, and a bad time. It's just that some people stick to it, some people degenerate.

I understand that everyone will experience incomparable inner contradictions, struggles, fears and bewilderment. When a person struggles, no one can rely on, incomparably lonely and lonely, want to cry but can't cry out. Because crying is useless, tears are the most merciless.

But some people always hold faith when they are extremely depressed. Strong and fragile are two sides of a person. Do I also have such a time when I feel endless emptiness and loneliness, no sense of existence at all, and can't feel that I am alive? Is there a time like this for Li Shun?

Perhaps, because of this, there are many people to find stimulation, do stimulating things, so that he can feel alive. Is that what Li Shun is like? Will I do the same? In fact, people are just like this. When they are depressed, they are eager to find a way out. Some people spend money to get drunk, some people keep smoking, and all kinds of ways to release themselves

At this time, I can't help thinking of a sentence that Qiutong said to me: life is not a game that you love me.

Yes, life can't go on as long as you like. The sea is vast and magnificent, but when can't stop more frustration and loss. In the dead of night, I can't say I'm lonely. Do I often experience this kind of mood? At this time, have I ever thought about whether I am too fragile?

I understand why I am like this, because I have not got what I want. I am already tired and anxious, but it seems that I can't get rid of it, struggling and contradicting in my heart

I don't want to doubt these, I know that as long as it is a person, it will always have to experience these. Life is like this, it always makes people know what is bitter, and then let me understand what is sweet?

I know that some people are not satisfied. He sees that some people are born to be noble, some are born to be distinguished, some are born to be poor, and some are born to be infamous! Some people are born sweet, some people are born bitter!

Unfair? Yes, unfairness is right. There has never been real fairness in this world.

However, those born sweet may not be the sweetest; those born bitter may not be the bitterest. It's just the relativity of condition and mood.

So, I think, life is not satisfactory, but perhaps life should be good after all.

Of course, at present, I can't see where my beauty lies. Maybe Li Shun may not be able to see it either.

I thought so perplexedly, and felt great bitterness and loneliness in my heart.

Yes, I'm lonely.

In this lonely time, sitting beside commander Li, I suddenly miss Qiu Tong and everything about her

The more I miss you, the more lonely I feel.

Loneliness is always with me.

Some people say that loneliness is the distress of the soul, which makes the soul wander everywhere.

I know in my heart that loneliness is not innate, just as our life is becoming more and more modern, the city we live in is becoming more and more prosperous, but the time and space that really belong to us are becoming less and less. But the only one is always lonely. For various reasons, loneliness is always with us.I am always afraid of loneliness in my life. No matter how many people there are, whether it is busy or lonely, loneliness always attacks my nerves inadvertently. Let me alone, let me lonely, let me afraid, let me miss, let me desire, let me lust Yes, I admit, I long for warmth, care, happiness, excitement, prosperity, mutual affection, lovers and marriage

However, the reality is so cold, so cruel, so harsh, but I just can't get rid of the lonely follow, just like the usual social intercourse with many friends drinking and chatting, talking and laughing, lively, but still feel very lonely, very empty. Because loneliness is beating my heart again, there is no reason, loneliness is like a shadow with me.

It seems that with the same idea as me, Li Shun suddenly sighed: "in fact, Yike, you know, I'm very lonely."

My heart moved and I looked at Li Shun.

Li Shunnan said: "loneliness is such an invisible thing. It can't go away and won't come. However, it comes quietly when you have no thought to block it. It invades your body and mind. It can't be avoided. When it comes, it often occupies your heart and must be dealt with wholeheartedly

"Loneliness is a kind of poison, a kind of poison that has no medicine to cure. I wake up in the middle of the night and suddenly want to cry. I turn over. It turns out that the bed is so big. I curl up in a corner of the bed and dare not breathe. I feel that I am separated from the whole world in the dark night

"Loneliness is a kind of spiritual loneliness, a journey without company, a night sky without stars, and a time of leisure and depression. It makes empty people lonely, shallow people impetuous, wise people meditate, and madmen like me crazy."

My heart trembles slightly, yes, loneliness is soft, like warm water, like breeze, more like bacteria in the air everywhere, carelessly erode your body, when you sigh from the bottom of your heart, you realize that loneliness has occupied your heart irreversibly.

Li Shun suddenly laughed again, a little sad, and said, "I've been used to loneliness for so many years Sometimes, I feel that loneliness is a kind of beauty and a kind of rare enjoyment, although this enjoyment makes me feel painful and even crazy from time to time. "

I look at Li Shun.

Li Shun continued to say to himself: "because when I am lonely, I can calm down and think well. In order to self analyze their own deep thoughts. Perhaps at this time, people's eyes will become broader and their thoughts will become deeper. Therefore, they often expect the loneliness to be longer and longer. "

Li Shun's words made my heart move again, because I suddenly felt that it seemed familiar. It seemed that Qiu Tong and I had said similar words.

Yes, Qiutong said that. She once said to me: loneliness is beautiful. Loneliness makes people deep, and loneliness makes people think more deeply As time goes by, loneliness becomes indifferent and indifferent, and there is no loss and fear at the beginning. Use lonely time to amuse your books, your songs and your youth. These are not necessarily a waste, but a rare experience.

In fact, it gives me a lot of space to see the quiet color of the world and listen to the quiet whispers of all things. It is not clutter, but brilliance, not boredom, but refinement of taste. I can use a sad tone, write down the most real bit by bit, fill the lonely space, let it no longer lonely

Thinking of Qiutong, my heart can't help but rise and fall. Maybe, the real life won't make me so lonely for a long time, because I always have to face this colorful world, face all kinds of people, for family, for fame and wealth, I constantly socialize in the ugly world, and constantly play all kinds of roles, whenever in the dead of night, in that world Belong to my own small space, not prevent quiet down to enjoy the beauty of loneliness.

At this time, I feel lonely. In fact, it is more like the most beautiful flower in the heart, rooted in the lonely soil, self growing and self beautiful. In the wasted time alone, quietly blooming in nature between heaven and earth, lonely, proud!

In this life, who has not been lonely? Who hasn't been lonely? Who hasn't had the hidden vulnerability? Who knows the pain behind loneliness? Who knows the loneliness behind natural and unrestrained?

I also think of the words floating like a dream: don't say you are not afraid of loneliness, don't say you are not afraid of loneliness, don't say you are not afraid of indifference between people. Because no one in the world is not lonely, no one is not lonely. Everyone in this world of mortals, are experiencing different loneliness and loneliness, staged a different life drama.

I can't help but fall into deep meditation, can't help but start to miss Qiutong, who is thousands of miles away