Chapter 1749

"I obviously won't say Haizhu." Donger said.

My heart beats. What does Dong'Er mean by this? It's not Haizhu. Who does she want to say?

"If it was Qiu Tong who held you like this, would you still be so nervous and afraid?" Dong'Er said it directly.

When she mentioned Qiutong, my body couldn't help trembling.

"Your body is shaking Why do you tremble? " Donger said.

I felt for Dong'Er's hand at my waist, gently took it away, and then turned to look at her.

I try to make my eyes calm.

Dong'Er looks at me brightly and directly.

"You Why did you say that? Why did you mention her? " I heard myself hoarse.

Dong'Er said faintly, "no, I'm willing."

I look into Dong'Er's eyes. It seems that she has already noticed something about Qiu Tong and me. It seems that she has unconsciously listed Qiu Tong as her potential opponent. It seems that in her heart, she is quietly sprouting her vigilance and hostility towards Qiu Tong.

I sighed, looked at the head of the bed and began to change the subject: "you've been living here these days."

"Yes, I've been living alone in your bed these days, sleeping on the pillows you've slept on, breathing the breath you left behind, feeling the afterglow of your disappearance, feeling all the smells you have in this room." Donger said.

I said, "then you stay here. I'll go to the guest room."

Dong'Er said, "I occupied your room. Why did you leave?"

I said, "you are the guest. Since you like living here, I'll let you know."

Dong'Er said, "why Can't you live here together? "

I looked at Dong'Er: "why do you say that?"

Dong'Er said: "I know it may not be appropriate for me to say this on such an occasion and in such a situation Maybe I'm talking about the future. In the future, we will live here together Crowded in this single bed, although crowded, but it will be very warm

I said, "why do you want to talk about the future now? Later No one knows what will happen. In the future, it will always be an unknown number. "

I don't want to hit Dong'Er directly and save her some face.

Dong'Er said: "yes, no one knows what will happen in the future, and it will always be an unknown number. Because of this, I have expectations and hopes, visions and plans for the future I believe that my future, our future, will be very good. "

I have nothing to say.

"What? Don't you have confidence? You're pessimistic about reality, aren't you? " Donger said.

I lit a cigarette and took two silent puffs.

"If you are pessimistic about the present reality, that's right. At present, your reality is indeed pessimistic, but at the same time, on the other hand, you have a reality that will be very optimistic. While that reality is pessimistic, your other reality is becoming more and more optimistic That's the reality of me and you. " Donger said.

I'm a little upset.

"Do you think that's why I came to your house to serve your mother?" Donger asked me.

I looked at Dong'Er: "I don't want to think that But - "

" you don't want to think so, but the reality makes you have to think so, doesn't it? " Dong'Er interrupted me with a smile: "don't hide your words, don't beat around the Bush, don't escape. If you don't want to say it directly, I'll tell you that I came to your home with such a purpose. Of course, it's not the whole purpose. Compared with taking care of your mother, it can be said that it's half to half

"You don't have to thank me, you can say I'm mean, you can say I'm scheming, you can say I'm dirty, you can despise me and spit on me, but I don't care. I'm just doing what I think I should do. Taking care of your mother is what I should do. Even if I don't have a reputation, I should do it. Even if we are ordinary friends, I should do it What to do

"It's also what I should do to make our reality more and more optimistic. In our relationship, you can not take any initiative, but I can't. I have to seize every opportunity available to push our reality forward

"I believe that in a word, I try my best in everything. Success or failure doesn't have to depend on me. I've done it, paid it and worked hard. Even if I fail, I won't leave any regrets. Besides, I never believe that I will fail."

Donger's words make me laugh and cry.

"Do you know how much courage and mental pressure I need to bear when I do this step?" Dong'Er said. "I have to put down my face and put down my airs. I have to persuade myself not to pay attention to other people's words. In other words, I have to make my face thicker. Even though your parents don't say it orally, they are in my heart Maybe you will look at me like this, and think that my face is thick enough. When I break up, I come to your house and take the initiative to send it to the door

"Do I really have no sense of shame, no dignity, no self-knowledge? Is it hard for me to be so mean, so mean, so ungrateful? Obviously not. I'm willing to do this for us, for the love I'm not willing to lose, for the love we're looking for, for these, I'm willing to pay more, I'm willing to pay everything I firmly believe that the light must be ahead. "I said, "in fact, you don't have to do this. You don't have to hurt yourself."

"I'm willing, I'm willing, I'm willing, you don't have to worry about it." Dong'Er said: "no one forces me to do this. If I have to, it's me. I have to force myself to do this. I have to I actually know that under the current situation, in your home, you will not live with me, and I do not expect you to live with me.

"So, tonight, including tomorrow night, I will not force you. Since you are willing to sleep in the guest room, I will help you. I still like to live in your bed, cover your quilt, smell your smell and sleep in your breath. That will make me sleep more soundly."

"Well, you can rest here." I nodded, ready to go out.

"Stop," Dong'Er said.

"What else?" I said.

"Who called you during the day?" Donger said.

"Does this have anything to do with you?" I said.

"You can't tell me, but I don't believe it's Haizhu If I'm not wrong, I think it's Qiu Tong Dong Er looks at me with sly eyes.

Dong'Er is more and more intelligent. I can't help being afraid and empty in my heart. I said, "Why are you interested in these things? Do these have anything to do with you?"

Dong'Er said, "everything I care about is related to me."

"You care too much. It's unnecessary. Have a rest early. Good night." Finish saying, I no longer look at Dong Er, hurried out of the room, went directly to the guest room next door.

Lying on the bed in the guest room, I couldn't hear anything from Dong Er next door. I fell asleep unconsciously.

In my sleep, I saw Qin Lu again. Qin Lu still looked like her hair covered half of her face when she broke up with me that day. The difference is that this time her eyes are emitting green and faint light. It seems that her image is a little terrifying.

Qin Lu and I started a conversation.

"Qin Lu, do you know who killed you?" I said.

Qin Lu said in a quiet voice: "I know, it's a masked killer, a masked killer falling from the sky He grabbed me out of bed and pushed me out of the window

"Do you know who the masked killer is? Or do you know who ordered the masked killer? " I continued to ask her.

"I don't know." Qin Lu replied.

"Can you make a rough guess?" I said.

"Yes." Qin Lu said.

"Who is it?" I said.

"It's them." Qin Lu said.

"Which one of them?" I said.

"I don't know." Qin Lu said: "Yi Ke, if you find out the murderer, will you avenge me?"

I nodded: "yes, I will."

Qin Lu said: "I'm not a good woman. I deserve to die. You didn't agree with my choice and life style at the beginning. Then why do you want to avenge me?"

I said, "because we are friends, because you don't deserve to die even if you make mistakes in your life choices."

"Is that all you have to do for me?" Qin Lu said.

"Basically..." I said.

"Do you think you can avenge me?" Qin Lu said.

I said: "as long as I find the evidence, as long as I find out the whole story, I think I should have the ability to avenge you."

"Can you find solid evidence? Can you find out the whole story? " Qin Lu said.

I said, "sooner or later, surely."

Qin Lu said, "how do you deal with people you think are suspects before you find conclusive evidence?"

I said, "deal with a mask, disguise all or part of your real self, disguise what you need to cover up."

Qin Lu said: "you should not only disguise what you need to cover up, but also pretend that you don't know anything about it. You should let the other party have no doubt about you, and even let the other party believe you deeply. Only in this way can you really get what you want and achieve your real goal, and only in this way can you become a real person It's the right person to survive in officialdom. "

"I remember what you said!" I said.

"Well Unfortunately, I love officialdom so much, I want to realize my ideal so much, but now, I can only watch you struggle in another world I'm not reconciled I'm not reconciled. " Qin Lu sighed, her figure was floating, and disappeared for a while.

I opened my eyes and it was dark.

Leaning on the head of the bed, I light a cigarette and slowly inhale it. In the quiet night, I look at the starry night sky outside the window and ponder over the conversation with Qin Lu in my dream

The road of life is long, life is so valuable, some people complain that their road of life is too long, some people hate their road is too short. People who complain that the road of life is too long are suffering from too much hardship and bitterness. People who hate that the road of life is too short are not enjoying enough prosperity.In fact, I know that no matter how long the road is, it can be finished step by step; no matter how short the road is, it can't be reached without feet. Don't let too much yesterday occupy today. Walking through other people's feet, ignoring their own. Only those who have experienced the hardships of life can understand the value of life.