Chapter 375

However, Kong Shengyan is not idol, but an actor. "We're married" is just the beginning. As an actor, kissing and passion are inevitable in the future, unless she gives up her career as an actor.

He got up and sat next to her. Li Xianzhe hugged Kong Shengyan in his arms and comforted him softly.

"Don't tell me I'm sorry. Sometimes love still has to give in to our dreams. For the sake of our understanding for so many years, if you go to pledis, we don't need to go again in the future.

Don't waste our last friendship on this company, because I will bring him down sooner or later. I want to get back what Han Chengzhu stole from us bit by bit. "

He silently said sorry to Zhou Jieqiong in his heart, but Li Xianzhe thought that cultivating Zhou Jieqiong around him would always be better than pledis. Han Chengzhu couldn't hire people. Pledis really had a lot of people waiting for the expiration of the contract, but they had to leave. They were delayed for several years.

After seeing Kong Shengyan off, Li Xianzhe leaned in the elevator alone, staring at the slowly changing number, as if he would reach a new floor every second, from the seventh floor, the sixth floor to the first floor, and then from the first floor to the seventh floor, and then to the top floor.

"Jingling bell ~ ~ jingling bell ~ ~"

Compared with others who will use some songs as ringtones, Li Xianzhe is very monotonous here, even dirt.

When I got back to my senses, I took out my cell phone and saw that it was Kong Shengyan's phone. It was only two minutes before I sent her to the car through the back door. "What's the matter ~ ~"

Sobbing and the sound of the car engine, Kong Shengyan wiped her tears and waited for several seconds before she had the strength to speak, "I'm afraid now ~ ~"

Rubbing the center of his eyebrows, Li Xianzhe immediately felt a burst of irritability, not for each other, but what he said before: "go back to sleep and don't think about anything, at least not now."

"Sometimes I really don't know what I'm doing. I feel very lonely. After I really become an artist, I only have endless notices every day. The agent urges me coldly. You're not with me, and Dingyan is not with me."

"Are you all right..." Li Xianzhe glanced at the time and quickly tapped the number button on the elevator. He just thought that the other party left by car and stopped again.

"Sometimes I feel like I open my mouth and people all over the world are watching my jokes.

I can't figure out many things. I can't figure out why I called you two years ago.

I can't figure out why I broke up with you to continue my artist dream.

I can't figure out why I didn't call you after breaking up with you, which hurt you so much.

I can't figure out why I took the variety show we're married. I can't figure out why Dingyan advised me to get back together with you. I've been hesitating so much that now you're not mine. "

There are too many things I can't figure out. Li Xianzhe holds his mobile phone and doesn't say a word. He walks out of the elevator with his head raised. He clearly sees the tears swirling above his pupils. As long as he lowers his head and blinks, the tears will fall down.

"It's been two years. What else do you say?"

"Dingyan sends me text messages every day. Do you know that every time I see her mention about you in the message, I feel that even my sister hates me.

She has been saying before that missing you is my biggest mistake. Am I too stubborn? Is it because of my stubborn stage dream? See you again. When I regret, even you don't want me. "

Kong Shengyan doesn't like this feeling very much. Her own sister is not on her side. As a sister, she doesn't know her sister's mind at all. Her own sister is not in vain.

When did the regret start, that is, Yu Dingyan's Daily Photo bombing and implicit display, all grew up together. She had felt Yu Dingyan's mind for a long time. When she hesitated and even dared not take the initiative, her sister came in front of her, even now it's only secretly.

Li Xianzhe licked his lips and only felt extremely bitter. "Listen, Shengyan, when two people break up, it's never just one person who has a problem. The fuse of our breakup is the difference of ideas. These words seem nothing. Only those who really feel it know how deadly it is.

Since you told me that you envy the singers on TV, I know that when we two communicate, we are attracted by each other's stubbornness and will fight to the end if we identify something.

I always tell you how much I despise artists. In fact, I just want to dispel your idea of being an artist, because I know that artists are very tired and bitter, because they can't afford the huge journey, and finally get sick. This is the realism of the Korean performing arts circle. I'm afraid that after you become an artist, we will meet less and less time together.

Later, I even said that if you were an artist, we would never meet you. In fact, I just wanted you to care more about my thoughts, but I didn't expect that what I said myself would eventually become a reality. "

"Is it really impossible for us? Do you really have no feelings for me? " That desire occupied her heart. Kong Shengyan had never been like this at any moment. She wanted to hear Li Xianzhe's nostalgia. Knowing that he was dating another girl, she still had to ask this sentence.

Erase the tears from the corners of his eyes, Li Xianzhe tried his best to calm down his tone. "Shengyan, you will like me today because you know the harm caused to me by those things two years ago. You feel guilty, but you forget how we tortured each other.

If my mother didn't die, if I didn't go to the army, if I didn't go to school in the United States, if I was in front of you in Korea, if I still didn't support you to be a trainee and an artist, you might not say these words today, or you might not like me anymore. "

"I won't go to pledis. I'll tell my agent whether we can start again, even if we are friends, as long as you don't refuse me."

"Time will not go back. If you can say these words to me earlier, ha ha, you can't go back."

When he returned to the studio, Li Xianzhe still had red eyes. Anyone could see his haggard appearance. It seemed that he was a few years old, and the color of his chin and cheeks had deepened a lot.

"Don't mean to keep you waiting."

It was sunny who opened the door for him. At the moment when he looked up, Li Xianzhe forced out a smile.

"Are you okay?" Everyone was startled by Li Xianzhe's appearance.

"It's all right. It's all solved. How's the song? Are you familiar with it?"

Xu Xianchang opens her mouth and wants to say something. Jessica directly grabs her hand and shakes her head. Just looking at the expression on her face, their experience is enough to guess the ending. At this time, changing the topic is the best choice.

"Hey, it's just three songs. We're girls."