Mo Han once told me that if I like other women, I can just tell her that she won't pester me.
I have lived with Mo Han for so many years, and I know her character very well. She can be so free and easy for others, but for herself, she will surely fall into a certain mire and suffer for a lifetime.
I know that it is my selfishness that has harmed her. I chose love and naturally put aside my responsibility to Mo Han. The world is not perfect. To keep my original intention, I have to forget the people who helped me.
I look at Mo Han with some guilty heart. Her anger is right. It's not unreasonable. If I don't tell her at this time, I'm not afraid that she won't help me take care of Ye Yingying. I'm afraid that she can't stand such a big blow. Like Ye Yingying, I'll close myself up and let no one enter her world.
"Han Han, let's talk about it. I can tell you anything you want to know. "
Mo Han looked at me coldly. After a long time, he said, "I don't want to know anything. I'll ask you a question. Are you going to leave me?"
"Cold cold me -"
Mo Han interrupted me and said, "isn't it?"
"Han Han, listen to me -"
tears can't help falling from Mo Han's face. She covers her ears and says, "I don't want to hear it! I don't want to hear it! Do you think I'm sick? I'm afraid I'll live in my own world forever like Ye Yingying. Brother Tian, do you know that my illness is getting better soon? I admit that I still get sick from time to time now, which is beyond my control. I promise you, three years at most, no more than two years. If you give me another two years, I will cure my illness, and it will never drag you down, OK? "
Sick people will feel inferior to their own bodies. They are afraid that others will look down on them, because in real life, we give too little care to patients.
They are becoming less and less confident in the eyes of others' discrimination and ridicule. Because Mo Han cares too much about me, every move of me will remind her of her own illness. For this, I understand her very much.
I grabbed Mo Han's little hand and said, "Han Han, don't get excited. I don't dislike you. I've never disliked you."
"If you don't dislike me, why do you want to leave me? I have a feeling in my heart that you are going to leave me, right?"
I saw Mo Han's poor eyes. She is such a good woman. How can I have the heart to hurt her? I'm afraid to aggravate her illness, because her eyes are more and more diffuse and her eyes are more and more strange to me. This is the rhythm of the disease.
I quickly said: "Mo Han, you misunderstood. I don't want to talk about this with you. I won't leave you. I just want to discuss other things with you."
"What's the matter, you say."
"Take it easy before I tell you."
"Tell me, I'm ready."
Although Mo Han said that she was ready, her little hand was shaking all the time, and her eyes did not dare to look at me.
I patted Mo Han's little hand and said:
"I want to talk to you about ye Yingying."
"What happened to her? Brother Tian, don't worry. I'm from the past. I know her inner feelings now. She just can't figure it out. When it's light, she will get better. "
I said: "Han Han, I think so. This place has left many very bad memories for ye Yingying, so I want her to change her environment, which may be beneficial to her illness, don't you think?"
Mo Han nodded gently and said: "she is now a psychological problem. To change a new environment is to change a life, which is a good way."
"You think it's a good idea, too?"
"Well."
I said with a smile, "where do you think it's better for us to settle Ye Yingying?"
Mo Han Bing Xue is clever. She can see the plan in my heart at a glance. She said, "do you have the answer in your heart?"
"There is a place with beautiful environment, beautiful scenery, fresh air and simple folk customs, which is very suitable for health care."
"Where is it?"
"My hometown is Mingyang. I want to send Ye Yingying to the country, where my grandfather lives. What do you think? "
"Not bad. I remember you told me that ye Yingying listened to his grandfather's words most and had the deepest feelings for him. It would be the best if he could go home to recuperate and have his family to accompany him. "
"You agree?"
"Of course."
"Just now there is a problem. Ye Yingying can't take care of herself. She doesn't know when she will get better. My grandfather lives alone in the countryside and is old. If he is asked to take care of Ye Yingying for one or two days, of course, there will be no problem. But after a long time, there will always be a lot of inconvenience. After all, ye Yingying is a big girl now, which is sure to be the same as when he was a child It can't be compared. "
"You want me to take care of her?"
"Will you?"
Mo Han thought about it. She certainly didn't want to leave me. She came to Shencheng just to find me. Now I'll send her away and let her take ye Yingying to live with my grandfather in the countryside. She must not be happy."Hanhan, if you have difficulties, I won't force you."
"No. Brother Tian, I just want to know that you will never leave me, will you
I looked at Mo Han's expectant eyes. I couldn't bear it and nodded gently. I told myself in my heart that if Mo Han couldn't live without me, I would take care of her all my life. This is my responsibility and my obligation.
"No
Mo Han blushed, and she began to be cheerful again, because she knew that I always kept my word. If I said no, I would not. The promise I made was a debt. Since I said it, I would be responsible to the end.
"Ye Yingying is your aunt, even my aunt. Since she is in trouble now, I can't ignore her. Besides, I also want to see my grandfather and your parents and live with them for a while. Brother Tian, I promise you that I will go with her. "
"Really?"
"Well, it's true. But I have a small request
"You said
"I want you to take us."
"There's absolutely no problem with that. I'll take you there myself. You go and clean up now, and we'll start right away. "
"In such a hurry?"
"Don't you want to see my grandfather and my parents earlier?"
"Hee hee. Good. You wait for me
Mo Han went back to her house to pack. Most of the things she brought from Hangzhou were moved to Ye Yingying. She not only had to pack her own things, but also helped Ye Yingying.
I sit on the sofa and smoke. I don't know whether I'm right or wrong. The end of a mistake is the beginning of another mistake. Am I fair to Mo Han? Can't I end up in the future.
I went to the balcony and called Lin Manxue. I wanted to take another five days off. Plus the first two days, I took a week off. Of course, with the weekend or something, the holiday should be far more than a week.
At the moment when I got through, I didn't know how to call Lin Manxue. I called her Manyu, Manxue, President Lin or my dear baby. Our relationship is really messy and too complicated.