Chapter 90 - Darkness

….

-Change POV-

-Yami-

…

I just look at Tsunade's eyes and I can see myself in them. When I think back on those times. Always looking at the best in people. How naive… understood that later when my teacher seduced me… I always thought that she loved me… how idiotic I was, never in control of anything… always afraid of everything… then when she got run over by a car right in front of my eyes… the world is a number of infinite possibilities… that must try to control…

I will be in control now…  also I remember Linda…

….

-Flashback-

-MC age 15-

….

I just look at Linda in front of me… her blond hair swaying in the wind… I look at her blue eyes and see myself in them... I have changed so much… the world is a cruel place… death is inevitable… I can't change that… so I want to know how the world works… 

My eyes have gotten a little colder. My face now most of the time has a fake smile on… my good uncle who tried to help me died from a rat bite that he thought that it was just nothing but the rat had a deadly disease in its teeth… humans are truly fragile beings…  life is way too short so… I must have no regrets…

"I see that you don't have those whores who always surround you."

I just give her a weak smile while trying to act sorry.

"Hey Linda how have you been. Haven't seen you in a long time… so how about we go and grab some coffee together and catch up."

Then her face goes from indifferent to angry. Then she says in a soft voice..

"Andy… let me ask you a question…"

I just raise an eyebrow. Then she continues.

"Who are you right now."

My eyes just widen slightly. But she just continues saying

"The Andy I knew was smart, caring and… someone trustworthy… then there is the other you, the one who has his little whores all around him and every word that comes out of his mouth is a lie. Fake promises, manipulation… I don't know you anymore."

"I will be whatever you want princess…"

Then I see that her eyes have started tearing up. I notice that it is not out of happiness… it's out of sadness. Then while crying she says.

"I can't even hate you no matter what you do… I just pity you."

'THIS BITCH'... even with all that anger inside me my eyes just narrow a little. Then my face becomes indifferent while I turn around and say to her.

"I would say that it has been a p.l.e.a.s.u.r.e Linda… but it hasn't…"

Then I start walking away… then Linda says.

"Wait… I said wait ANDY… I want to help you."

My eyes go cold for a second… then I turn around and tell her.

"Who are you Linda… you don't need to answer that. I already know you better than you do yourself. You are a little girl who has abandonment issues… also a girl who no one wants… even your parents abandoned you."

"So please… shut the fu*k up… trash."

…

-Yami POV-

…

Tsunade banging a sake cup on the table wakes me up from my thoughts. She just looks at me with a strange look and then a light of recognition flashes in her eyes. Then she says in a drunkenly voice.

"Yami… long time no see…"

When she says that I notice that it is almost an automatic response. She isn't even that concentrated on me…. There is only one way to describe Tsunade right now… WEAK… before she only used to drink on joyous occasions, now she has become an alcoholic. 

This is why I never drink alcohol. It doesn't let you be in control of your own body. To me that is scarier than any deadly poison. 

Then I call a waiter over and order some food and a glass of juice. I look at Tsunade who is still drinking out of her sixth sake bottle. While eating I ask Tsunade.

"What happened."

Even though I know what happened I still needed to hear her say it.

She just looks at me with hollow eyes and she says.

"Dan… Dan Kato died."

I just raise an eyebrow towards her to express my 'confusion'. Then I say in a bewildered voice.

"So what… all people die… eventually." (except me that is)

She just frowns a little and says in a slightly annoyed voice. 

*sigh* "You are truly inconsiderate sometimes Yami."

Then she leans her head down on her hand which is on the table. Her hair also falls down a little. She still has a sake bottle in one of her hands… when I look at the bottle I  can't help but think about my teacher in my last world… 

Control…

Then I secretly summon something from my wristband summon scroll… then I pick the thing and drop it into the drunk Tsunade's sake bottle… 

This time I will be in control…

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.