"No, I refuse!"
Zhang Lan categorically rejected Aunt May's request, refusing to replace Aunt May to take care of Harry and Peter. 【Fengyun Novel Reading Network】
This was obviously beyond the expectations of Aunt May, and it was even more difficult for Harry and Peter to understand.
"What? Am I wrong, Blue, you"
Peter spoke to his mouth, but he didn't know how to continue, and asked Zhang Lan why he refused to take care of them?
"Peter, shut up! And you Harry."
Aunt May reprimanded Peter and stopped Harry, who had stopped talking, and looked at Zhang Lan with a complex look, without any blame or distrust, but full of distress:
"Blue, are you tired too? I am a nurse, and I understand that the feeling of life when I leave my own hands, that feeling of powerlessness, has always bothered me at the beginning."
After subconsciously refusing Aunt May, Zhang Lan originally thought he would wait for Aunt May's reprimand, or indifferent understanding. After all, he just adopted him, didn't he?
Unexpectedly, what happened was the relief of Aunt May, and when it came to the relief in his heart, she had endured the tears that had not flowed out. Under the abundance of Aunt May, she burst out.
Seeing Zhang Lan's reaction, Aunt May smiled very kindly, gently wiped Zhang Lan's tears with her thumb, and there was no focus. She described the scene recalled in her mind:
"Human, there is always life and death. I didn't understand when I was a nurse. I didn't know the life until a intensive care patient I was responsible for suddenly died and died in front of me. Valuable, that kind of lifeless sense of powerlessness that passed away in front of your eyes is a level I face. This is something that textbooks and teachers cannot teach."
"At that time, when I was about to resign, Ben appeared, and he and I said, "Do you want to do your best to save the hope that others may survive, or let the unknown do it?"
"It was also at that time that I knew that the greater the ability, the greater the responsibility."
"The Lizard Elixir incident in New York University before, and the Lizard Elixir that spread all over New York City afterwards, wasn’t it just Harry who stopped it? I think in the middle, you should bear most of the responsibility, yes ?"
Aunt May's last sentence reminded Zhang Lan of many pictures in his mind, and many pictures he dared not recall when he was alone.
In the New York University cafeteria, after Dr. Lizard threw an experimental lizard potion, even if Zhang Lan finally rescued most of his classmates, but the restaurant’s amputated limb and arm, and later Zhang Lan saw the scene photos given by SHIELD, it was a slaughter field!
This time, caused the death of hundreds of students!
Afterwards, the lizard remedy spread throughout New York City, which is simply human purgatory, the human order is out of order, the lizard man hunts humans, and the biological parents’ own children start.
This time, the number of deaths alone is tens of thousands! Injuries and disabilities are countless.
And all of this was caused by his "World Difficulty 3" at that time, how many Zhang Lan kept falling into boundless self-blame and boundless remorse day and night.
Later, Zhang Lan's performance on the "Mutants Act", Manhattan Island blocking the Statue of Liberty, and Los Angeles Airport rescue were all to prevent more casualties from appearing in his hands.
Thinking of this, Zhang Lan walked to the floor-to-ceiling window of the office, looking at New York in front of him, looking at the prosperous scene. In front of the person closest to him, he finally revealed his thoughts:
"Peter, do you remember the number of deaths in the New York University cafeteria? I remember, there are 241 people, including my own classmates, your teacher."
"Harry, Victor's battle was really hard, but even then, 32 civilians and 32 people died. How many students in our class? This is enough for half of the class. Right?"
"There is also a lizard potion scattered by Connors, which is full of New York City. At that time, there were 13481 people dead. What is the concept of 13481 people? Do you know what is enough to fill a football field?"
Speaking of which, Zhang Lan's already choked, and his voice trembles.
"And as long as I'm there at that time, as long as I get to the scene a little bit earlier, as long as I'm stronger, really as long as I'm stronger, then a little bit, it's totally preventable, and they don't have to die."
"It’s all I’m not strong enough, do you know? Do you know? In the Mutant Registration Act, I tried to justify superhumans, I wanted to rescue them, I didn’t want them to be like those who died so badly, just die ."
"When I succeeded, did you know that when I went back to Xavier School of Genius, what eyes did they use to look at me? At that time, I seemed to see what you looked at when I was looking at me. I have no way to accept it. One day in the future, They will turn into corpses and lie in front of me, and their loved ones will be heartbroken, just like when I lost my uncle Ben~~ I cannot accept it."
"Oh, I can't accept it at all. So many people will die. Obviously, as long as I am stronger, as long as I am stronger, I can save so many people, huh."
At the end of the talk, Zhang Lan leaned against the tempered glass, slid down to the ground along the glass, half-kneeled, and cried.
How many days and nights these thoughts are tormenting his heart, showing the appearance of a chest in front of outsiders, never showing his inner softness, he must be strong, he must set an example for Peter and Harry, there is no talk at all Object.
Today, under the guidance of Aunt May, he completely opened his heart, facing the most fearful memory in his heart, and released it as much as he could.
The other three in the room were silent. Peter and Harry glanced at each other, pursed their lips, took a few deep breaths, and finally the tears remained uncontrollable.
The two of them had never thought about it, and Zhang Lan had been under such great pressure on his shoulders.
Aunt May on the side looked at the three brothers who were crying and sighed, sighed low, and lifted Zhang Lan up between Peter and Harry, helping each of them to wipe away their tears, looking at their young seriously Face.
Obviously there are only three children who are only 17 years old. Why should they provoke such a heavy pressure?
"Trust me, you have done well enough. No one can do better than you. Although some people are still dying, that’s not what you want to see, isn’t it? You saved more people. Including the family of the dead person, maybe the wife of this family is dead, but at least you saved her children, and her husband, the father of the children, no one can accuse you of not doing well, right?"
Can someone do the duty?
No one will be eligible except for themselves.