Chapter 362

"That is to ask, is also to ask the heart..." white dress immortal mumbles to say, then light smile way, "that wish you this trip is smooth?"

When the declarative sentence becomes a question, Ling Yun finds some different places. The scene changes again and turns to the battlefield of fierce fighting.

Everything is like a fleeting moment. He only has a glance, and then he will appear in another scene, some of which he is familiar with and some of which he is not familiar with. It seems that he is reading all his experiences.

"Dad?" Ling Yun called softly.

But there is no response to all this. The world out of Lingyun is only gray.

Everyone does not want to think of the memories, there will be he must be guilty of people and things in it, no matter how also lingering, chop constantly exist.

When we have made mistakes before, we may be asked to pay back our previous sins at some casual time, both big and small, but there will never be fairness in the world, so reason becomes very important. People who understand and practice reason bring fairness to the world; The person who knows the truth but does not act, what he brings to the world is indifference; Those who understand the truth and do the opposite will bring injustice to the world; The person who does not understand but is doing, what he brings to the world is warmth; Those who do not understand and do not do are the dust of the world; Those who do not understand and do the opposite are the dregs of the world.

The world we live in is colder than the cold winter, full of dust and dregs. So in order to live and live better, we adapt to the cold world and become dust and dregs.

In the end, many people began to complain about the unfairness of the world. Maybe many people are not qualified to complain, because one or two people can't do it. We are also our own accomplices when we experience such unfair hardships.

In such a world, the corner is no longer dark and cold, but full of hope sunshine, is warm.

Such a corner should not exist, because it runs counter to the world, so at a fork in life, one leads to warmth and light, and the other to the real world. Among 100 people, 100 people give up warmth and light; In 10000 people, there will be a few people stop at the fork, there will be a person who choose to go to the road that no one takes, so he will be laughed at by many people.

Ling Yun remembers Chen Diao temple saying that his hometown is not such a good world. Maybe there are more ways of entertainment than here, but it is full of tired and empty souls.

When a place, a country, and even the whole world regard money as all the pursuits of life and the source of happiness, is it sad? Are you happy?

It seems that there is no reason to laugh at the efforts of those who want to live, but is that really good?

It's just a life endowed with a special meaning, but many people are clear in their hearts that it doesn't make any sense to live like that, because when our hearts and souls are all made of money, the original vitality of life turns into a pile of dead things in the end, but many people are willing to live like this, at least many people will feel relaxed.

But it was a disgusting cycle after all, Chen Diao Si said. We had no reason to resent, no reason to complain, no reason to refuse. So we all died. What should have existed had no flavor of the past. Later, we may take it for granted, but it's not really good.

Chen Diao temple said that he hated the saying that "being is reasonable". Not all things are reasonable when they exist. This is a wrong saying. It's just a cowardly excuse for those who admit their fate and escape.

The reason why Ling Yun suddenly has so many ideas is that

In front of Lingyun's eyes, or where he is standing now, is the shabby alley on Lunar New Year's Eve. He looks dazed and staggers forward. In this shabby alley, there are small tents on both sides, which can't shelter from the wind and cold, but only rain and snow.

Deep in the alley should be the warmest place, because the wind from the outside, to the inside is actually a lot less, but it is also the darkest place.

Deep in the alley lived three children, two little boys and a little girl. One of them curled up in the corner and didn't cover the ragged quilt that could only warm people's hearts. His eyes were very bright but very dim.

Many memories come out from the bottom of my heart, just like a worn-out Almanac. With a little effort, it becomes a pile of waste paper. The little boy curled up on one side, leaning against the cold wall, with frostbite on his toes, looks up at Ling Yun. They can't see him, and so can he. But he knows that opposite him, there is a pair of eyes looking at him.

Ling Yun slowly closed his eyes. He covered his chest and leaned against the wall powerlessly. In his more than 20 years of life, he had too many things he didn't want to recall. At least this one is one of the things he didn't want to recall.

Lingyun's heart seems to split a gap, the young man in black is smiling, as if to see a perfect jade bottle slowly split.

These are not how hateful memories Lingyun has, but he feels very sad and sad, very sorry and guilty, he always can't keep all the things he cares about.

When he was young, even the stars seemed to deliberately avoid him, so that he could not see the stars and moonlight, only darkness and cold.

The little girl was sick and needed money. The proud child bowed his head for the first time. He went to ask for help. He could write and write poems. All these could be exchanged for money, but he could not, but he could not.

So he discussed with another little boy, let him go to the government to tell his identity in exchange for money, he ran away, let him take the money to see a doctor for the little girl.

Everything went well until the boy got the money.

He didn't take the money to see a doctor for the little girl. He strangled the little girl himself. He also knew that the clever Ling Yun would know that he did it. So he cheated Ling Yun to come back and let the officers and soldiers kill the little girl again in front of him.

Ling Yun hides. He thinks that the little girl is still alive. In fact, she is dead, but he doesn't dare to come out. In fact, he has some money in his hand. He needs to use it to practice, so he can't take these two burdens with him. In the end, he has something that he feels guilty about all his life.

Ling Yun is also now to see this scene to know, the original dark but has a pair of big eyes full of hope and aura girl, died before that, but this is not the reason why his heart knot can be untied, he will never be able to untie such a knot.

He killed his friend because of his selfishness.

Everything happened because of his selfishness.

The little boy was hiding in the mountain, leaning against the tree, crying silently. He could never keep anyone and anything. He thought he would not shed tears again, but he ran out with tears. He buckled his eyes and wanted to pull them out, but he didn't dare. He was still afraid. The invisible fear made him put down his hands.

Ling Yun calmly looked at this scene, he could even hear the sound of his inner world crashing, like a perfect porcelain, falling on the ground, broken.

Maybe it's a small matter for anyone, even the culprit is another little boy. But Ling Yun knows that it's because of himself. He likes to see the nature of things, so he can never forgive himself.

Ling Yun squats down and looks at this crying very sad, but it's like a relief child. Without the little girl, he resents the little boy, as if he becomes a lot more relaxed. He doesn't have to worry about whether they have enough to eat, whether they sleep well, and whether they will be bullied?

He's alone again

Ling Yun tilted his head to prevent the tears from falling from his left eye. He turned his head to prevent the tears from falling from his right eye. In this way, the tears would not come out.

The child's mouth with a smile, like a hammer hit in the heart of Lingyun, he snorted, a wisp of red blood from his mouth.

He is very smart, so he will also escape from the darkest corner of his heart. He thinks of all the possible results, and is sure that it will happen, but he still does it. When things happen according to his own expectations, his heart is painful and empty, but at the same time, it is relaxed and no burden.

Ling Yun sat down on the ground with empty eyes. If this is the bridge he wants to repair, where is the material?

Ling Yun no longer follows the child of the great wisdom near the demon. He goes to the river outside the city. There is a bridge. After a long time, he can't help thinking of the old man's previous problems.

But if the people on the other side are dead, how can he save them?

It doesn't help to repair the bridge. No matter how strong the bridge is, it can't make up for the past regret.

"Sir... Ling Yun is ashamed of Mr..."

The lost young man fell into the river. In fact, Ling Yun had a strong purpose in many things he did. Even if he was pure hearted, he would feel guilty for a long time. What's more, the lower situation was deduced from his mood. He could not help but escape. When a person went through constant journey, met different people and did some things, Looking back at the past, he is unforgettable after all.

In fact, life is more like a atonement, constant mistakes and constant repayment, when unable to repay, it has come to the end of life.

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The lower reaches of the river is still a village. The disheveled and shabby scholar takes a small stone and sits by the river all day, looking at the flowing river and silent.

It was a young couple who fished him out of the river. They were kind-hearted. They didn't ask him his name, origin, and past. Anyway, they saved him and didn't do anything bad. They let him live here like this. These years, life is much better and food is not bad for one person.

The couple have a child. He is very clever and kind-hearted. He never finds this slovenly young man annoying. The child's keen observation and curiosity make him feel that the slovenly man who doesn't like to talk is very sad, so every time he comes back from the fields with his parents, The child will ask, "are you happy today?"

The young man nodded and said in a hoarse voice, "thank you."

The child would put down his small hoe, sit next to the man, take out a piece of sweet steamed bun from his bag and give him a piece, "my mother said that if you are not happy, you will eat some sweet, and then it will be sweet to your heart, and you will be happy."

The young man gently smiles and conjures up a string of sugar gourds from his arms. Compared with his slovenly appearance, this string of sugar gourds is very clean. Every time the child asks him, he will give him a string of sugar gourds. When other children in the village hear the news, they will come to him in turn to tell him stories, tell jokes, and perform the game of laughing at the child, He would each give a bunch of sugar gourd, as if the man had endless sugar gourd.

The old people in the village also chat with him occasionally when they come out for a walk after dinner. Few young people are willing to listen to the old man's gossiping. This young man has excellent patience. He will listen attentively when others speak, although he seldom speaks.

But the speaker is content.

Over time, this has become a habit. Most people in the village are kind-hearted, but there are also many poisonous people. Men and women all have them, but most of them are good at heart. Men will bring him wine, talk nonsense, but also comfort him.

The woman would say, let him pick up and introduce a daughter-in-law to him. As long as the man is married, he will be determined.

Young men laugh most of the time. Anyway, everyone is chatting. They don't take it seriously. The children of the young couple who rescued him would often squat here and listen to their chatting. His smart eyes would turn around. When they left, the children would ask, "what do they mean?"

Young men will pick and choose to tell their children some, and then the children will happily run home, and then tell their parents what they have learned today, so they will have a delicious meal to reward him.

Of course, young couples know who told their children. They don't read much. Even when they grow up in the village, they can go to their mother's home a few steps away. They think that the slovenly man is a learned man. As time goes by, it spreads. The old people in the village advise him to open a school. He always refuses. He can teach them to read, but he can't be called Mr, Not to mention running a school.

As for the reason, he never said, so in the three months after the young man arrived in the village, many children followed him to read and read. The young man is a very learned person, at least in the village. Many beautiful verses are handy, and the children are very happy, because he speaks very vividly, When they get home, they go back and recite it to their parents.

The fourth month after the young man arrived at the village, it was autumn. The father gave Ling Yun the clothes he was wearing in autumn. Ling Yun accepted them with a thank you, as if he didn't think about the past, and he had more smiles on his face.