Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
“If it hadn’t been for Gu Xingze, I would be the one lying on that bed…”
Yun Shishi clutched her chest in deep sorrow as tears rolled uncontrollably from her eyes.
Her heart ached so much that she could barely breathe.
She was not a fragile person, much less a person who would cry at the drop of a hat, but she could not stop feeling sad.
She really couldn’t.
She could not force herself to smile and live happily after losing Xingze!
This was too cruel.
Too cruel…
She sobbed and said, “He could have gotten away. He knew that they had guns and that the bullets were blind… but he didn’t run! He did not have to protect me. If he hadn’t, he wouldn’t have been stabbed so many times! Sob, sob, sob… He had every chance to live. Why… why did he end up like this…”
Mu Yazhe held her in his arms, feeling the pain. His eyes turned red and his heart almost broke.
Other than hugging her tightly and feeling her pain, there was little he could say.
Hua Jin choked on his sobs. “Shishi, don’t keep thinking about this matter. Since it has already happened, let bygones be bygones! The dead are gone, and the living are still alive! Because Xingze is no longer around, all the more you should cherish life! He would most certainly want you to be well and not torture yourself!”
“But… I don’t understand. I don’t understand…”
She could not stop crying.
“I don’t understand. I don’t understand. I just want him to come back—”
“Stop crying…”
Mu Yazhe lowered his head in pain and gently kissed her injured eyes through the gauze. “Shishi, don’t cry anymore. Go to sleep and don’t let your thoughts run wild, huh? Don’t let your thoughts run wild…”
He knew that asking a heartbroken person to stop crying when she was in extreme pain, was even more brutal than death by a thousand cuts.
But she must not continue to cry.
Every time tears flowed out of her eyes, it was literally rubbing salt into her wounds.
He did not want her to be in pain anymore!
Youyou rubbed his eyes and tried his best not to cry. However, every time he saw his mommy in pain, he felt terrible too!
Everyone was flustered and finally managed to comfort her to the point that she could sleep!
After she fell asleep, the ward returned to silence.
Only then did the nurses enter the ward. The retention needle on her wrist had been removed earlier on, hence they set her up on the IV drip using her other hand.
Mu Yazhe had been holding her in his embrace, hence he lay down on his side with her snuggled in his arms and her head resting on his upper arm.
Even though half of his arm was numb from supporting the weight of her head, he could not bear to let go.
Just like that, he wrapped his arms around her, held her, guarded her, and watched over her.
Yun Shishi did not sleep well, and her breathing became rapid from time to time. Perhaps she was having nightmares, given how her forehead was covered in a sprinkle of cold sweat.
Youyou fetched a basin of hot water, squeezed the towel dry, and carefully wrapped the towel around her forehead to soak up the droplets of perspiration.
Little Yichen, on the other hand, quietly tucked her under the blanket.
The father and sons worked together, each playing their role.
Hua Jin was tired after staying up all night and all morning. Hence, he lay down on the guest bed to rest.
He thought that once Mu Yazhe got tired by tonight, he could then help take over the care of Shishi.
The two little lads also applied for leave from school to watch over her.