Chapter 942: empty, lonely
What if she really only had a month or two?
She really wasn't that calm...
"Long Youfei, the future is hard to say. I don't want to be alarmed. I just want to make the right choice now. If I don't live with ji chenling, there's no point in living. I don't know if you really like it. Even if it's true, I can't afford it. From the day ji chenling jumped off the cliff, my heart has been tied to him." Bai Xi said.
Until today, she remembered the scene when ji chenling jumped off the cliff, and her heart still ached.
"He didn't jump off the cliff for you, he lied to the antidote and stayed dormant. Wait for the opportunity. Do you know how much he has done in a year? You put people in and ruined our efforts over the years. Ji Chenling is not the simple person you think he is." Long Youfei said.
"He, he's never been a simple person. When he was in Country s, he had designed everything. He had two hands ready. In order to get the antidote, he also had two hands ready. I had suffered before. I had been uncomfortable. I felt that I was just a chess piece, and it helped. Because of this feeling, I was very sad for a time. Because of this feeling, I called you who was a stranger. Because, No one wants to be designed, especially by someone they love. The pain is multiplied." Bai Xi said.
"And you chose to stay by his side?" Asked long youfei.
"But, in the calculation, whether there is love or not, I have seriously thought about this question. He chased An Xin away for me. This weight is heavy enough, isn't it? Who is An Xin? He knows all his people. He grew up together. An Xin is very important to him, isn't he? But to him, I should be more important than an xin." Bai Xi said.
"I'm not a person who only listens to sweet talk. I see this person's behavior, behavior, back then, he and..." Bai Xi choked. "Dong Manqin. I really don't like his ambiguous way of dealing with it, and you should know it."
"I shouldn't have come into contact with Dong Manqin so soon. If she were alive, maybe you and Ji Chenling would have been separated by then." Long Youfei regretted.
"I don't know. If you are sad, you will give up. If you give up for a long time, this person will come out of your heart. Isn't this the heart? You were trying to separate Ji Chenling and Dong Manqin's brother, weren't you? If I'm right, Dong Manqin's brother is already yours, right?" Bai Xi asked.
"Yes." Long youfei replied, very upset. If he knew that one day he would fall in love with Bai Xi, not only would he not let Dong Manqin die, but he would also help Dong Manqin to provoke him. In that case, if Bai Xi left Ji Chenling, would he possibly like him?
"Are you sure ji chenling will love you forever?" Long Youfei asked.
"I'm not sure. As you said, I can only live for one or two years. The future is too far away. I may not be able to wait, but I'm sure he likes me now. He's working with you, whether it's for Sheng Saiguang or me, and he really saved me. I just want to see the ending, don't I?" Bai Xi asked.
Long Youfei suddenly felt that it was very boring. He liked Bai Xi's firmness, but this firmness was harder than steel, not something that a person's teeth could bite.
Time and time again, to be honest, he was desperate.
As Bai Xi said, more despair, more disappointment, will give up, give up for a long time, this person will come out of the heart.
Because he liked her, he was already sloppy, because he liked her, he was too lenient, because he liked her, he had no reason for a long time.
"Bai Xi, from today on, I won't like you anymore. Even if you come to beg me a year later, my condition is not to let you stay with me anymore." Long Youfei said coldly, raising the corners of his mouth, his eyes devoid of warmth and enthusiasm.
It was like the first time they met, he was just a hunter, ruthless, cold-blooded, bloodthirsty.
Bai Xi felt a chill in his heart, but at the same time, he felt lucky and relieved.
"Let's talk about it in a year. It's been too long and too many dreams. We don't know what will happen in a year. If you don't want him, I'll close the door." Bai Xi said coldly.
"Bai Xi, you never gave me warmth." Long Youfei said coldly.
"What you have given me is not cruelty over and over again. From the time you pushed ji chen ling down the cliff, you can't be a friend to me. It's already a predestined ending. Why struggle?" Bai Xi said faintly.
"You could have turned me into a good person. But I think it's better to be a heartless bad person. At least my heart won't hurt. Being a good person is too aggrieved." Long Youfei said in a deep voice.
"In fact, good people and bad people are real only when they want to be. What others want you to be is not from the bottom of your heart. Even if you temporarily become a good person for me, how long can you love me? When the feelings fade, do you want to be a bad person or a bad person?" Bai Xi said calmly.
"Maybe. I don't have a chance to be a good person anyway." Long Youfei put the gift bag in his hand at Bai Xi's door.
When he put down the gift bag, he felt empty, cold, bored, lonely, and inexplicable loneliness.
However, he also understood that there was no other way. The human heart was the most difficult thing to grasp, especially for a woman as faithful as Bai Xi.
His eyes slowly became cold, cold, as if they were frozen for thousands of miles.
He called and said, "Proceed as planned."
At half past ten
Xu Yan came over.
"Xiao Xi." As soon as Xu Yan arrived, he went into the kitchen. "What did you prepare for me for lunch?"
"Shredded tomato with broccoli." Bai Xi said.
"Broccoli, tomatoes lose weight. I like them, but shredded meat?" Xu Yan hesitated.
"You also need to add protein, or else you will gain five pounds after a meal, which will make you even worse." Bai Xi suggested.
"I think you're right. If only you, Tian Tian, would arrange a nutritious meal for me in the future, I wouldn't have to worry about getting fat." Xu Yan sighed.
"I can send you the recipe every day. How about you go to the hospital for a checkup?" Bai Xi asked as he cut the tomatoes.
Xu Yan raised his eyebrows. "I'm good, I'm straight, I'm sitting steady. I'm not a virgin. I know what I'm afraid of. But, Xiao Xi, is there a protective layer on a woman? Is there a protective layer on a man? How can I tell?"