Chapter 128 - Can I Trust You?

Tom lay on his bed, unable to sleep as he thought about what he was doing with Lucy and questioned his actions. Was he supposed to feel sorry that he was lying to her? He wasn't doing any of this to hurt her. Maybe if she had been more open to the idea of being in a relationship he would have been able to handle things more differently... Perhaps.

His mind drifted to the conversation they had both had after they left Jasmine's home. Lucy had insisted they sit on the trunk of the car to receive the cool evening breeze before heading for their various apartments. 

Sitting on the trunk of the car with their back rested on the back windscreen of the car and looking at the stars that decorated the night sky, Lucy had turned to look at him, "Can I trust you?" She had asked looking at him with hopeful eyes. She was beginning to trust him already, so she needed to know if she could go on trusting him, or if she needed to keep away from him.

"I believe you already know the answer to your question," Tom had said without turning to look at her. He couldn't bear to look into her face right now as he feared that with all the conflicting emotions he was having he might just open up to her and confess everything at once, and he wasn't ready to do any of that yet. Not until he was sure beyond reasonable doubt that she loved him. He wanted her to love him. 

"Do I? Why did you tell me that you have been lying to me?" Lucy had asked further, wanting to see if she could make him tell her everything she needed to know about him. 

"I didn't say I have been lying to you. Although I have not been entirely honest with you, I haven't entirely lied to you either. I won't hurt you if that is what you want to know," Tom had assured her, but Lucy wasn't satisfied.

"How bad are the secrets you are keeping from me? And why can't you just be entirely honest with me?" Lucy had asked thoughtfully. 

"I guess it depends on the perspective you view it. To me, the secrets are not bad, but you might not exactly appreciate them. And I can't be entirely honest with you until I'm sure about how you feel about me," Tom had said, but Lucy had interpreted it to mean that he wanted her to earn his trust before he could divulge his secrets to her. 

"I guess you are entitled to hold back on telling me certain things about yourself until we have fully established trust between us," Lucy had concluded logically, and Tom nodded his head. 

Now that he was alone in his bedroom, he couldn't help but wonder if she would be that understanding of his reasons when he finally tells her everything. What would happen and how would she react when she eventually finds out about his true identity? He knew that she was likely going to be very upset considering the fact that he had deceived her, and she was big on trust. Tom dozed off with a worried frown on his brow as he thought of what he could do to reduce Lucy's anger when she eventually finds out the truth.

"Good morning, Miss Perry," Tom greeted politely the next morning as Lucy walked up to the car to join him as usual. 

This morning she was dressed in a fitted sky blue shirt which was tucked into a gray-colored high waist knee-length skirt that had two pleats in the front of it. On her feet was a biro blue stiletto which matched the handbag she was carrying. 

"What's that?" Lucy asked with a slight frown. Although she had thought it would be awkward to have Tom driving her to work as her driver considering all that had transpired between them over the weekend, she realized that it was even more awkward having her temporary boyfriend referring to her so formally. 

"What is what?" Tom asked innocently as he patiently waited for her to get into the car. 

"We are not at the office yet. So save the formality for when other people are around us," Lucy muttered as she got into the front seat of the car.

"Whatever you say, boss," Tom murmured as he got into the driver's seat and turned on the car. 

"Did you sleep well?" Tom asked as he drove the car. 

"I did. What about you?" Lucy asked, turning to look at him. 

"Same."

Neither of them said a word to each other after that as they were both occupied by thoughts of their own. While Lucy was wondering if the CEO was going to want to talk to her about her relationship with his soon-to-be sister-in-law, Tom was thinking about the meeting he had to attend at Ocean Airlines later that morning. 

"Uhm, I might not be available until later in the evening. I have a job I need to attend to, I hope you don't mind?" Tom asked once he parked the car.

"Will it take all day?" Lucy asked, wondering if he was going to be back in time to bring her lunch. 

"I will be back in time to take you home, you don't have to worry about that," Tom assured her as he extended the car key to her. 

"You should go with the car so that your movement will be faster and less stressful" Lucy offered with a small smile. 

"I can't do that. I don't want to get in trouble with Mr. Harry. For some reason I feel like he has something against me and won't hesitate to fire me for the slightest excuse," Tom said, but Lucy shook her head. 

"Don't worry about him. I will just tell him I sent you on an errand. You really should go in the car. See you later in the day," Lucy said as she reached out to open the door.

"By the way, I just realized that I don't know your surname," Lucy said turning to look at him with her hand still on the door.

"Handy. Tom Handy," Tom said making Lucy's lips twitch in amusement. 

"I thought it was just a nickname because of your job?" she asked. 

"I suppose my surname gave me my life's purpose," he said with a grin, and Lucy giggled.

"Well, it's good to meet you, Tom Handy," Lucy said in an amused tone as she got out of the car and waved at him before walking away. 

Tom sighed as he looked at the car key in his hand. He had no need for her car since he would be leaving for the meeting in his own car. He got out of the car, and after locking it he headed for his office.. He was just going to have Harry take the car somewhere else so that she would think he had left with the car as planned.