Chapter 57 - 57

Brandon drove Reiner home. His face was adopted with a smile all the way there. He releases the breath he was holdinh when he pulled up informed of the male's house.

He was nervous and tense while driving that it surprised him that he didn't get them into an accident. The doctor's words were still fresh in his mind and it made him really nervous.

Being responsible for Reiner's life was a weight that he wasn't sure he could handle. It was all just too sudden that he panicked.

After leaving Reiner in his sister's hands, he left the house to go home. He was terrified of the worst that would happen to Reiner if he fails to keep the boy happy.

He drove all the way home the stress only getting worse the more he thought about it. If the past has proved anything it was that maybe yhey werent meant to be. And if that was the case then his could he take such a big responsibility.

If Reiner died because he failed, he would never be able to forgive himself for it. The guilt would catch up to him and eventually end him to, that he was sure of.

He parked the car and rushed to his room. He passed his parents in the living room. They looked worried about his but he didnt have the strength to deal with them.

He locked the door behind him and went to his knees, he was tired. After Taking care of Reiner at the hospital and smiling so much. He was mentally and physically exhausted.

"Why is it that things never get better?" he asked himself. Everything keeps them apart one way or the other, the world wasn't theirs, he thought.

His phone beeped in his pocket. He wiped the tears from his eyes and took his phone from his pocket. He read the message from Reiner.

'I miss u already. Hope you got home safely'

He locked his phone and threw it on the ground. He just couldn't bring himself to accept the things that were happening in his life. It was unfair that his happy ever after was filled with so much pain.

It was as though the wicked with of the west was watching him from the shadows creating obstacle for him and Reiner along the way.

He picked up his phone and himself from the ground and went to the couch. He kept his earphones on and listened in his ear.

Music was always something that he could count on when he felt down. They understood him and his ge felt. They expressed the words that defined his feelings in perfection.

He closed his eyes to let himself get lost in the song to stop getting stressed. He hated himself for lying to Reiner about what the doctor said but it was either that or let him get dressed and reduce his lifespan.

He wished that he could go back in time, this time the two of themshouldbt meet. That way Reiner would suffer the same fate and he wouldn't remember how much he loved him.

They both would not have each other but at least they would live a long life.

He couldn't get it out of himself that like the rest of the boy's family. He was also responsible for pushing him off the edge. He had vowed to keep the boy happy and prolong his life but he had no Idea how to do that.

He didn't know what to do to make Reiner so happy that he wouldn't get stressed and have another attack.

The music only made it worse. Instead of calming him down it made him more stressed. He couldn't relax.

"What am I supposed to do?" he asked. The room was silent with no reply to his question. He was alone and Zack was no where to be seen.

"I wish I knew how to save you,"he said with pain in his voice. "Then you would get better and I wouldn't get to worry about you," he added.

He was new to this and lacked the knowledge of what to do at this point. If only relationships came with a manual then thing's would be fine.But no, they were that part of life that was different yet for everyone.

He was stuck between a rock and a hard place. He needed to help Reiner get better since he couldn't live without him but the way to do so was unknown to him.

His mind wondered to Reiner and how good he was at making him happy back then. His flirtatious ways that always got him to blush and smiled were what he missed the most.

He never would have thought that such a warm person lived such a lonely life. The problem was that he didn't have that in him to flirt with the boy and make him smile.

He had worked so hard to make the boy love him back and got that, and now they were in this Great place with each other but this sickness was threatening that.

He didn't think he would be able to look at Reiner in the eye knowing that any wrong choice of words that he might use might kill him. Or if he did something that makes the boy unhappy then he would never see him again.

There was so much running through his mind terrifying him more than he already was. He didn't know what to do about that but hopefully things will look up in the morning.

He picked up his phone and texted Reiner back. 'I miss you, got home safe. I love u'

His eyes were filled with sadness while sending the text. Saying the words I love you made it the more painful to imagine that one day Rainer won't be there anymore and he won't have anyone to send the text to.

It was heartbreaking to imagine his future without Reiner in them. Such a future would not only be terrible but it was one that he never wanted to apart of.

"I never want to live if you aren't around you be with me," he whispered.. "Don't ever leave me."