Chapter 8 - 8

It is almost dinner time and I have finished unpacking my thing in the dormitory. I am a lion now which is one of the boy's dorms, I am sleeping on the far end of the room in a corner. It is a bunk bed and I got the top bunk, I placed my things for tonight on top of my pillow and leave with Charlie to the dining hall for dinner.

We get there and sit at the table next to Claire who is already seated and having his food. We settled down and serve ourselves before digging in. The food is delicious and the conversation with my friends was very comforting, for the first time in my life I feel like a big piece of the puzzle that is my life has been placed right. I feel like I have someone to watch over me and take care of me and it is amazing. I am not alone and I have friends who might one day become my family.

This year is going to be different, full of colors and love. It will be peaceful and full of new memories filled with joy and happiness. And I will like and remember this year for many years to come. Interestingly enough I don't even miss my family very much and they're not loving me also does not hurt as much as it did before..

I have had a real smile on my face today after so many years and it felt good to smile wholeheartedly. My dreams are finally coming true, I have people who accept me for me and not for the person they expect me to be. They just like me the way I am and it pleases me a lot to learn this. My birthday wish has come true, lady luck has her best wishes in mind for me this year.

My heart started to beat and everything started to move in slow motion all of a sudden. Every noise inside the hall was suddenly gone and all I could hear was my heartbeat. It was exactly like the time when I am near Reiner, thinking of him and being around him causes my body, heart, and mind to go crazy. I haven't seen him since that incident that happened earlier today, the incident about the kiss. The kiss that I haven't been able to stop thinking about. Does he also think about that kiss as I do, he seemed so upset after that kiss that I doubt that he liked it. My heart was pounding in my chest and the pain from earlier came back.

It hurt so much to think about it, I closed my eyes shut and held my fork very tightly. Tears were brimming in my eyes and my hand started trembling. "Take deep breaths and calm down and eat your food." I heard from my side and looked only to find Reiner sitting right next to me having his food. He smiled and continued to eat his food.

My heart calmed down and I regained my composure, I picked up my fork and did exactly as he said. Then I understood that why my heartbeat increased a while ago, it was because he was right next to me. I didn't see him but my body felt his presence or something like that I mean how else would you explain that. I think that he practices some sort of witchcraft and he has used his magic on me. That is the only reasonable explanation to what happens to me whenever he is around me. It is sorcery, I am not a believer but with all the signs right in front of me then how can I not believe.

Everything went in slow motion just moments ago and now everything is normal and let's not mention the pain in my heart that comes when I think of him disliking me and then disappears only when he is around me. He causes me pain and then magically takes it away, it is so strange just like the way my body reacts in his presence. He drives me so crazy just like his magical kiss that has rendered me completely helpless.

I can neither forget it nor stop thinking about it. I have left longing for more of that kiss, I know that it is wrong to think like that about a boy but I can't help it. It is only the first day and already I have lost my mind to the point that I have started to sin by thinking such ill thoughts about a boy. I don't know what will happen in the future but I am sure that this is just the beginning of whatever is happening to me. I am glad that this school has a church that way I can confess my sins to God and pray for Him to forgive him.

The Almighty will have to forgive him for the sins he has committed and has yet to commit. He is not intentionally sinning, it is all beyond his control. This sorcerer seated next to him is to blame for him was the reason for everything that was happening to him and with him.

"Get out of your thoughts and have your dinner else you will go to sleep hungry." He nudged me from my side bringing me out of my thoughts. I ate my food quietly, my friends were talking about something but my mind was so occupied with so many things that I couldn't hear a thing they were saying. I was concentrated on my food, then Charlie and I went back to the dorm after dinner. He kept talking my head off but I couldn't hear a single word, my mind was busy with thoughts of Reiner.

We got back to the dorm and went to our beds, I climbed up to the bed and tried to sleep. Every time I closed my eyes I would see his face smiling back to him. I turned back and forth to try to get him out of my mind but it kept running back to him and it taunted me. I kept thinking about the time in the car and at the restaurant and my heart became excited as though it knew that my mind was thinking of him. I remembered the burning sensation I felt on my lips when he kissed me and that was the straw for my heart and mind to be in disarray. Everything was going round and round with his thoughts.

"Stop thinking about me or I won't be able to sleep tonight." I heard and up on the bed, my eyes opened but I couldn't see anyone due to how dark it was. I reached out to the pillow and removed the torch from under it, I opened the torch and saw Reiner right there in front of him. My breath hitched and my heartbeat picked up. "Y..you, what are you doing here ?"

"Well, I didn't know that I needed your permission to be here. Secondly, my bed is right next to yours so where else am I supposed to be at this time of night if not here sleeping in my bed. I can go back to sleep as long as you stop thinking of me."

"How did you know that I was thinking about you ?"

"My instincts and the fact that I can't seem to fall asleep but your reaction confirmed that you were thinking about me."

"Sorry."

"Come here I want to say something to you," he instructed me and I moved close to him. " goodnight." He whispered sweetly in my ears and kissed my cheek before climbing onto his bed and falling asleep.