Chapter 19 - 19

I laid down on the ground staring at the blue sky, this was not how this day was to end. I had not expected everything with Reiner to end so suddenly and I also didn't expect my heart to be in so much pain today. It was much worse pain than the ones I had in the past.

" I am so sorry Brandon, I had no idea that you had a boyfriend. I didn't know anything about you and it was wrong of me to just kiss you like that. It is my fault that things turned out the way they did. Please will you ever forgive me," he said and just then I realized that he must have followed me from the park and saw the fight. I wiped my tears and got up, I walk away from him.

I just want to get home and sleep forever, I don't ever want to wake to my current reality. I stumbled as I walked but I kept walking, I don't want to pass in front of the cafe so I decided to cross the road and walk on the other side. I clumsily tried to cross the road, I couldn't see the road properly with the tears that clouded my visage. I was pushed out of the road and I rolled to the side with someone..

I cleared my eyes and saw Zane laying on top of me."Are you out of your mind? You could have been run over by a car right now, what were you thinking crossing the road without looking both ways," he scolded.

He got up and I got up too but slid down and he caught me before I could reach the ground. He pulled me up and I landed on his chest. I hugged him and cried, my heart was in so much pain, and more than anything I need a shoulder to lean on. Reiner's threat kept replaying in my mind making it difficult for me to breathe. I glanced up and saw Reiner by the window looking at us. I quickly let go of Zane and wiped my tears away. He stepped away from the window and disappeared.

"We should leave, standing here is not going to make him come out," he said and I nodded. He took my hand and led me away. My eyes kept glancing back at the cafe hoping he would come out.

He took me to an ice cream shop and we sat opposite each other. " What will you have?” he asked but I couldn't find the voice to reply to him.

"We will have chocolate milkshakes with a slice of chocolate cheesecake," he said to the waiter who had come to take our order. Today reminded me of my birthday, I cried in a shop just like I am doing now. That day a beautiful boy sat across from me but today a handsome boy is, on that day I had chocolate cake bust like the one in front of me. More tears fell from my eyes when I remembered the day that we met. My luck started changing only that day after I met him.

"What's wrong? Don't you like chocolate-flavored cake? I can order a different flavor for you if that is the case," he said.

I tasted the cake out of curiosity but it tasted nothing like the cake he made me. The food was tasteless and I couldn't bear to eat it, I pushed the plate away and lay my head on the table, and cried. I couldn't contain my feelings anymore.

"I can't say that I know what you are going through since I have never been heartbroken before but I do sincerely apologize for my part in your heartbreak," he mumbled, and the more he spoke the more I cried. I don't even know why I am here with him or why I keep listening to him. Maybe I just don't want to be alone with my emotions right now and I just want to have some company.

Going home will only make my pain worse, for one no one there cares whether I live or die so why would they be concerned about my heartbreak. I don't even know how they will react when they find out that I am attracted to boys and not girls. "I think that they will disown me," I thought.

"Who will disown you?" Zane asked making me aware that I heard said that statement out loud. I didn't bother to reply cause quite frankly he is to blame for the state that I am in and I don't want to talk to him. My family can disown me for all I care, it won't make a difference to me anyway. They have always been like strangers to me so their opinions don't matter but his does. I can't deal with him being upset with me, my heart won't be able to handle it. I close my tired eyes and fall asleep.

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"For how long will he continue to sleep?" Zane asked no one in particular. He got up from his seat and tried to wake Brandon up. He shook him and called out to him but he didn't respond, the more he tried to wake him the more attention he attracted. The other customers got worried and came to see what was wrong. Among them was a doctor who checked on him.

"We have to get him to the hospital, he is unconscious and his body is burning up," he said to Zane.

They quickly called a taxi and they drove him to the hospital. The doctors at the hospital took him and attended to him. " We have conducted some tests on him and we can't seem to find what the problem is. He seems fine or at least that is what the tests are saying but he has an irregular heartbeat unlike anything I have seen before," the doctor told Zane when he came out of the room.

"What do you mean irregular heartbeat? Does he have a heart problem?" Zane asked the doctor getting worried.

"From the test, we did it doesn't look like he has a heart problem. That is why we are finding it difficult to identify what the problem is. You see it is due to this that he has become I'll but we haven't seen anything like it so I don't know where to start the treatment," he said with a look of disappointment. He wanted to conduct tests on him to find out what was causing his condition but couldn't unless the family permits him.

The rest of the day the doctors kept coming in and out of the room doing their best to stabilize his heartbeat. Twice he had come close to death, the doctors were trying everything to help him. Zane had already paid the hospital bill and he now sat down next to him on the bed. He was watching him like a hawk to ensure that if anything happens he can call the doctor immediately. He had never known Brandon to have a heart condition despite knowing everything about him.

He prayed that nothing bad should happen to him, he had finally returned to him after many years he couldn't lose him now. He held his hand and begged him to wake up, he could not live without him but he didn't react to anything he said. Just then Brandon's phone rung and he let go of his hand. He went to the table and picked up the phone.

"Reiner, why would he be calling?" he asked before answering the call.

"You left your math book with me, come pick it up. I have left it with my sister," said Reiner on the other end of the call.

"This is not Brandon, I am Zane," he said.

"Oh, then tell your boyfriend to pick up his book from my sister at the cafe," he said coldly, colder than when he spoke earlier. Zane could feel that he was upset and wanted to clear the confusion for Brandon's sake.

"I am not his boyfriend and he can't come to pick up the book..." he couldn't finish his statement since Reiner interrupted him.

"Why is he too busy making out with you to do that," he asked angrily.

"No, you are misunderstanding me," he said.

" I am sure I have," Reiner replied sarcastically before hanging up the phone.