Chapter 30 - 30

"I can't lose you," Brandon whispered under his breath and chased after Reiner. He forcefully pulled Reiner away from the hallway and into one of the empty classrooms.

"I agree that I made a mistake but please don't speak like that," he begged. "I am not going to let you go this time so please reconsider. I love you and I know how to show you how much I love you," he stated wanting to show him the Nobody music video. He was ready to tell Reiner his secret identity.

"I don't want to see anything, you failed my test and now I am not interested in what you have to say. Remember what I told you would happen if you failed. I am going to leave and you will never see me again," he declared.

"I refuse to let you go away from me, Reiner I have already confessed my feeling to you and I know you know that they are true. Will you please just put everything behind us and be with me. I need you and you need me too so can't you just say yes?" he asked caressing Reiner's hand..

"I don't want to hear your explanations. We had a deal and you broke it, how can I trust that you won't break my heart as fast as you broke our deal?" he asked him pulling his hand back from Brandon.

"There must be something else I can do to convince that isn't like the first deal. I can try to stay away from Zane but he is just too clingy and I can't control him. I can't guarantee that he won't come close to me," he explained to Reiner hoping to get a third chance.

"That just gave an idea of what you can do to convince me. You say that he is clingy when it comes to you then don't stay away from him. Get close to him instead," he told.

"Say what now!" he inquired confused as to what was going on in Reiner's mind.

"I will explain, what I want you to do is simple. I want you to make him believe that you have fallen in love with him and then break his heart," he professed.

"What!" Brandon exclaimed in shock. He could not believe what Reiner was suggesting for him to do.

"Every time he comes close to you I can't stand and it hurts right here," he said pointing to his heart. "It breaks my heart to see you with him, he knows that I don't like it but he still does it. So I want to watch him feel the way he makes me feel."

"Are you crazy Reiner! We are talking about a person's heart here. I can't just up and hurt someone like that, I know too well what a broken heart can do to a person and I am not going to do that to a person intentionally," he said in a matter-of-fact manner and refused him.

"Then my answer to your proposal is no. No, I don't ever want to be your boyfriend or anything to you for that matter," Reiner replied.

Brandon felt his heartbeat slow down and intense pain in his heart when Reiner uttered those words. It was like a curse that taunted him each time he felt or thought that he was going to lose Reiner forever.

"Wait, I will do it. I will break Zane's heart for you," he said in tears and prayed that Zane would one day forgive him for what he was about to do.

"Don't cry, baby. Once this is all over I will make it up to you when you become my boyfriend," said Reiner wiping his tears for him. "Just think of the two of us together forever and do it. Don't disappoint me," he added and left the classroom.

Brandon was left alone in the room with his feelings and his conflicts. He agreed to do what Reiner asked him to do but he wasn't comfortable hurting someone. He was not even okay with getting close to Zane, to begin with, and was clueless about where to begin. He decided to rest on it for the night and think about it again the next day. He left the classroom and walked back to the dorm slowly. He was deep in thought as he left, he didn't notice Zane standing behind the classroom door.

He was worried that Brandon might drawback to his sad state so he followed him. He arrived in time to hear all their conversation. He would say that hearing Brandon accept to play with him like that didn't hurt but he would be lying. He understood that he had messed up a lot for him but to play with his feeling and emotions wasn't something he expected from the boy.

He wiped the tears sliding down his cheek before anyone could notice. "I made a mistake by kissing and I made another one today by hugging you. I won't let you lose Reiner because of me, I will help you get the one that you love," he whispered in a pained voice and blinked away the tears that had gathered around his eyes. Love was indeed the most painful feeling that he had ever known. He walked to the dorm and found his love busy with his book.

It made him happy to see Brandon lively again. He climbed on his bed and took his book out to do his assessments. "Zane," Brandon called out feeling very nervous about starting a conversation with Zane. He felt so guilty about what he was about to do.

"Yes," he replied to him. Brandon was second-guessing going through the plan that Reiner had made. Zane made mistakes but he was a good friend to him and he cared about him. He couldn't bring himself to hurt him when all he ever did was love him and take care of him.

"Never mind," he said. In the distance he could see Reiner shaking his head in disapproval, 'Our deal,' he mouthed to Brandon.

Brandon bit his lip and folded his hand into a fist and dug his nails deep into his skin. Zane watched him and followed the trail of his sight and saw him sitting on Alex's bed playing chess. He looked back at Brandon and decided to help him.

"Brandon, can you help me with something," he asked getting Brandon's attention.

"What is it?"

"You won't be able to see it from there can you come here," he said and patted on the bed suggesting for him to go sit there. Brandon complied obediently and sat on his bed.

"What's up?"

"What I need is for you to help me with this math problem," he said and handed Brandon his book. While Brandon tackled the problem he played along with what Reiner wanted and would hold Brandon now and then. Reiner was right to have asked for this to hurt him. Every minute of it was breaking his heart but he kept up a brave front and did what he could to help Brandon.

Reiner would once In a while look at them. He wasn't happy at all with what he saw, he hated seeing the two of them so close to each other. He thought he could handle letting Brandon go but it hurt. Brandon loved Zane and he was the obstacle in his love story, he thought. Now they can be together without having to pretend in front of him.

"Alex I have to go," he said and got off the bed. He stared at Brandon one last time. "I don't deny that you once loved me but now you love someone else and I don't want to come between the two of you. Goodbye Brandon."