Chapter 46 - 46

"Do you need anything?" I asked Reiner as I made preparations for him to sleep in the guest room.

"I'm fine."

"Look, I I'm just in the room next to you. If you need anything don't hesitate to tell me," I told to him and left the room locking the door behind me. I went to my room still feeling the jitters from earlier. I left the door open in case Reiner might need something. The day might not have gone the way I wanted it to but it was still a win. Just a little more and I will have him back. I went to bed and switched the lights off and closed my eyes to sleep.

My heart was restless, just the thought of him being in the next room to mine was driving me out of my mind. I turned around in bed to try and fall asleep but my mind kept going back to thoughts of him.

I got up from bed and went online to browse. I needed to gather new information about the changes that have taken place since my return. I don't want to be caught off guard like I was in the cafe due to a lack of information.

"Can I come in?" I heard Reiner ask at the door. I closed my laptop and looked up at him.

"Sure."

He walked into the room and stood next to me. He seemed nervous and troubled. "Can I sleep in your room tonight? I had a bad dream and I don't want to be alone," he requested and I agreed. I scooted over and patted on the bed for him to hop on. He got on the bed, covered himself with the blanket, and went to sleep.

"If you don't mind me asking. What was your dream about?" Did I ask out of curiosity?

"It's stupid and I don't want to talk about it," he says making me more curious. How can a stupid dream have scared him?

"Tell me please, I promise I won't laugh."

"Okay, but if you laugh then I will never speak to you again. Well, my dream was a bit weird. I was in a park and there were these two boys in front of me and they were kissing," he said covering his face out in embarrassment.

"You are scared of two boys kissing," I asked him in giggles. I know I promised that I wouldn't laugh but I can't help it when the reason he is afraid is so stupid.

"For your information that is not why I was afraid. The way my heartfelt watching them kiss is what scared me. I felt betrayed, cheated and heartbroken. I wasn't able to see their faces properly but I felt a connection to one of them. I ran away afterward but one of the boys chased after me and we got into a fight. The exact words we exchanged weren't very clear but one was."

"What was it?" I asked nervously.

"The threat I gave that boy. I told him that if he ever kissed me again then I will make him regret it. I know you probably think that I a stupid but the dream felt so real like a memory that I have forgotten," he said and I swallowed. Hard.

I knew all too well the memory he was talking about. It was the day that everything started going wrong. The day he began to hate me and distanced himself from me, how could I forget that day.

"I only came to you because I didn't want to be alone with these weird dreams. And my heart is not in the right place at the moment," he continued.

I didn't know what to say to him but if he is dreaming about the past then his memories are returning to him and that means that I don't have much time. I have to find a way to convince him of my love before he recalls everything from the past and leaves me again.

"Say something."

"What do you want me to say. Your dream wasn't stupid and I don't think that it is real either. I think that your mind is just playing tricks on you, you are afraid of me and what might happen if you were to accept my proposal so your mind is just reacting to that fear. Maybe you are worried that if you give me a chance I will betray you with someone else," I explained hoping that he buys it.

"Maybe. It won't be the first time that someone I cared about betrayed me," he said and I held my breath. It felt like he was directing me with that statement and I know that I am guilty. I am betraying him by keeping such a big secret from him and acting as we had just met. He probably won't be happy with me when he recalls the past we share but I will cross that bridge when I get there.

"What do you mean?"

"It's nothing. I am tired and I want to go to sleep. Today has been exhausting for me," he confessed and turned around to sleep with his back to me.

"Sure but I will let you sleep on one condition," I said getting his attention as he turned around to look at me. "You have to fulfill a wish of mine."

"Can we do that tomorrow, I am tired?"

"Alright. Then you have to sleep tomorrow as well. Because I won't let you get any sleep at all if I don't get what I want."

"Tell me then, What do you want?"

"Nothing much but I have always wanted to sleep in your embrace. And lay my head on your chest and listen to the sound of your heartbeat coarse me to sleep. Will you please fulfill my wish?"

I didn't wait for his reply afraid that he might refuse and hugged him. I laid my head in his chest and got comfortable to sleep. Listening to the sound of his heart beating I felt at peace. The weight that has been weighing on my shoulders was a little lighter. Being so close to him brought joy to my soul.

"Why do you love me?" I heard him ask but didn't move from my position. "You are from a good family so I can't say it is for money. But I still wonder why it is you love me. You could have any girl of your dreams to be with you, so why me?"

"Only you can make me happy. Only you understand the rhythm of my heart. Only you can make my heart skip a beat and only you can love me the way that I deserve to be loved," I replied speaking from the heart.

"But we have only just met. How sure are you that I am capable of worthy of all the praises that you are giving me?"

"Because I know you and I love you. I could never love someone unworthy of me."

"Isn't that a bit cocky?"

"You have no idea. All you need to know is that no matter what happens you must never forget, that I love you very very much. And I will wait for you no matter how long it takes for you to love me back," I let out and fell asleep in his arms.